Day 2: Autumn Leaves - Everything Must Change

When my bf and I were leaving my mother and my granny's house last weekend, we noticed several leaves that had fallen in the driveway.  Many of these leaves were from two of the four sycamore trees in the yard.  I noticed one particular leaf and was taken by how beautiful it was.  The shape, the color, the stem, the veins - it seemed perfect.  I hadn't seen a leaf quite this beautiful since I used to play with, make art with, and rake them as a child.  Or maybe I simply hadn't taken the time to notice them as I got older.  Something that will never change is my love of autumn leaves (and the season in general).  I can attribute the rich colors of leaves (and autumn) to why I love earth tones.  It's a wonderful, gorgeous time of year.  A sign that things are changing.  All symbolic of the cycle that nature follows every season, every year.  And it brings to mind a favorite standard of mine, "Everything Must Change."  Take a listen to the late, great Walter Jackson with his breathtaking version of this tune.

Day 1: MJ's This Is It

My bf and I had the privilege of seeing This Is It last month. I have to say that this was one of the best movies I've seen this year. I left with an even greater appreciation for the man behind the music. I had no idea what to expect. I didn't know if it was going to be documentary, a performance film, or a combination of both. It turned out to be a spectacular combination of both. The film told the story of how Michael Jackson and his tour crew prepared for the This Is It shows in London. From the rehearsal of the first song "Wanna Be Startin' Something" to the final, moving performance of the spine-chilling "Man In The Mirror," it was clear to see that Michael Jackson was just as bad as he was in his younger years. Anyone who wondered whether he still had it (not me) would be floored by what they saw. The artistry, the moves, the voice, the stage presence were just as strong as ever. That's the thing about true talent. It never leaves. It never goes away. Regardless of what happened, there's nothing that could take away what was inside of him. And you could eerily feel his presence–so strong–while watching the film. I cried at least 5 times while watching his performances. Almost didn't think I was going to make it through the film because it was such an emotional experience. Michael Jackson was true genius. He's still missed. With films like This Is It, his legacy will continue to live on.

If There Were No Song

Hello all! It's been awhile - hasn't it? I didn't mean to be away for so long. But I'm back in school now and my schedule is like who done it and why. I'm in the dual IT/MBA degree program. Though the work hasn't been exceptionally difficult - being up late damn near every night of the work week (and weekend) has been kicking me in the butt. I'm so tired and exhausted I'm delirious. I had three online classes this semester. One was a 6-week class. It seemed like I had more assignments and reading in that class than I had in my regular 12-week classes. I was very happy having successfully completed that class and lightening the load (ever so slightly). My grades have been pretty good thus far. At this point - balance is key. Cause working full-time and going to school part-time and not getting adequate sleep is not going work for the duration. I'll get it together though. I have faith. With change comes adjustments. I'll be fine.

Personally things are fine. My bf moved in officially last month. We've taken the next big step. And we seem to have adjusted quite well to this. We haven't killed each other yet or had any blowout bash arguments. If something pops up or pisses us off - we talk about it right then and there. We get it out in the open and try to resolve it as best as we can. Our open-line of communication is one of the reasons why our relationship is so strong. We talk about everything. And we realize that we need to be on the same page if we want to keep things moving in a positive direction... Oh - how I love him! He's been so good to me. He supports me like no other. He has my back. He respects, appreciates, and accepts me - completely. And he's not afraid to go there with me or put me in place when I go off the deep end. And I lovingly, willingly, graciously, freely do the same thing in return.

As of today, I'll be starting a project that I'll call my "101 Days Project"This project will consist of my musings on various things in my everyday life - be it the workday, home life, music, movies, books, quotes, current events... I may be responding to something I saw, heard, or read. My responses may be take shape in the form of poetry, song lyrics, images, drawings, free writing, you name it. Anything is fair game here. It'll be creative but also be a learning experience for me (and maybe you too). And I figured BuddahDesmond's Rapture is the best repository for the project. Another good thing is my "101 Days Project" will get me into the habit of posting on a regular, daily basis (something I have not quite been able to do since starting this blog a little over 5 years ago). So stayed tuned as the project progresses for the next 101 Days.

Life is music. Simple. Complex. And everything in between. We're players in it. Musicians, singers, writers, producers, and executives. Each day is a song. Each has it's own tempo, theme, mood, depth, feeling, subject matter... Some days we're all singing the same song in unison or different keys. Other days we're singing our own uniquely different tunes. They're colorful. They're bombastic. They're jubilant. They're melancholy. They're all this and so much more. If there were no song - could we live? Could we be? If there were no song - I doubt hardly that we'd exist.

Until next time... Have a great weekend!

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Now playing: Pitbull - Can't Stop Me Now
via FoxyTunes

Blogiversary + Interview + Reviews

Wassup Blogworld?!! Hope everything is cool. It's been a minute since I've updated. Life has been keeping me busy personally and professionally. Things are going well though. I've been so busy I missed my own 4-year Blogiversary. Happy Blogiversary to BuddahDesmond's Rapture! Can't believe it's been that long. Lots of life changes since then (all for the better - thank god). But one thing's for sure - I'm much happier now than I was when I started blogging. I feel so much stronger, wiser, and better about various facets of myself and my life. It's an ongoing process. The internal work is never seems to be done. Even when it's all good there's always room for improvement. As I reminisce, I may update this post with links to some of my favorite posts over the last few years.

Be sure to check out my interview on the Encore Status Entertainment website with indie singer/songwriter/performer Lafonda a.k.a. The Bronx Bombshell. Also, check out my review of Maxwell's BLACKsummers'night and Vanessa Williams's The Real Thing on the Pictures and Frames website.

Until next time, be safe. Have a great weekend!

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Chrisette Michele - Epiphany
via FoxyTunes

R.I.P. E. Lynn Harris

I was stunned when I heard that E. Lynn Harris died. I thought it was just another hoax. But sadly, his passing was in fact true. Harris was a tremendous talent. He was the voice of a community that had often been silenced, nonexistent, or unacknowledged in the literary world. Harris' work inspired dialogue, and opened minds and hearts. His contributions helped pave the way for many of today's black gay contemporary writers. He was a treasure and will forever be missed.

Thank you, E. Lynn Harris, for inspiring us. Thank you for sharing our stories. Thank you for helping me, and I'm sure many others, who–at a young age–was struggling with my sexuality but learned to accept and embrace it. 

E. Lynn Harris, rest in peace. We love you!

~ BuddahDesmond

Never Knew

Never knew I could feel this way about someone
I always thought about it
Always dreamed about it
Fantasized about it
Prayed for it
But never knew it would be like this

What I’m feeling far exceeds expectations
It trumps predecessors
It squashes competition
Smashes records
Wins every time
I had a feeling before but it doesn’t equal the real thing

Everything I’ve ever wanted in a man
I’ve found in you
All the wonderful things that dreams are made of
All the qualities to brag about
All the characteristics I find attractively appealing
Intellect and wit that keeps me on my toes
Handsome sexiness that I can’t resist
Tenderness, care and compassion that brings tears to my eyes
With flaws and all you are simply beautiful, inside and out

Never knew I could find everything and more
I always wrote about it
Always sang about it
Talked about it
Wished for it
But it eclipses all that I’ve ever hoped for

Didn’t know it would be like this
It’s better than I expected
And I’m glad to finally have it
I’m glad to be in this place
Glad to have this feeling
So glad to be this in love
And for this, I will continue to express my gratitude

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Chrisette Michele & Ne-Yo - What You Do (Single Version)
via FoxyTunes

R.I.P. Michael Jackson (1958 - 2009)

Legend.
Icon.
Innovator.
Trendsetter.
Humanitarian.

You were truly gifted.
An inspiration to many.
You were the greatest entertainer in the world.
Touched so many of us with your heart, soul, and spirit.

There will never be another like you.
So we are grateful that God kept you here as long as he did.
We are sad that you had to go so young.
But it was time.
You were called.
And now peace is finally yours.

You will truly be missed.
Your music and legacy will continue to inspire, uplift, and shape us all
You will never die.
You will always live on.
We will always love you, Michael Joseph Jackson!!!

~ BuddahDesmond

The Death of Subtlety

Is Burger King blowing your mind with their new sandwich or are they blowing something else?
Check EW.com's article about Burger King's latest ad: http://tinyurl.com/n6gurx.

All 4 Janet.

I'm finally sharing some of my artwork online. And what better way to start by showing a picture of Janet Jackson that drew almost 12 years ago. She's one of my favorite people to draw. And it's more than obvious at this point that she's one of my all-time favorite entertainers. Growing up, I was inspired by and adored her music, style, and presence. I must say though, I miss seeing her on the scene.

It seems like Discipline was released so long ago - though it was only last February. It debuted at No. 1, "Feedback" became her first top 20 pop hit since 2001's "Someone to Call My Lover," and then like that—it was all over. Yeah, there was the tour (the show was EXCELLENT!!), but you know what happened with that.... Aside from the Superbowl Incident (I still say she was blacklisted in lieu of this), issues in the Jackson family (not going there), and record labels who have no idea how to promote her (anymore)—her musical career seems to be at a crossroads.

She's accomplished more in the last 27 years than most artists will in their entire careers. She's done it all. She set the tone. And you can see that with many of today's hottest female entertainers. The influence is unmistakable. But her music just hasn't "hit" the way it used to. I don't think it's because the music is bad. Have their been some sub par moments over the course of the last three albums? Yes. But lackluster production, poor marketing, no radio airplay, and minimal label support have all played major roles in the downward spiral of Janet's musical career.

Now, the lady is BAD!!! Always will be. She can grace the stage—not say, sing, or do a thing—and the audience will go wild. Nothing can take away her talent or the history she's made. But it's time to hit 'em hard. Hit 'em with something they'd least expect. Or go back with Jimmy Jam & Terry Lewis. The chemistry they have in the studio is magical. And last I heard, they were talking of going into the studio to work on the next album. Great news if it comes into fruition. Cause one thing's for sure—I won't be unhappy if JD isn't producing on the next album. No offense—I love his work. But it's just not for Janet. It may work for Mariah and Usher (to name a few)—but not for Janet.

All the greats have periods where they hit that brick wall or their music slumps. And most usually return to the top spot better than ever. It's usually when everyone has counted them out—at the least expected moment—when their prominence is solidified again. Whatever happens—Janet's got my support. I'll be rocking with Janet for life!

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Now playing: Janet - Can't B Good
via FoxyTunes

Sade Returns to the Studio!!!

What wonderful news, ain't it? I was so GLAD to hear that Sade has returned to the studio to begin work on their new album. I CANNOT WAIT!!! It's been 9 years since the release of their last studio album, Lovers Rock, and 7 years since the release of Lovers Live.

Sade never disappoints. Each album is a masterpiece in its own right. Sade's style, voice and lyrics, the band's instrumentation and production - all the elements always seem to come together so well. The music is timeless. It never sounds dated. And that's what sets them apart from so many of their peers.

You know, it doesn't matter how long the wait is for a Sade album. Because the quality always prevails. They take their time to create music. If the feeling isn't right in the studio when they convene to make the next album - they leave and come back another time. It's a method some of their peers need to follow. Unless you got it like that - take your time between releases. There's no need to be in everyone's face every five minutes - especially when the music leaves something to be desired. I'll take quality over quantity anyday.

It's rumored that the record may be out before the end of the year - but we'll see. There's just joy in knowing something good is coming....

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Now playing: Sade - No Ordinary Love
via FoxyTunes

Whitney - "The Voice" Returns....

Well, well, well.... The time has finally come. Whitney Houston will be returning with her first studio album in 7 years on September 1st. The as-yet-untitled release is being hailed as her comeback album. The new album will feature the production and songwriting of will.i.am, Sean Garrett, and Akon. It was rumored some time back that Ne-Yo, John Legend, and R. Kelly were writing and producing for the album but I guess we'll just have to wait and see if they made the cut.

This is definitely news.... I still don't know how I'm feeling about it though. Because if the duet Whitney did with Akon, "Like I Never Left" was any indication of what to expect - they can keep it in the studio. That song was horrible. You don't give a track that whack to someone like Whitney Houston. Maybe to one of these newcomers who need to prove themselves but not to one of the world's best-selling and most influential vocalists of all time.

I just hope and pray she's able to move forward into the next phase of her career clean and drama free. It would be really sad to see her go down the tubes. We've lost too many greats that way.... It will be great to see her return to the stage and the top of the charts again.

Have a great weekend folks! Be safe. Enjoy!

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Now playing: Whitney Houston - Run To You
via FoxyTunes

Inherent - A Throwback Poem

What's goin' on folks?! Hope you had a happy, safe holiday weekend. I'm good, or shall I say better. I just got over a two-week illness this past weekend. I had an upper respiratory infection and acute pharyngitis. It was no fun. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. And the antibiotic made me feel worse. I'm sorry but I will never be a fan of medicine that makes you feel worse in order to make you feel better. Can I get a natural remedy instead? LOL! But luckily - all is well. I'm so happy this happened now as opposed to next month when I have to travel for business or during vacation later this summer. Anyway, I've been reviewing some of my poetry for a few upcoming projects. And I thought I'd leave you with a poem I wrote back in 1998 entitled, "Inherent".

Have a wonderful week!

Inherent

For so long I
Breathed your love
Drank your air
Digested your breath
Tasted your feelings

For so long I
Savored the kiss of your lips
Devoured your kindness
Enjoyed the flavor of your touch
I lived inside your heart

For so long you
Gave so much
Maybe I didn’t give enough
But I’m inherent to you and your
Love
I live you
And oblivious of this you are not
And maybe these feelings are ambiguous
But I’m inherent to you and your
Love

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Christina Milian - Dip It Low
via FoxyTunes

If I Was A Ho...

Of all the dreams I could have,
One is kind of off and raunchy,
Not anything you’d expect of me.
But hey, one can dream...
If I was a ho…

If I was a ho,
I’d be slaying muthafuckas day and night.
I’d have my regulars,
And my one-nighters.
And there’d be no overnights.
Do the do and get out!

If I was a ho,
I’d make ‘em work for it.
You'll be treating me right
And treating me well.
And you won’t be stopping by empty handed
     Or unannounced.
Cause this ho wouldn't go for that.

If I was a ho,
I’d acknowledge that I was a ho.
There’d be no lyin’,
No frontin’.
You ask, I’m gonna tell you,
     Straight up.
If you have a problem with it – STEP!

If I was a ho,
Protection would be essential each and every time.
I’d make sure I was getting tested on a regular basis,
And demand the same from my conquests.
Because no one else should succumb due to irresponsible
     sexual behavior on their part or on the part of those
     they trust.

If I was a ho,
You would respect me.
Cause I ain’t that type of ho.
Thinkin’ you can get at me whenever you want and
   treat me like shit –
Oh no, not me.
Ho or otherwise!

If I was a ho,
I’d give it a new name –
Some grace and some class.
I’d bring new relevance to the jump-off.
And show that even hoes got it goin’ on!

But I ain’t a ho.
Though I could be one,
I can’t bring myself to do it.
It’s crazy out here.
And it’s just easier to be in a committed relationship
Or at home with a porno flick jerkin’ off.

So no, I have no plans of being a ho
     anytime soon
But if I was –
I’d be number one!

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: The-Dream - Rockin' That Thang
via FoxyTunes

I’ll Never Understand

In our society, who you align yourself with is just as important as what you believe, your actions, your experience, and where you come from. It’s been said that the people you hang with or conduct business with say a lot about who you are as a person. I guess this couldn’t be any truer than in public office. Many persons have been tarnished by the actions of others. Whether or not those affected had anything to do with what went down, they are guilty by association. I’ll never understand why, especially if it’s over foolishness that they had nothing to do with, or when there is an obvious disconnect between their platform and that of their close colleagues.

It makes no sense to me that people automatically change their opinions of you and your character based upon the beliefs held by people that you know—especially when you’ve expressed the distinctions on more than one occasion. You shouldn’t have to distance yourself from those close to you because of a fiery speech they gave, controversial rhetoric in an article, book, or video clip, or because certain beliefs they have challenge those held by the masses. It seems to me to be more of a problem with the public and less a problem with or for you; or more of a problem for pundits, sideliners, and so-called experts.

People have to learn to accept the unknown, the foreign, and the distinctive. People have to learn to separate individuals from other people, their actions, and their beliefs. Many times these factors are not synonymous. Why should persons be alienated and vilified for actions untaken and words unsaid by them?

Though I’ll never understand this, I hope that people understand the implications, and will hold themselves just as accountable as public figures to a bar that is unrealistically high. ’Cause if you’re going to do it to others, the golden rule says the same should apply to you.

© 2012 BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Maysa - Never Really Ever

via FoxyTunes

Buddah's Question

With the advent of blogging, microblogging (i.e. Twitter), and social networking sites, the way in which we communicate with each other continues to change. My question is - have these tools helped you create or sustain connections with people? Have these tools heightened your ability to stay in touch or pull back from your peers? And have they opened the door for several opportunities to reach or communicate with people who you might not otherwise? Let me know your thoughts.

Hope you all have a great week! Peace!

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Now playing: Van Hunt - Down Here in Hell (With You)
via FoxyTunes

Buddah's Thoughts

1. I was really psyched about seeing Beyonce on tour - until I found out how much the tickets were. I just can't bring myself to pay $100+ for the nosebleed section at the Verizon Center. Plus, I'm in debt payoff mode and saving for new furniture and vacation. I had to prioritize. Looks like Bey will have to wait. I can catch the I AM.... Tour on DVD. I know, I know - it's not the same.... But financial stability (and maintaining it) is more important.
2. My boyfriend and I saw the new X-Men Origins: Wolverine movie Friday night. We loved it! The plot, the acting, the special effects, cinematography - all top notch! I have to admit I thought this was much better than X-Men 3....
3. Well, the media is up to its old tricks again - fear mongering.... And you should already know what I'm referring to when I say.... The coverage of the swine flu. Living in fear - didn't we get tired of this under the Bush Administration? Has anyone learned anything yet? Being afraid is not going to help us get over this pandemic any sooner. We need to be prudent and do our best to safeguard ourselves. We have to be a little smarter about this folks.... And looking to the media is not always the answer....
4. And is there anything else to report on other than Miss California's viewpoints on marriage? It's overkill at this point. Who care? This is America. Everyone can say or feel what they want. The problem comes in when you are browbeating others into thinking, feeling, and believing the same way. I have no problem with her viewpoints. I don't agree with them but it's not stopping me from believing what I believe or how I'm living my life. (See my post On Marriage for more.)
5. There are certain things that shouldn't be discussed at work. Politics, sex, religion, certain aspects of relationships.... I could go on and on. You usually have discussions about this at orientation and get documentation from HR regarding this.... But people do it anyway. You need to however, be very careful because you never know who is listening and who might be offended by what is said regarding any of the topics listed above. Oh the conversations that I've heard - it's mind boggling. Thank god I can tune things out with music.... It's been my saving grace many-a-day.
   
6. It's amazing how deep connections can be between friends. It doesn't matter what happens, the distance between you, how often you see or speak to each other - there's something that just keeps you linked. You can pick up where you left off with ease. You remain each other's constant supporters. I've noticed this so often with my closest friends. It's truly a great thing!
7. I have ongoing issues with mainstream music. I'm not sure when or where everything went amok but very little seems to fascinate me. As I get older, I seem to fall in love more and more with "grown folks music". Music that not only sounds good but has a purpose. It makes you think, feel, laugh, cry, dance.... It's real, never contrived. It doesn't follow trends and isn't derived from some tired, ole formula. It's art. And it's obvious when listening and seeing artists perform that they do it for the love of music and not for the money.
8. I'm looking forward to hearing Chrisette Michele's new album, Epiphany, to be released this Tuesday, May 5th. Her debut was one of 2007's best R&B/Soul releases. And I expect nothing but great music on the new release. I can't stop playing "Epiphany" and "What You Do". And I just heard "Blame It On Me" on Saturday (and that may become a new favorite as well).
9. Can you believe it - Maxwell has new music coming out? The first part of his trilogy BLACKsummers'night will be released on July 7th. The first single "Pretty Wings" is a masterpiece. It's classic Maxwell and a welcomed addition to keep in rotation. It's been 8 years since his last studio album. If "Pretty Wings" is any indication - it'll be well worth the wait.
10. I'm really looking forward to the summer. Being able to catch up on my reading. Hanging out with friends and family. Going to concerts and other events. The beach. Vacation. And spending quality time with my baby.... :)
    
11. After a long break, I'll be heading back to the gym. I paid for a new membership at Bally's this Saturday (great deal by the way - $29.99 a month/no initiation fee). I'll be working out at least 3 days a week. I've lost about 8-10 pounds without working out. It's now time to up the ante. The goal is to be healthier and stronger. Gotta make life changes and stick to them.

Oh well, that's it for me. Got to finish getting ready for the work week. Until next time, peace, love, and many blessings!

Kiss

When our lips met, I felt myself
     leave this place.
I was transcended.
And from the looks of it, you were too.
Something in the way our lips met,
Suggested a deeper feeling between us--
     Something we’re only beginning to experience and explore.
If this serves as an indication of the future,
     it’s going to be explosive.
What brought us together will only continue to grow.

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Kid Cudi - Day 'n' Nite
via FoxyTunes

Time Waits (for No One)

I'll live like forever is now
Because time waits for no one
And tomorrow just may not come 'round
Because time waits for no one
When we're gone
Only love goes on
~ Gloria Estefan, "Time Waits" from Unwrapped (2003)

Hello to all out in blog land! Hope all is fab in your world. It's been so long! I'm good though. Guess you can say I've been on a blog sabbatical. Life has been moving so fast lately and I find myself increasingly busy. At this point, I'm just trying take some time and enjoy breathing. Today was one of those days where I didn't feel like doing anything and that was my mission. Sit back, relax, and reflect....

I have to say that the last 8 or so months have been the happiest I've been in quite some time. My professional life is going well. My work has received quite a bit of praise and I was recently awarded with a merit raise. I was very happy about that. I hope to continue to improve and advance in my current position and whatever opportunities that stem from it.

Personally, my love life has never been better. My boyfriend and I have been together for about 8 months. And it just seems to keep getting better. We can't get enough of each other. We are so very much in love with each other. Life would be so much different without him in it. And I can't see my life without him in it. He's the one! And I am so thankful, so grateful to have the love that I've longed for and searched so hard to find.

I've fallen in love with my friends all over again. They continue to amaze me, push me, inspire me, uplift me, support me, love me... And every chance I get I pay them back in kind. Since so many of my friends are several miles away, we don't get to see each other (sometimes don't get to talk to each other) that often. So the moments we do have whether they be in person, over the phone, text, IM, or email - are cherished. We've all been thru so much. And we've been there for each other thru it all. I couldn't ask for better friends. I thank god for putting them in my life.

And I love my family. As crazy and dysfunctional as it can be, they're my foundation. I can't help but root for them. Even during the bad times. It's unfortunate that we're not as close as we used to be. I continue to pray for the day when the petty b.s. is no more and we all can get back to where things should be. I will always be indebted to them for their love, care, and support - my mother and my grandmother especially. They've been my rocks....

I guess I say all this to say that the events of the last few months have left me in a reflective, introspective mood. These are trying times for everyone. One of my best friend's at work lost her dad on February 13th. My boyfriend lost his grandfather and an uncle on March 13th and an aunt less than a week later. My mother was diagnosed with another form of cancer and had to go into surgery on March 20th. Luckily, she made it through without any complications. Due to her medical history, we still have to keep an eye on everything. And hope and pray that after this go round the cancer doesn't return. All we can do is hope and pray for the best. Play your part and then give it up to God.

Though I realized this before, as I get older it sticks more so now....Life is too short not enjoy it and live it to it's fullest. It can all be gone in a flash. So you've got to give it your all. Love hard. Play hard. Dream big. Go after everything you want. Don't let anything stop you from doing what you've been put on this earth to do. Own it. Own everything (as RuPaul would say....lol!). And I'm going to own everything! As Gloria Estefan sang, time waits for no one. This is our time. We've got to make the best of it.... And on that note, I wish you all well. Enjoy your weekend. Catch up with you later....

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Now playing: Gloria Estefan - Time Waits
via FoxyTunes

Encore Status Entertainment!! Check it Out!

Come celebrate the launch of our website for Encore Status Entertainment!

"New Stream is Main Stream" - that's the slogan for Encore Status Entertainment (ESE). Encore Status Entertainment is an online magazine created to expose the under exposed. We recognize those recording artists, fashion designers, artists, and filmmakers that normally go unseen and give them mainstream attention. On the ESE website, you'll find audio interviews, music reviews, clothing showcases, and much, much more.

Check out the ESE blog and then go over to the ESE website to check out interviews with Loj of NEG (Network Edutainment Group), singing hummingbird Brig Feltus, and female MC/producer Pri the Honeydark, and Greg of Emperial Nation Clothing.

And to celebrate the launch of our website, readers will receive a promotional discount for Emperial Nation clothing! But you've got to check out the website for details.

And remember - "New Stream is Main Stream!"

Peace, Love, and Many Blessings!!

I Wanna Thank You

2008 has been a year of change, surprise, madness, happiness, craziness, and resilience. But I made sure I didn't lose myself (or my sanity) in the midst of it all. I found balance. And I couldn't do it alone. I thank the Creator, my family, and friends for being there through it all. I know that if it wasn't for the wonderful support system I've had since the very beginning, I wouldn't be where I am now. Though I may be independent, I know I couldn't do it all alone. I am so thankful, so grateful for my family, my friends, a great relationship, my home, my job, food, clothes and the many others gifts and talents in this life I've been blessed with. I'm so happy to be here to share it with those that I love. I hope to continue sharing, living, loving, and experiencing. And I hope that I can continue to pay forward all of the great things that so many others have done for me. Hope you had a very Happy Thanksgiving. Be happy and be safe this holiday weekend. Peace, Love, & Many Blessings!

Love & Life

Hello All! It's been quite a bit of time since I last blogged. Life's been keeping me busy - really busy. So much so that I had to take a step back, chill out for a bit, and re-evaluate things. After the world tour from work (we traveled to six different locations in three weeks in July), I fell ill in early August. All the traveling took a toll on me and I spent a brief period in the hospital and on sick leave from work. It was a combination of exhaustion, stress, and anxiety (which sent my blood pressure through the roof). And this is not a good combination of things to be suffering from. It may seem lightweight but when you think about how your overall health can be impacted - it's not cool.

Looking at the amount of leave I'd accrued vs. what I actually used at work, I noticed that I had not taken off much at all. And in lieu my recent health scare, I figured I needed to rectify that. So whenever I feel I need to take a mental health day - I take it, without hesitation. I realize that end of the day - if you don't take care of yourself, who else will? I've been trying to relax more, chill more, party and socialize more (I've been doing a lot of that lately-LOL!). Just trying to enjoy life more really.

Aside from that, I've been spending time with family and helping out when I can. My mother and my grandmother actually took care of me while I was sick. I was so appreciative and grateful for that. I'd do the same (and have done the same) thing for them. It's the least that I can do for the many things they've done for me over the years. I recently helped them move into a new place back in late September. Due to the issues my mother's been having with her left hip/leg and lower back, she's unable to comfortably do a lot of walking and stair climbing. Her doctor told her she needed to move somewhere that didn't have any stairs. Fortunately, she and my grandmother were able to find a one-level house and everything is good. They've settled quite well into it.

I've also fallen in love.... This thang is for real. So SERIOUS!!!! I'm so happy (or I should say happier). All of the b.s., drama, and games I had to deal with in my previous relationships were the perfect set-up for what I have now. Totally work of The Creator. I can't say thank you enough! When you stop looking - good things do come your way. I do believe I've found my match. He's a beautiful man - inside and out. We feel exactly the same way about each other - and it's been that way seemingly from day one. Another reason to keep smiling.... :)

And I got to see Janet here in DC. Oh.... That show was one of the best shows I've ever seen. She brought the house down. They weren't ready-LOL!! I rocked with Janet for 2.5 hours of non-stop unadulterated entertainment. Say what you will about the Jacksons - but they rise like the phoenix. And regardless of what's going on - they always know how to put on an excellent show. Michael and Janet - two of the most influential and dynamic entertainers to ever grace the stage. Just look at all the reigning kings and queens of the industry now - you can't help but notice the influence Michael and Janet have had on them.

Anyway.... Life is good. Love is good. So many things to be thankful for. Even during the darkest moments.... There's always plenty of light shining when you come out on the other side. We often forget how fortunate we are. It usually takes a life changing event before we realize it.... Until next time... I wish you the best. Get out and vote. This thang is SO SERIOUS! DON'T PLAY!

Traveling, Traveling + 3rd Blogiversary!!!

Greetings! Hope you're somewhere cool - trying to beat the heat. I'm chillin'. Just got back from Dallas. My team is conducting field research for a project and will be traveling for most of this month. Aside from Dallas, we've been to Chicago and Tampa. We'll be going to Phoenix and San Diego next week. I've been to San Diego before (a beautiful place) but I've never been to Phoenix. I'm not sure I'll be able to beat the heat in Phoenix (with 100+ degree temperatures - I can feel my skin burning now - LOL!) but I'll enjoy it as much as our schedule will allow. Though, I am grateful to have a job that affords the opportunities to travel, I must admit - traveling is very exhausting. I feel like I'm going to need a vacation just to recuperate from living out a suitcase these last few weeks. LOL! But it beats being stuck behind a computer in a cubicle everyday. Change of scenery is always a great thing.

And I'm happy to announce BuddahDesmond's Rapture is celebrating its 3rd anniversary this month! I can't believe I've been blogging this long. So much has changed in my life both personally and professionally. And I've written about a range of topics and issues and still have much more to discuss. In honor of this celebration, I'd like to highlight some of my favorite posts over the years. Feel free to take a gander at these and any other posts:

1. The P/H Factor - Phyllis Hyman: Tribute to a Sophisticated Lady
2. I Walked Away
3. 26 Y.O. + Still Learning
4. Politricking
5. H-A-P-P-Y
6. Current Loves (of Music That Is)
7. On Marriage
8. When Hate Kills
9. And Then The Music Slumped
10. Luther Is Love

Other sites to checkout:

1. Pictures and Frames Magazine (I have poetry and music reviews of Chante Moore's Love the Woman and Craig David's Trust Me.)
2. Encore Status (This is the blog for an up-and-coming online magazine of the same name devoted to giving mainstream-like exposure to underground artists, musicians, fashion designers, and filmmakers.)
3. Melange - the Encore Status Mixtape, Vol. 1 (Tired of Top 40 radio? Need something new and different? Then Melange may be right for you!)

Until next time.... Peace, Love, & Many Blessings!

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Now playing: Common - Southside (featuring Kanye West)
via FoxyTunes

The P/H Factor - Phyllis Hyman: Tribute to a Sophisticated Lady

Gonna make changes
Gonna make minds aware
Moving together
Willing to share
There's power in the masses
Collectively we can win

~Phyllis Hyman, "Gonna Make Changes", Somewhere In My Lifetime, 1978

I couldn't let this week end without paying tribute to one of my all-time favorite vocalists, the late, great Phyllis Hyman (July 6, 1949 - June 30, 1995). The music industry hasn't been the same since her untimely passing. If you are unfamiliar with her music - do yourself a favor and please check it out. It's a rarity even to this day that someone comes along as gifted and talented as Hyman was. The singer, songwriter, model, actress and businesswoman would've turned 59 this year.

The P/H Factor
 

The angel with the resonant, rich, beautiful voice;

The Goddess of Love,

Commanding the stage like a queen;

Regal, striking, almost intimidating,

Queen of the blues, pop, soul, jazz, and gospel.

A true Sophisticated Lady,

In a class of her own,

In fact, ahead of her time;

Critically acclaimed yet under-recognized,

A mind-blowing woman with many talents

Who never achieved the stardom she truly deserved.

Yet, she is a legend.

Although you're no longer with us in the physical sense,

Your spirit lives on in your music.

Each time one of your songs plays, you are born again.

We relive the joy and wonder in our memories of you.

You touched us deeply

With your songs of love—

About its many facets, the ups and downs, the joys and the pain.

You took us there;

We were with you each step of the way.

With each note on the musical scale

You left us enraptured,

Capturing us in your mesmerizing essence.

You spoke to us and we could definitely relate.

That's why we will never forget you

And the many gifts you gave to the world.

Phyllis Hyman—the woman, the actress, the fashion model, the singer, the songwriter, and the performer:

You will always remain special,

You will always have a place in our hearts,

And a significant place in history.

One of the world's most beautiful women, with one of the greatest vocal instruments,

You are truly appreciated.

You will forever go on.

Phyllis, you were and still are loved.

Phyllis Hyman's music at Amazon

Have a happy and safe holiday weekend!

© 2012 BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Phyllis Hyman - Complete Me

via FoxyTunes

Surrender

come to me
let me show you the way to my heart
come with me
let us escape to the place where lovers go to freely
     express their love for each other
stay with me
never let me spend another night alone
lay with me
so that our bodies, souls, and minds can unite as one
let the wonderful beauty of this bond take us where
     it may
let us let go and let love take us away
let us surrender
and give our all to each other with the power of love

~BuddahDesmond

The Love Inside

You can have all the love in the world,
But the love that really counts is the love inside—
The love for self that shines through in each and everything
     you do.
It is only when you can love and accept yourself that you can
     begin to love someone else.
And once this happens,
You will be able to proclaim honestly and passionately,
"I've found true love!"

~ BuddahDesmond

I Walked Away

Slowly surely
I walk away from
self-serving
undeserving
constantly hurting me love
deserting me love
you said, I said, we said
but
~ Jill Scott, "Slowly Surely," Who is Jill Scott? Words & Sounds Vol. 1, 2000

If you haven't figured out from my previous posts yet, DP and I broke up. After 2 1/2 years, I had to walk away. It wasn't the love that I wanted anymore. It wasn't fulfilling my needs. After putting so much into it, I felt slighted. I felt shortchanged. I felt used. Because I wasn't getting back what I was putting in. The effort, the support, the openness wasn't being reciprocated. So I had to move on. The relationship was over long before it ended. I just had yet to open my eyes wide enough to see it. Though I saddened about our relationship's demise, I was thoroughly relieved. Content that I'd finally let go of what had been bringing me down for some time.

While I prefer to be in a relationship, I can do without the suffering, the heartache, the longing, and the pain. Lately, I've been enjoying the single life. I've been enjoying this time of reflection and introspection. I know that the next time will be quite different. And most of all, I'm going into this next period of life and love with no expectations. That way I don't get my feelings hurt too soon, too fast. And though it's only been a few months, new love seems to be on the horizon again. But I'm taking my time with it. No need to rush it. I'm just letting it flow - slowly, surely, easily, naturally. There's no hurrying love. A hurried love is one that will turn on you. It's one that will let you down. One that you won't be able to depend upon. Can't be having that! LOL! Until next time -- love, peace, and many blessings!

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Now playing: Jill Scott - Slowly Surely
via FoxyTunes

Next Time

After this last go round with love,
I've decided—
Instead of lambasting my ex for the wrong done
     to me,
I'm going to focus on me,
Own up to what I did,
Embrace the mistakes—
My faults,
And figure out just what I need to do,
So that next time I don't end up in the same
     situation.

I need to take this time—
Reflect upon me.
This is my time to rectify, recover, release,
     and regroup,
So that next time—
     I'm ready for love,
     fully and completely.

~ BuddahDesmond

Lost In You

An unknown
A stranger
A new being
that I didn't recognize
something you wished you'd left on the shelf
instead of bringing home with you
This foreigner came in and
changed everything
What I used to be
What I used to do
was usurped
forgotten
discarded
The old me became this new being
And I thought nothing of it in the
beginning
I made excuses for you and your
behavior, the things you said, and
the things you did
It was okay
I thought it was me
I was so lost in you
that I lost me

I eventually saw you, me, us
the situation for all that it
was worth (and not worth)
And I, eventually, grew
tired
I was exhausted from giving so much
And nothing being rightfully reciprocated
I was disgusted
Because I bent over backwards
Was hanging out on a limb
Living on the edge
And it seemed you didn't appreciate it
So the good thoughts began to lessen
I dreaded your calls
I was disgusted with you
But I was more so disgusted
with myself for allowing
this to fester
I was so lost in you
That I forgot who I was

So I had to reclaim what
was rightfully mine
to get back to me
I had to let go
I had to embark on a new personal
journey
to find me again
I had to end it with you
So that I could
start anew with me

~ BuddahDesmond

The End

Sad to say
but our union has come to a pass
At a point we were linked like no other
Joined, one
But something seemingly cosmic
changed the feeling
We lost our rhythm
Fell out of sync
Danced to entirely different beats
Some otherworldly thing
changed our space, our time
Though the love remains
All that should hold it together
unraveled
And we began to diverge....

Me
Left feeling the cold
While you were embraced with warmth
Emotions expressed
You say you do
But your actions fail to show that
you understand or know
Where I reside is a place
you can't seem to get to
I've given you directions
but you still end up lost
The sad part is that
you fail to see it

Maybe when you do
A great shift in thought, feeling,
perspective - a realization
will occur
And at that point
You will see not
only where I went wrong
But where you went wrong
where we both went wrong
And you should be able to move on
Hopefully wiser
Having learned a great lesson
about how to love

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Phyllis Hyman - Souvenirs
via FoxyTunes

26 Y.O. + Still Learning

Wow, it's been a while. You turn around and you find it's been three weeks since your last post. Hope everyone out in blogland is cool. I'm good. Just been busy. Been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting. I recently turned 26 (on February 15th). It was truly one of the best b-day's ever. I was taken out to lunch, had a surprise b-day celebration, and hung out with some friends at a cool bar & lounge in DC. I was tore up (and I mean tore up) for the first time in my life. I had a good time though (and that's all that matters). The tickets for the MJB and Jay-Z concert also went on sale on my b-day. One of my friends luckily scored some the same day and I'll be tagging along. I've never seen either artist live so I'm really excited about it.

Though I'm a year older, I still feel the same. I don't have any qualms or issues with growing older. I embrace it. Seeing those numbers change each year is a blessing. Just being able to get up each day makes me happy. It's as simple as that. Family, friends, good health, job, a home, food, clothes, etc. all make it that much sweeter. At 26, I know there's still more to learn. I'm a student--in this life, for this life--for life. Still so many places to go, so many things to do, so many people to meet. Wherever the journey takes me--that's where I'll be.

Before I head out - please check out Melange, one of the hottest mixtapes online. Brought to you by Encore Status Entertainment (ESE), Melange features a range of music by some of the freshest independent artists around the globe. Tired of top 40 radio? Then Melange may be right for you!

More to come later. Until then.... Peace & Many Blessings!!!




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Now playing: Chaka Khan - Super Life
via FoxyTunes

Politricking

They’re up politricking on the hill,

Taking lobbyists’ dollar bills,

Claiming they keep it real,

When they can’t give us something we can feel.

They make promises they can’t keep,

Forgetting that what they sow, they will reap,

Lyin’ to themselves and others to get a seat,

But when it all falls down the incumbent will get beat.

Your approach is haughty and self-righteous.

You come off cocky, act like you’re the second coming of the Messiah.

So sad—people caught on to bullshit,

Discovered you were only looking out for personal interests.

You’ve got it bad and that ain’t good,

Got the nerve to say you were misunderstood.

You give politics and government a bad name.

Liars, thieves, cheaters, adulterers, and politicians—

People will say they’re all the same.

You’re oblivious to the people you represent;

You act like this is a game when it’s a commitment.

You constantly cut and run and confuse the masses with doublespeak,

While your quest to save moral values has only divided and made us weak.

The time has come,

And the people see you for what you are.

They’re ashamed they let you get this far,

But when the time comes they know exactly what to do:

Find the next best thing and get rid of you.

© 2012 BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Janet Jackson - Feedback

via FoxyTunes

In Lieu of MLK Day 2008

This past Monday marked the celebration of Martin Luther King Day. Martin Luther King Jr. was a man who gave of himself unselfishly. He devoted his life to the fight for civil rights and equality for all. He led a movement that forever changed American society (and the world). His is a legacy that left an indelible imprint on the hearts and minds of millions. His current depiction however, seems to have many people believing the "I Have a Dream" speech is the only reason why we honor him.

As many leaders before and after him, King was a complex man. People seem to have forgotten, or they simply don't know, just how much he (and many other civil rights activists) did for us. How hard the battle was. How in the face of adversity he remained steadfast. He was a man with a mission - a calling if you will. He was committed to the cause. Determined to do all that was necessary to bring about change in a society that was plagued (and still is) with social ills. My words here, I admit, even fail to do King justice. But it pains me to see his life and his contributions being whittled down to the "I Have a Dream" speech.

If King were alive, I do wonder what his thoughts would be about our society today. In many ways it seems as if we've turned into what he feared the most - a divided society. The haves and the have-nots. The rich and the poor. The well-educated and the poorly-educated. White and Black. Or White and Everybody Else. The very things he was fighting against are the things that separate us. With all this talk about "change" - let's see which of the current presidential candidates will actually stop talking about it and be about it. Martin Luther King, along with many other activists and leaders of his day, set the tone. If you're going to name drop and throw out the "change rhetoric" then you need back it up with action. Only time will tell if any of the candidates (and any us) truly see the light.

Past, Present, and Future

I often wonder if our ancestors are pleased with our progress.

Looking down on us, would they hold their heads high in praise or bow them 
     down in shame?

Would they feel that everything they fought for was in vain?

Would they feel we are living up to the legacy they’ve left behind?

It’s a valid question, considering the disparities within our community.

There are disconnects between generations and classes,

Between faith and moral values,

Between the revolutionary and the righteous,

Between traditional and unconventional,

Between family and community.

Sometimes it seems like we are ghosts of what we were before.

The shades of greatness remain,

But the people have yet to figure out how to channel its power.

All is not lost, yet not all is fully realized.

I hope that our ancestors have not given up on us, the way we have given up on 
     each other.

I hope they feel that we all can come together to believe and dream and fight to 
     win again,

Because it’s there—

It never left.

We were born to survive in even the bleakest situations.

There’s still time to mobilize.

There’s still hope and faith that we can get it together,

and bring everyone to the same place again.

We just can’t forget about what was.

We can’t forget about who fought the many battles and won.

We can’t forget about our ancestors.

We must think of them

Because they are why we are here,

And why we must go on.

© 2012 BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Kenna - Daylight

via FoxyTunes

Buddah's Thoughts

Just some things that have been running through my mind.

1. I don't make new year's resolutions. I make life changes. And there will be many changes made in the very near future.
2. Well, it looks like DP and I may be living in the same state again sometime early next year. I'm getting excited! I've missed having him near dearly. Once the dates are finalized I've got to start planning for his return. I can't believe we've been together for a little over two years now.
3. Don't you just hate office politics? They can put a damper on an otherwise satisfying work experience. I do my best to avoid them at all costs. I keep all my personal business to myself. Cause the worst thing you can do is tell it to the wrong person. It'll spread around the office quicker than the speed of light. And people can use it against you.
4. Considering recent events, is the nation (and the world) really ready for the U.S. to have its first black president? With all due respect to Barack Obama, I'm just not convinced that it's his time yet. Of course, the primaries and the general election in November (and events thereafter) will tell the story.
   
5. Hell, is the nation (and the world) ready for Hillary Clinton to be president of the U.S.? With all due respect to rapper/actress Eve, Hillary Clinton is the "real pitbull in a skirt." Need I say more?
6. I liken Huckabee, Romney, Giuliani, and even McCain to revolving doors. They swing more ways on issues than a bisexual in the bedroom. Now, there's nothing wrong with changing your mind. There's nothing wrong with broadening your perspective. And there's nothing wrong with changing your opinions or views on certain issues. There is a problem however, when these things are changed to gain the support of a group people for votes. If people can't except you for all of your glory, excess, foolishness, and pain, it's their loss.
7. After reading about Benazir Bhutto's assassination, I had an eerie feeling that some real serious shit is about to go down. Everybody beware.
   
8. If I hear about another celebrity being arrested for a DUI I'm going to go on vigilante campaign to exchange celebrity driver's licenses for chauffeurs.
   
9. Looks like Paris Hilton got cut off. Grandpa is giving 97% of his fortune to charity. See what happens when you show your ass and dirty up the family name?
10. I love Mya like the next fan, but seriously, what's going on? She's been pushed back more times than a Kelly Rowland record. She called her new album Liberation and now she's like a caged bird that nobody wants to hear sing. Now, her single "Ridin'" was okay (at best), but "Ayo" and "Lock U Down" were garbage. Come a little harder next time Mya.
11. There were some really great releases in 2007 for music. I was really surprised. Some release days I just went for broke. I was like a kid in a candy store. I couldn't decide whose album I wanted more so I just bought everything.
    
12. If I had to tally my favorite R&B/Soul releases from male artists this year, the following would be on the list: Rahsaan Patterson (Wine & Spirits), Musiq Soulchild (Luvanmusiq), Ne-Yo (Because of You), Mario (Go), Trey Songz (Trey Day), Tank (Sex, Love, & Pain), Chris Brown (Exclusive) and Joe (Ain't Nothin' Like Me). Though they lean a little more on the jazzy side, I can't forget about Will Downing (After Tonight) or Raul Midon (A World Within A World). Hope I'm not forgetting anyone....
    
13. Aside from the singles already released on Jill Scott's latest album The Real Thing, I love "Crown Royal," "Epiphany," "All I," "Whenever You're Around," "Come See Me," "How It Make You Feel," and "Just Wanna Be Loved."
    
14. I love the new Janet song "Feedback". It's very different. Totally left of what's expected of her. I must've listened to at least 100 times since I got it. Can't wait to hear the new album Discipline, to be released February 26th.
    
15. 2008 looks like it could be a banner year with new releases from Mariah Carey, Whitney Houston, Janet Jackson, and Madonna. Mary J. Blige has set the tone quite nicely. If all goes well, it'll feel like 1993/1998 all over again. Looks like they're about to put all the divas-in-training back in their place!
16. 2008 will also mark the return of several other noteworthy favorites such as: Maxwell, Erykah Badu, Lalah Hathaway, Teedra Moses, Van Hunt, Lenny Kravitz, Faith Evans, and Mos Def to name a few.
17. Isn't it funny now how all the pop artists want to be down? Seems like every pop tart wants to make urban album with urban producers. I'm not hating but....YAWN!
18. I absolutely love Phyllis Hyman (and I mean love!). She's legendary. Which is why I was so happy when I came across the website for the book Strength of a Woman: The Phyllis Hyman Story. This biography was written by Jason A. Michael. I'll be checking this book out real soon.
    

And finally, have a very happy new year! May the year ahead be everything you want and more.

Peace, Love, and Many Blessings!

~ BuddahDesmond
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Now playing: Joss Stone - Bad Habit
via FoxyTunes

Simply Wondering

Lately I find
You coming across my mind
More often than I’d care to say
It’s been some time
Since we’d last seen or spoken to each other
So it should be okay
If I care or wonder how you are

For a short, but significant moment in my life
You were the one
It was a love we shared
That I’d never experienced
Or could compare to anything before or after
I’d found happiness
In a new and exciting way
I’d found another way to spend my time
Without worry or apprehension
I didn’t mind making
Time for you

So when our lives shifted us into other directions
I was saddened
Deeply hurt
But I knew it was best
For both of us
We had to move forward
We ended on good terms
But since that time
We lost touch
And I was simply wondering
How you were
What you’ve been up to
And if I could still call you a friend

Though I may not be in love with you
Forever, I’ll love you

~ BuddahDesmond

Happy holidays! Be safe. Enjoy!

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Now playing: Keyshia Cole - Give Me More
via FoxyTunes

Tag! I'm It....

Sean Stone tagged me. The rules of the game are:

• Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
• Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.
• Tag 7 random people at the end of your post.
• Let each person know they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

1) Contrary to popular belief, I’m very shy. I’ve always been. It’s not as bad as it was when I was a kid though. When I’m in a new environment or in a group with people I don’t know well, I sometimes have a hard time opening up and reaching some level of comfort.

2) My shyness may have something to do with anxiety. Though I carry myself in a confident manner, I can be self-conscious. I don’t want to make a fool of myself or say the wrong things. So I’m very careful of how I conduct myself.

3) Since I was a kid, I’ve had prophetic dreams. These dreams have included visions of future life events with people and in places that I’ve actually encountered. And when these events happen, it’s like déjà vu (“I’ve been here before….”).

4) I’m oblivious to the attention I get from people when I’m out. It usually takes people I’m hanging with to say that someone is checking me out or trying to get my attention before it registers.

5) Though I went to school for IT, I have a love/hate relationship with technology. Though many of our favorite technologies have become modern day conveniences, they lose their luster when you find out those who created them failed to consider the negative impact and disadvantages when these technologies are used for malevolent purposes. And those who feel the fallout from this the most, tend to be us, the consumers. With technology, the focus should be less on money and prestige and more on value, quality, security, and usability. (I could go on and on about this but I’ll save this topic for another day and another post! ☺ )

6) Since I was 11 or 12, I’ve written close to 900 poems, songs, short stories, and other prose pieces. I’m not one to boast but this is an astounding feat even to me. The issue I continue to have is figuring out the proper avenues for my work and the best route to go with publishing – independent or mainstream. I’d love to devote more time to this but the regular J-O-B is taking all of the limelight. ☺

7) Looking back on how much of my life has been devoted to performing, writing, and art, it’s much easier for me to express myself creatively than otherwise. It’s definitely a divine gift. I’m the vessel through which the creativity and the artistry flows. It’s not me—it’s through me. And I’m eternally grateful to the Creator for that.

Tag! You’re it!

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Now playing: Millie Jackson - All The Way Lover
via FoxyTunes

H-A-P-P-Y

Happiness seems to be a fleeting thing as of late
The closer I get to it the further it seems to move away
I know you can't find it in others
And it rarely, if ever, can be found in tangible
     possessions
It's a right we all have
But many seldom find

In my case
It's a longing and loneliness that haunts my existence
That nothing seems to distill or quench
I hunger for things I have to wait for
I thirst for a time in my life when I'm completely free
     of the past's pull and society's bite
I'm yearning for something I think is simple

I've got a history of high expectations and asking for
     too much
And it's even surprising to me when the conditions
     are met
But this is simple in a conventional and spiritual sense
Nothing too complex
     (or so it seems)

I guess I'll just have to dig a little deeper
Look inside a little longer
Till I find all that adds up to being
     H-A-P-P-Y

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Annie Lennox - Primitive
via FoxyTunes

Relax, Relate, Release, Regroup!

It's about that time. I feeling the need to get rid of some dead weight. I don't need the start of the new year to signify change. It's just a feeling that you get when you know you're veering off track. You've been led astray and you're trying to get back to where you need to be. Somewhere amidst graduation, the new job, the relationship, moving, traveling, and all of the family/personal drama - I got lost. I got caught up. I lost focus on what I set out to achieve. I let everything (and everyone) dictate what my existence should be. But no more! Never again. As the saying goes, "I may be down but never out!"

I know this is shorter than my average post, but sometimes being concise is the only way to get the point across. I'll be back with another post within the week. Hope everyone in the blogworld is well. Until next time.... Peace, Love and Many Blessings!

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Now playing: Teena Marie - Ooo La La La
via FoxyTunes