Surrender

come to me
let me show you the way to my heart
come with me
let us escape to the place where lovers go to freely
     express their love for each other
stay with me
never let me spend another night alone
lay with me
so that our bodies, souls, and minds can unite as one
let the wonderful beauty of this bond take us where
     it may
let us let go and let love take us away
let us surrender
and give our all to each other with the power of love

~BuddahDesmond

The Love Inside

You can have all the love in the world,
But the love that really counts is the love inside—
The love for self that shines through in each and everything
     you do.
It is only when you can love and accept yourself that you can
     begin to love someone else.
And once this happens,
You will be able to proclaim honestly and passionately,
"I've found true love!"

~ BuddahDesmond

I Walked Away

Slowly surely
I walk away from
self-serving
undeserving
constantly hurting me love
deserting me love
you said, I said, we said
but
~ Jill Scott, "Slowly Surely," Who is Jill Scott? Words & Sounds Vol. 1, 2000

If you haven't figured out from my previous posts yet, DP and I broke up. After 2 1/2 years, I had to walk away. It wasn't the love that I wanted anymore. It wasn't fulfilling my needs. After putting so much into it, I felt slighted. I felt shortchanged. I felt used. Because I wasn't getting back what I was putting in. The effort, the support, the openness wasn't being reciprocated. So I had to move on. The relationship was over long before it ended. I just had yet to open my eyes wide enough to see it. Though I saddened about our relationship's demise, I was thoroughly relieved. Content that I'd finally let go of what had been bringing me down for some time.

While I prefer to be in a relationship, I can do without the suffering, the heartache, the longing, and the pain. Lately, I've been enjoying the single life. I've been enjoying this time of reflection and introspection. I know that the next time will be quite different. And most of all, I'm going into this next period of life and love with no expectations. That way I don't get my feelings hurt too soon, too fast. And though it's only been a few months, new love seems to be on the horizon again. But I'm taking my time with it. No need to rush it. I'm just letting it flow - slowly, surely, easily, naturally. There's no hurrying love. A hurried love is one that will turn on you. It's one that will let you down. One that you won't be able to depend upon. Can't be having that! LOL! Until next time -- love, peace, and many blessings!

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