Day 40: Just Jill: Words & Sounds Live

Recently had the opportunity to catch Jill Scott live as part of her Summer Block Party tour. And what an amazing experience it was. Still think and dream about it to this day. So I wrote this poem as an ode to her magnificence.

Just Jill: Words & Sounds Live

There's something about Jill
Natural beauty & wonder
Talent that seems limitless
Has a heart and soul so deep, so pure
That it boggles one's capacity to understand
She gets you as soon as she makes her appearance
Immediately captured
She's a musical wizard
Who casts her spell within the first few notes
The studio is great
But there's nothing like the real thing live

Jill's larger than life spirit commands the stage
Head held high, never down
Always standing in high-esteem like a regal Goddess
Like the Queen that she is
Undeniable authenticity
And a familiarity that makes you feel as if you're in the good hands of a loved one
Jill's better than your best friend
She's family
So real, so genuine, so true
She goes places very few dare to go on & off the stage
"Saying all things we'd like to say" so beautifully, so eloquently
She's not afraid to go there
She's fearless
She's wide open
To the point of being selfless
That's why we relate
That's why we - your core fans - just can't let anything get in the way of what we're feeling when it comes to you

Jill takes us on a journey - one we'll always wish could last a little while longer
The ride is an indelible experience
One we'd relive any chance we get
Because you're the whole package
Never needing to depend on the pyrotechnics to put on a great show
You're golden like that
You are divinely touched
And we are so grateful that we can experience the blessings

"Whatever it is, whatever it is
Let it be, let it be"
YES!!!
Let us PLEASE let Jill Scott be!!!

(c) BuddahDesmond

Day 39: OUT

In honor of National Coming Out Day, here's a piece that I wrote entitled "OUT."

Nothing worse than being silenced, especially in an environment where your voice has a rightful place to be loud and heard.
Nothing worse than living in fear because you don't know how family, friends, community or the larger society will deal with the "real" you.
Nothing worse than living a lie because you succumbed to complacency and conformity of cultural or societal norms.
Nothing is worse than hiding from everything and everyone (including yourself) because you've been led to believe that you are less than or simply not worthy.
It's bullshit.

Nothing should come before you, your authenticity, or your well-being.
You were made divinely and with a purpose regardless of what mortal beings may tell you.
So honor yourself.
Not just today but everyday.
Because nothing is better than being free.
Nothing is better than being your whole, true self.
Nothing is better than loving yourself.
Nothing is better than love.

(c) BuddahDesmond

Day 38: Adriana Evans - Walking With The Night

There’s something about Adriana Evans. That “something” enraptured me (yet again) while I was finishing my last final exam this weekend. Within the first few bars of “Waiting,” the first track off of her latest album “Walking With The Night,” I was spellbound by her rich musical landscape. Her music is an intoxicating mix of classic soul, funk, hip-hop, jazz, and Afro-Cuban and Brazilian rhythms. Her voice – an instrument that is reminiscent of the preeminent jazz vocalists of our time – is the soulful, sweet, sublime element that brings everything together. Like all great singers, she could sing anything and make you pay attention. It’s artistry. It’s realness. It’s music from the heart. And you can feel it. Whether it’s the latest album or one of her previous efforts, it won’t be long before you can’t get it out of her hypnotic music out of your mind. Aside from “Waiting” and the title track, songs that stay on repeat are “Surrender,” “Midnight,” “Set in Stone,” “Never Thought” and the album closer “El Sol” (which is one of several songs from her catalog that I believe provides an excellent snapshot of her artistry). Like her previous releases, I’ll be jamming to “Walking Into The Night” for life.

Evans made her self-titled debut back in 1997. This effort was one of several to lead the pack of what was being dubbed “neo classical soul” in the mid-to-late 90s. Her singles “Seein’ Is Believing” and “Love Is All Around” received moderate airplay on urban adult contemporary stations. But just as she was making headway, she disappeared from the “mainstream” music scene. I had been wondering for years when we’d be graced with her presence again. And in 2004 while finishing my final quarter undergrad, I came across some music from her “Nomadic” album. I was ecstatic. Fast forward to 2006 when I discovered that Adriana Evans “Remember The Love” (from the “Nomadic” album) was chosen to be the theme song to Patrick Ian Polk’s “Noah’s Arc” series. A black gay series on television with a soundtrack supporting indie and underrated musicians – it was a win-win. The series featured several other songs from “Nomadic” and Evans 2007 release “El Camino.” Thanks to Polk Evans and other artists music was exposed to a wider audience. It’s still a shame that music like this isn’t flooding the airwaves. However, unlike the non-believers whose ears aren’t to the ground, we know that real music still exists. Therefore, we must continue to support it. We can’t wait for mainstream to pay attention. We must talk it about, blog about it, tweet it, and share it on our social media and networking profiles. Keeping good, real, authentic music alive is a necessity!

Day 37: About Love Not Paying The Bills

If I got paid for each time I heard the saying, "Love don't pay the bills," I'd be loaded. While it may be true, shouldn't we be digging a little deeper? Love is more powerful than money... More spiritual... More meaningful. Money is tangible but does not last forever. Love's ever-lasting. Once you've got it - you've got it. You may not however, always be in love. But you will always love and be loved. That's what makes you rich. Whether you're by yourself or in a committed relationship - you'll find a way to pay the bills. With love on tap, you'll work to find a way. That's if you want to. That's if you care. That's also when faith, loyalty, devotion, and due diligence come into play. Money can bring you lots of things, but love is not one of them. And love can bring many things as well. So much so that you may not realize how truly blessed you are. Maybe that's what The-Dream was getting at on Love Vs. Money... Well, one hopes that's what he meant. :-)

Day 36: Analog Life Vs. Digital Life

I think my analog life will always win over my digital life. There's just something more personal, more comforting, more reassuring about it. While my digital life may have greater reach in a shorter period of time, it's hard for me to believe that it will ultimately have the same touch, impact, and feel of my analog life.

Day 35: The Gift & The Curse

The further you run away or ignore life's gifts, the more they will haunt you. The haunting can make them seem curse-like. It's a calling that we each must heed eventually. It's where passions, dreams, and destiny all meet up. An extraordinary collision course that puts us in the right place, the right time, and the right moment.

Day 34: Communication

Sometimes when I say "I wonder why I bother," it's due to some miscommunication or misunderstanding. But I can never own up to it as being a sole responsibility of mine. Communication is typically not a one-way happening. If you end up in a place where I didn't intend to take you, it's the responsibility of both of us to get back to where we each need to be. We have to work together, actively listen, pay attention, and make light of confusion or pinpoint where issues need to be addressed. That's the only way we will ever be able to successfully communicate with each other.

Day 33: Loving Yourself

There's no way in the world that anyone can tell me that you can love fully and completely when you don't love yourself. You cannot let go. You cannot really embrace. You cannot allow yourself to fall. You're too guarded. Too scared. Too worried. Even if you find someone who loves you the way you need to be loved, total acceptance still won't be possible. You're too blocked. You've got too much personal baggage. You've got to release it. You've got to fall in love with yourself before you can really allow someone else to love you.

Day 32: A Direct Route to Divine Power

Man can proclaim to be as wholy holy, devout, and pure as possible. But it never changes our human nature. Our innate fallibility, imperfection. Our tendency to pass judgment, to boast, and be haughtily bound in our approach. Some of us can't help being ourselves in everything man has "created" - even religion. We were made in his image but are not the image. We may be Christians or working to be Christians, but we are not Christ. We are not God, Buddha, Allah, Vishnu, Shiva, or any god of worship. That's why I will never allow anyone to tell me about how I should live my life, force their beliefs upon me, or tell me about how my relationship works with The Creator. It's personal territory. It's mine. It's about my spirituality and my spirituality determines how I believe my relationship should be. Advice and guidance are one thing. But you do not rule my path to higher power. Because I - like you, like everyone else - has a direct route all day, everyday. And there's nothing that any man can do to change that.

Day 31: On A Mission

I doubt there will ever come a time when we will like everything and everybody in this universe. We're fickle, finicky, and at times very adamant about what we like (and don't like). And other times, we can be downright nasty about it. Shady too. Knowing this - why would we ever strive to to please everybody? We need to please ourselves first and foremost. Maybe we'd stand a better chance at achieving the things we're so passionate about. Maybe then we'd be on a mission that nothing and no one could abolish. That's when you know it's deep. That's when you know it's meant for you. That's when people can say or do anything but won't break your faith, determination, or steadfast nature. When you're on a mission to please you (and The Creator) nothing will stop you.

Day 30: Obligation & Convenience in Relationships

Two things that can keep someone in a relationship are convenience and obligation. After a particular span of time, people get complacent. They become very comfortable with where they are. Even when they know they deserve better - they stay. They'd rather suffer than make the move on to something better suited for themselves. They also may be weary of hurting their mates feelings. And they may be feeling that staying (because of the time put in - amongst other things) is what they're supposed to do. Well, you've got to think about your heart. If after all this time things still haven't changed or don't look like they will change - it's time to go. Doesn't matter what or who you're leaving behind. Happiness and joy are not worth your accommodating someone who is not meant for you. Why suffer in silence? Put yourself first.

Day 29: The Way You See Yourself

One must think as positive about themselves as possible. The way you think and feel about yourself reflects and reveals itself to others. So if you have a negative view of yourself - you may need to take a step back and re-think how you see yourself. Positivity goes a long way and always makes a substantial difference in many of life's situations.

Day 28: Blame

You have the power to make great changes in your life. In this vein, your power comes into play in both good and bad ways. Sometimes we can be our best champions and our worst detractors. And when we detract from ourselves - time to recover and recoup can be lengthy. However, after a certain point, whether someone else had anything to do with it or not - you're still responsible for the outcome and your personal resolution. No one else can be held responsible. No scapegoating and excuses. No one else will care because your power and your choices will be at play. So use your power and make your choices wisely.

Day 27: Other People & Their Problems

When it comes to other people and other people's problems - there's only little we can do. It's up to them to make the changes and transitions necessary for improvements in life. You can advise, counsel, support, and love them all you want. But if they don't want things to be better for themselves - you might as well proceed like it's business (your business) as usual.

Day 26: Make Time For Yourself

Doesn't make sense to run yourself into the ground. You've got to make time to replenish yourself. Do the things you love to do. Do the things that relax you. The things that keep you centered when everything around you has embraced insanity as its BFF. Do for you what no one else can. Make the time. Take the time to care for you.

Day 25: Fear

Fear can be debilitating. It can hold you captive, but in a way that is more detrimental to you and your progress. You have to get over the insecurities, the self-doubt, and all that you've allowed to hold you back. You have to let go if you want to claim what's rightfully yours (completely, without the baggage).

Day 24: Ego-Tripping

Here's a little reality check for a ll those who've been ego-tripping lately... There's more to life & more to the world than you.

Day 23: Faith & Determination

When you're really pushing to achieve something the negative forces will always try to deter you. This is especially true during trying times. You have to be steadfast and hold on to your faith. It isn't easy. But it's better coming out of the fire doing the right thing instead of doing the wrong thing.

Day 22: Outside The Comfort Zone

The tried & true methods are not always the best ways to approach problems. Sometimes you have to step outside of the place where you feel most comfortable in order to move forward. Looking towards new methods you are not accustomed to may be the way to go. Take the risk - you never know.

Day 21: Balance

There's something to be said about someone who is so selfless and giving of themselves to other things and people. There's also something to be said about someone who is so selfless and giving that they neglect themselves. You've got to find the balance between everything, everyone else, and you. Otherwise, the kind of imbalance can lead to self-inflicted burn out (amongst so many other things).

Day 20: So-called Communication

Doesn't seem to be many of us around who are interested in or care to really communicate anymore. So much is misunderstood, misconstrued, and taken out or put in the wrong context. If we thought before we spoke (or wrote), did our research, went straight to the source instead of making assumptions and passing judgment, and asked the right people the right questions - so much bullshit would be eliminated.

Day 19: Real Greatness

You may be the best at what you do. Amazingly gifted and talented. But none of that matters if you aren't using what you've been blessed with to inspire, motivate, nurture, guide, and assist those coming up with or behind you. It's about giving back what you've been so fortunate with. Is there anything worse than a truly talented person who's not only boastful, arrogant and egotistical but selfish too?

Day 18: Talking Shit

People will always have shit to say. It's part of the human makeup. Unfortunately, the things people say tend to be more on the illogical, biased, ignorant, or negative side. But when there's a problem or an issue that needs to be addressed, if you're not bringing anything relevant or constructive to the table - do everyone else a favor & shut the fuck up!