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Day 40: Just Jill: Words & Sounds Live

2011-10-12T22:38:00.005-04:00

Recently had the opportunity to catch Jill Scott live as part of her Summer Block Party tour. And what an amazing experience it was. Still think and dream about it to this day. So I wrote this poem as an ode to her magnificence.

Just Jill: Words & Sounds Live

There's something about Jill
Natural beauty & wonder
Talent that seems limitless
Has a heart and soul so deep, so pure
That it boggles one's capacity to understand
She gets you as soon as she makes her appearance
Immediately captured
She's a musical wizard
Who casts her spell within the first few notes
The studio is great
But there's nothing like the real thing live

Jill's larger than life spirit commands the stage
Head held high, never down
Always standing in high-esteem like a regal Goddess
Like the Queen that she is
Undeniable authenticity
And a familiarity that makes you feel as if you're in the good hands of a loved one
Jill's better than your best friend
She's family
So real, so genuine, so true
She goes places very few dare to go on & off the stage
"Saying all things we'd like to say" so beautifully, so eloquently
She's not afraid to go there
She's fearless
She's wide open
To the point of being selfless
That's why we relate
That's why we - your core fans - just can't let anything get in the way of what we're feeling when it comes to you

Jill takes us on a journey - one we'll always wish could last a little while longer
The ride is an indelible experience
One we'd relive any chance we get
Because you're the whole package
Never needing to depend on the pyrotechnics to put on a great show
You're golden like that
You are divinely touched
And we are so grateful that we can experience the blessings

"Whatever it is, whatever it is
Let it be, let it be"
YES!!!
Let us PLEASE let Jill Scott be!!!

(c) BuddahDesmond

Day 39: OUT

2011-10-12T01:23:00.005-04:00

In honor of National Coming Out Day, here's a piece that I wrote entitled "OUT."

Nothing worse than being silenced, especially in an environment where your voice has a rightful place to be loud and heard.
Nothing worse than living in fear because you don't know how family, friends, community or the larger society will deal with the "real" you.
Nothing worse than living a lie because you succumbed to complacency and conformity of cultural or societal norms.
Nothing is worse than hiding from everything and everyone (including yourself) because you've been led to believe that you are less than or simply not worthy.
It's bullshit.

Nothing should come before you, your authenticity, or your well-being.
You were made divinely and with a purpose regardless of what mortal beings may tell you.
So honor yourself.
Not just today but everyday.
Because nothing is better than being free.
Nothing is better than being your whole, true self.
Nothing is better than loving yourself.
Nothing is better than love.

(c) BuddahDesmond

Day 38: Adriana Evans - Walking With The Night

2011-08-29T23:31:00.008-04:00

There’s something about Adriana Evans. That “something” enraptured me (yet again) while I was finishing my last final exam this weekend. Within the first few bars of “Waiting,” the first track off of her latest album “Walking With The Night,” I was spellbound by her rich musical landscape. Her music is an intoxicating mix of classic soul, funk, hip-hop, jazz, and Afro-Cuban and Brazilian rhythms. Her voice – an instrument that is reminiscent of the preeminent jazz vocalists of our time – is the soulful, sweet, sublime element that brings everything together. Like all great singers, she could sing anything and make you pay attention. It’s artistry. It’s realness. It’s music from the heart. And you can feel it. Whether it’s the latest album or one of her previous efforts, it won’t be long before you can’t get it out of her hypnotic music out of your mind. Aside from “Waiting” and the title track, songs that stay on repeat are “Surrender,” “Midnight,” “Set in Stone,” “Never Thought” and the album closer “El Sol” (which is one of several songs from her catalog that I believe provides an excellent snapshot of her artistry). Like her previous releases, I’ll be jamming to “Walking Into The Night” for life.

Evans made her self-titled debut back in 1997. This effort was one of several to lead the pack of what was being dubbed “neo classical soul” in the mid-to-late 90s. Her singles “Seein’ Is Believing” and “Love Is All Around” received moderate airplay on urban adult contemporary stations. But just as she was making headway, she disappeared from the “mainstream” music scene. I had been wondering for years when we’d be graced with her presence again. And in 2004 while finishing my final quarter undergrad, I came across some music from her “Nomadic” album. I was ecstatic. Fast forward to 2006 when I discovered that Adriana Evans “Remember The Love” (from the “Nomadic” album) was chosen to be the theme song to Patrick Ian Polk’s “Noah’s Arc” series. A black gay series on television with a soundtrack supporting indie and underrated musicians – it was a win-win. The series featured several other songs from “Nomadic” and Evans 2007 release “El Camino.” Thanks to Polk Evans and other artists music was exposed to a wider audience. It’s still a shame that music like this isn’t flooding the airwaves. However, unlike the non-believers whose ears aren’t to the ground, we know that real music still exists. Therefore, we must continue to support it. We can’t wait for mainstream to pay attention. We must talk it about, blog about it, tweet it, and share it on our social media and networking profiles. Keeping good, real, authentic music alive is a necessity!

Day 37: About Love Not Paying The Bills

2011-04-08T01:16:00.004-04:00

If I got paid for each time I heard the saying, "Love don't pay the bills," I'd be loaded. While it may be true, shouldn't we be digging a little deeper? Love is more powerful than money... More spiritual... More meaningful. Money is tangible but does not last forever. Love's ever-lasting. Once you've got it - you've got it. You may not however, always be in love. But you will always love and be loved. That's what makes you rich. Whether you're by yourself or in a committed relationship - you'll find a way to pay the bills. With love on tap, you'll work to find a way. That's if you want to. That's if you care. That's also when faith, loyalty, devotion, and due diligence come into play. Money can bring you lots of things, but love is not one of them. And love can bring many things as well. So much so that you may not realize how truly blessed you are. Maybe that's what The-Dream was getting at on Love Vs. Money... Well, one hopes that's what he meant. :-)

Day 36: Analog Life Vs. Digital Life

2011-04-08T01:12:00.004-04:00

I think my analog life will always win over my digital life. There's just something more personal, more comforting, more reassuring about it. While my digital life may have greater reach in a shorter period of time, it's hard for me to believe that it will ultimately have the same touch, impact, and feel of my analog life.

Day 35: The Gift & The Curse

2011-04-08T01:09:00.005-04:00

The further you run away or ignore life's gifts, the more they will haunt you. The haunting can make them seem curse-like. It's a calling that we each must heed eventually. It's where passions, dreams, and destiny all meet up. An extraordinary collision course that puts us in the right place, the right time, and the right moment.

Day 34: Communication

2011-04-08T00:57:00.004-04:00

Sometimes when I say "I wonder why I bother," it's due to some miscommunication or misunderstanding. But I can never own up to it as being a sole responsibility of mine. Communication is typically not a one-way happening. If you end up in a place where I didn't intend to take you, it's the responsibility of both of us to get back to where we each need to be. We have to work together, actively listen, pay attention, and make light of confusion or pinpoint where issues need to be addressed. That's the only way we will ever be able to successfully communicate with each other.

Day 33: Loving Yourself

2010-10-25T02:21:00.003-04:00

There's no way in the world that anyone can tell me that you can love fully and completely when you don't love yourself. You cannot let go. You cannot really embrace. You cannot allow yourself to fall. You're too guarded. Too scared. Too worried. Even if you find someone who loves you the way you need to be loved, total acceptance still won't be possible. You're too blocked. You've got too much personal baggage. You've got to release it. You've got to fall in love with yourself before you can really allow someone else to love you.

Day 32: A Direct Route to Divine Power

2010-10-25T02:11:00.003-04:00

Man can proclaim to be as wholy holy, devout, and pure as possible. But it never changes our human nature. Our innate fallibility, imperfection. Our tendency to pass judgment, to boast, and be haughtily bound in our approach. Some of us can't help being ourselves in everything man has "created" - even religion. We were made in his image but are not the image. We may be Christians or working to be Christians, but we are not Christ. We are not God, Buddha, Allah, Vishnu, Shiva, or any god of worship. That's why I will never allow anyone to tell me about how I should live my life, force their beliefs upon me, or tell me about how my relationship works with The Creator. It's personal territory. It's mine. It's about my spirituality and my spirituality determines how I believe my relationship should be. Advice and guidance are one thing. But you do not rule my path to higher power. Because I - like you, like everyone else - has a direct route all day, everyday. And there's nothing that any man can do to change that.

Day 31: On A Mission

2010-10-25T02:06:00.002-04:00

I doubt there will ever come a time when we will like everything and everybody in this universe. We're fickle, finicky, and at times very adamant about what we like (and don't like). And other times, we can be downright nasty about it. Shady too. Knowing this - why would we ever strive to to please everybody? We need to please ourselves first and foremost. Maybe we'd stand a better chance at achieving the things we're so passionate about. Maybe then we'd be on a mission that nothing and no one could abolish. That's when you know it's deep. That's when you know it's meant for you. That's when people can say or do anything but won't break your faith, determination, or steadfast nature. When you're on a mission to please you (and The Creator) nothing will stop you.

Day 30: Obligation & Convenience in Relationships

2010-10-19T23:06:00.004-04:00

Two things that can keep someone in a relationship are convenience and obligation. After a particular span of time, people get complacent. They become very comfortable with where they are. Even when they know they deserve better - they stay. They'd rather suffer than make the move on to something better suited for themselves. They also may be weary of hurting their mates feelings. And they may be feeling that staying (because of the time put in - amongst other things) is what they're supposed to do. Well, you've got to think about your heart. If after all this time things still haven't changed or don't look like they will change - it's time to go. Doesn't matter what or who you're leaving behind. Happiness and joy are not worth your accommodating someone who is not meant for you. Why suffer in silence? Put yourself first.

Day 29: The Way You See Yourself

2010-10-19T22:52:00.004-04:00

One must think as positive about themselves as possible. The way you think and feel about yourself reflects and reveals itself to others. So if you have a negative view of yourself - you may need to take a step back and re-think how you see yourself. Positivity goes a long way and always makes a substantial difference in many of life's situations.

Day 28: Blame

2010-10-19T22:41:00.002-04:00

You have the power to make great changes in your life. In this vein, your power comes into play in both good and bad ways. Sometimes we can be our best champions and our worst detractors. And when we detract from ourselves - time to recover and recoup can be lengthy. However, after a certain point, whether someone else had anything to do with it or not - you're still responsible for the outcome and your personal resolution. No one else can be held responsible. No scapegoating and excuses. No one else will care because your power and your choices will be at play. So use your power and make your choices wisely.

Day 27: Other People & Their Problems

2010-10-19T22:37:00.002-04:00

When it comes to other people and other people's problems - there's only little we can do. It's up to them to make the changes and transitions necessary for improvements in life. You can advise, counsel, support, and love them all you want. But if they don't want things to be better for themselves - you might as well proceed like it's business (your business) as usual.

Day 26: Make Time For Yourself

2010-10-09T00:44:00.002-04:00

Doesn't make sense to run yourself into the ground. You've got to make time to replenish yourself. Do the things you love to do. Do the things that relax you. The things that keep you centered when everything around you has embraced insanity as its BFF. Do for you what no one else can. Make the time. Take the time to care for you.

Day 25: Fear

2010-10-09T00:41:00.002-04:00

Fear can be debilitating. It can hold you captive, but in a way that is more detrimental to you and your progress. You have to get over the insecurities, the self-doubt, and all that you've allowed to hold you back. You have to let go if you want to claim what's rightfully yours (completely, without the baggage).

Day 24: Ego-Tripping

2010-10-09T00:39:00.001-04:00

Here's a little reality check for a ll those who've been ego-tripping lately... There's more to life & more to the world than you.

Day 23: Faith & Determination

2010-10-06T22:41:00.002-04:00

When you're really pushing to achieve something the negative forces will always try to deter you. This is especially true during trying times. You have to be steadfast and hold on to your faith. It isn't easy. But it's better coming out of the fire doing the right thing instead of doing the wrong thing.

Day 22: Outside The Comfort Zone

2010-10-06T22:37:00.004-04:00

The tried & true methods are not always the best ways to approach problems. Sometimes you have to step outside of the place where you feel most comfortable in order to move forward. Looking towards new methods you are not accustomed to may be the way to go. Take the risk - you never know.

Day 21: Balance

2010-10-06T22:35:00.003-04:00

There's something to be said about someone who is so selfless and giving of themselves to other things and people. There's also something to be said about someone who is so selfless and giving that they neglect themselves. You've got to find the balance between everything, everyone else, and you. Otherwise, the kind of imbalance can lead to self-inflicted burn out (amongst so many other things).

Day 20: So-called Communication

2010-10-06T22:31:00.003-04:00

Doesn't seem to be many of us around who are interested in or care to really communicate anymore. So much is misunderstood, misconstrued, and taken out or put in the wrong context. If we thought before we spoke (or wrote), did our research, went straight to the source instead of making assumptions and passing judgment, and asked the right people the right questions - so much bullshit would be eliminated.

Day 19: Real Greatness

2010-10-06T22:26:00.002-04:00

You may be the best at what you do. Amazingly gifted and talented. But none of that matters if you aren't using what you've been blessed with to inspire, motivate, nurture, guide, and assist those coming up with or behind you. It's about giving back what you've been so fortunate with. Is there anything worse than a truly talented person who's not only boastful, arrogant and egotistical but selfish too?

Day 18: Talking Shit

2010-10-06T22:22:00.005-04:00

People will always have shit to say. It's part of the human makeup. Unfortunately, the things people say tend to be more on the illogical, biased, ignorant, or negative side. But when there's a problem or an issue that needs to be addressed, if you're not bringing anything relevant or constructive to the table - do everyone else a favor & shut the fuck up!

Day 17: No More

2010-07-09T01:19:00.008-04:00

No more second guessing
Time to cast away the doubts,
The insecurities and the fears
And go with my gut instincts
The first thought or answer to come to mind is usually true

No more beating up myself
What's done is done -- it's a thing of the past
Time to accept it, reflect upon it, gain from it, and move on

No more bouts with despair
Time to move beyond and get over things that I simply do not have the power
Or control to change

No more worrying
Time to channel that energy into something better
Something useful
Something creative
Time to just live and let it be

No more tears being wasted
On those who said that they loved me
Or those who said that they cared
It's their loss, not yours

No more sweating the small stuff
Because it's just that
Time to accept letdowns and disappointments as tests of character,
Endurance and strength
They are gifts in disguise
It's all a part of life's journey
And I'm going to enjoy the ride
Whatever happens, happens
However the cards will be dealt
I can guarantee this:
The game will be played and it will be played well

I am now more aware of myself than ever before
I realize that nothing is wrong with me
I am perfectly fine
No more downgrading or shortchanging
I accept myself for who I am
I will not bow down or fall victim to the expectations
Of what everyone says I am supposed to be

No more
I am all of who I am supposed to be and much more
Take it or leave it

(c) BuddahDesmond

Day 16: Round Midnight: A Tribute to Great-Grandpa

2010-03-27T00:05:00.003-04:00

On the afternoon of March 14th, my great-grandfather died. He was 95 years old. He'd been sick for the last several months. He was semi-comatose during the last several weeks of his life. But up until that time - he was still hanging, still going strong. He lived a long happy life. Not many people live that long. And it's truly a remarkable thing. He was a devoted husband, father, grandfather, great-grandfather, and great-great-grandfather. He was supporter, inspiration, mentor, and role model. He was a military veteran who took pride in serving his country and worked in the federal government for 33 years. He was also a jazz musician. A self-taught jazz musician who didn't read music. He had several instrumental and vocal bands that toured the East coast. Music was his passion. Though he didn't get to completely follow his passion due to his love and commitment to his family, his passion for music and his talent never ceased. He is one of the reasons why my love for music (jazz in particular) and singing is so strong. He gave me a deeper appreciation for jazz and musicianship. So this one's for Jazzman Gus, one of many names he was affectionately called. Here's a classic jazz tune, "Round Midnight" written by the phenomenal pianist/composer Thelonious Monk and performed by The Divine One, Sarah Vaughan.

Day 15: You Know What The Bible Says...

2010-02-08T22:57:00.000-05:00

A few weeks ago I came out to one of my best childhood buddies. We'd known each since the fourth grade. Though we lost touch a few times along the way due to distance, we never lost our bond or connection. It seemed to grow stronger over the years. We went through and experienced a lot - individually and collectively. And he'd been there with me - through most of it.

So I have no idea why I waited so long to come out to him. There's a part of me that didn't think he'd have a problem with it and that he'd be fine. I thought, "Hell, he probably already knows - he's just waiting for me to tell him." And then there's another part of me that was hesitant. When I was away in college, he became a born-again Christian. And I thought that there's a great possibility that he either won't accept me or if he does he might rub the sin, scripture, Bible, Christian thing at me.

I wanted to speak with him in person or at least over the phone about this. But due to hectic schedules, we kept missing each other. So I opted to do it via email (not my mode of choice but hey...) This was what he said:

You know I look at you as a brother and really want you to live a long, prosperous, joyous & blessed life. You also know my religious views being a Christian rapper and all I'm sure you know where the Christian belief stands on homosexuality. The bible tells me that it's a sin against God, but it also says that no sin is greater than another and that sin (including homosexuality) can be forgiven. You see God loves is greater than anything sin and His love is the definition of unconditional... My beliefs will not allow me to celebrate what the Word of God calls sin HOWEVER just as God still loves you; so do I. It doesn't mean that the bond of friendship is any weaker on my end...

I just don't know what or how to respond. I was both angry and somewhat content with the response. Content because this is what I was expecting him to say and this is why I was hesitant in telling him anyway Angry because I'm so sick and tired of hearing this sin bullshit. And I'm sorry but it's bullshit. God made me the way that I am for a reason. My being gay is not a choice or something that I can just turn on and off like a light switch. It's part of me. It doesn't consume me and it doesn't cloud everything that I do. But you cannot acknowledge me in totality without acknowledging that part of me. And as a lifelong friend, I guess I was just thinking that you'd be able to see completely beyond this and accept me totally, wholly. Maybe I'm asking for too much. Maybe I'm making a big deal out of nothing. Maybe I asked for it. But at what point do you get beyond the scripture to the realness in life and the substance of the realness staring in your face....in all of its divinity? What would you do?

Day 14: From Beauty to Ugliness

2010-02-08T00:58:00.004-05:00

Welcome to the Blizzard of 2010! It's winter in the DC Metro Area and it's a big mess. After over 20 inches of snow and people are losing or have lost their minds, patience, and humanity (practically). People were fighting in the grocery stores over food. Driving like bats out of hell on the roads. And expecting cleaning crews to do magic tricks to get things back in order. With this much snow, normalcy will be a dream not achieved for some time. Many of our neighborhoods still have yet to be plowed, many of us don't have power, and have no way of getting around (if you're depending on public transportation).

My fiance' & I have been without power and heat since last Friday night (when the storm hit). You could see your breath in front of your face in our place. It was just that cold. We couldn't spend another night at home so we decided to try to get a hotel room. Because the roads were so bad we couldn't get to the strip where most of the hotels were in our area (Rockville/Bethesda), so we ended up heading to my mom & granny's house. What was usually a one-hour trip took almost two hours. It was a scary trip. Many of the street lights were out. Only the left and right lanes were clear. The center lanes were full of ice and compacted snow. We were on edge the whole way. But we made it safely (thank god).

Since the roads are still terrible - we're staying put (working from mom & granny's until further notice). I typically take public transportation to and from work everyday so you know that's out of the question. Only the underground stations are working. Bus and Marc train service is limited. You'd be out of your mind to even think about a taxi.

There's really not much we can do besides hoping and praying for the best. The really sad part of it all is that this area never seems to be prepared for any major emergency. And I think for it to be the DC Metro Area that it's totally unacceptable. People are freezing in their homes, looking for their next meals. They can't even get off their streets to go to the store let alone to work. Pepco can't get to affected areas without power because plows have yet to clear many streets (especially in Montgomery County). Had this been technological or biological warfare it would be every man, woman, and child for themselves. I can't bare to imagine what it would be in either of these situations... The meteorologists are predicting that we may get another foot or more of snow between Tuesday and Wednesday...

Snow... It's so beautiful and peaceful when it snows. So quiet, so Edenic, so pure... But in the aftermath - snow loses it's beauty and brings out the ugliness in people, the process for clean-up, and the issues that arise when government fails to have a plan in place in the event of a snow emergency. Yes, welcome to the Blizzard of 2010!

Day 13: At the Fork in the Road

2010-02-04T00:31:00.004-05:00

I've been sitting at my computer for several hours this evening... Much of it was spent staring at the screen, staring into space, or staring at the tablet of paper I'd been scribbling on. I couldn't concentrate for the life of me. I've been so busy at work (and kinda at home) that I don't think my mind has been able to rest unless I was actually sleeping. And if it lingers for too long - I start to get pissed and will get really close to saying "fuck it". With the schedule I have and the deadlines between work, school, and my personal life - I don't always have the luxury of saying "fuck it". But I've been more than willing to pay the consequences when I did it in the past...lol.

At this point in my professional life, I feel as if I'm longing, yearning for more. I love the job and what I'm doing (or what I've done). But I'm just not feeling that fulfilled. I'm bored. I feel as if I'm on auto-tune, just going thru the motions - not anywhere near as enthusiastic as I used to be. And this is something that has not changed in the last few months. And the feelings seem to be strengthening. I feel like I need to be challenged in new and exciting ways. And I'm just not seeing it where I am now. Unless things change. We're still in the midst of re-organization (however this process hasn't been addressed to us formally since April 2009). We just turned in our performance appraisals a few weeks ago. It'll be awhile before our supervisor gets back to us about them. I can say that I did quite a bit in 2009 and I did it all to the best of my ability. But am I that thrilled about any of it anymore - no, not really. On top of that, I just don't feel as if I fit in with department anymore. I feel kinda out of place. The culture in my department has/is changing again - and it's changing rapidly. Nothing like what it used to be in first two years. And I'm not sure that that's a good thing either.

So I think I've come to the fork in the road. I'm at the crossroads. And the part that worries (and I'm not sure that worries is the best word) me most is the fact that I haven't quite figured out what to do about it. I don't necessarily want to leave the company. And I don't want to leave the people I've become close with. But I don't want to squalor in complacency or contempt either. I'm blessed to have bit a talents, gifts, skills, and experience to pull from. It's just a matter of what I'm going to pull from and where do I want it to take me next. Whatever it is - I'm sure I'll make the best decision I see fit for me personally and professionally. I just hope and pray it'll go well. One things for sure - I cannot afford to be depressed about my worklife. I don't have time for that shit. Gotta keep it moving if that's the case. I'll just have to hold tight however, until something else/better comes along. Pray for me...

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Day 12: Poetry Spotlight

2010-01-30T21:10:00.003-05:00

Not Anymore

Taking out the trash
Getting rid of all the old shit
Locating all the hidden
treasures that squandered
in the presence of you

Started over
Went from lost to found
Spirit renewed - found a new love
Not as costly or exhausting
As the love I had with you

Got it right this time
Didn't give way to self-doubt
No more self-interrogation
Cause when problems in relationships arise
It's usually not just one party
to blame - it's two
As opposed to my being the criminal
to the victim always being played by you

I've washed myself clean
Still have my issues
But I acknowledge them
And make it known
There's always room for improvement
But I can be myself
No need to hide
Or disguise face
Like at the masquerade ball
I've been welcomed and accepted
Completely
And did I say loved?
Loved like nobody's business
Loved better than I could ever dream of
So there's no need
to look back
anymore

(c) 2009 BuddahDesmond

Day 11: Looking Back - Poetry Spotlight

2010-01-20T22:44:00.004-05:00

"Ain't Worth It"

Why get full vested in something
That has yet to prove its future's promise?
Why get emotionally involved when
You still are unsure if he or she
Has your heart and you have theirs?
What's the sense in crying over it
If the tears and your efforts won't
Change a thing?

When substance isn't fully formed
And the foundations is still weak
It's too much to give your all if
You haven't seen a return, especially
When he or she is fixed, unbending
When the union can't get beyond shallow matters
Ain't no sense looking for depth
Cause superficial love ain't love
At all
It's all a facade
A cover-up for all that's missing

If you're looking in others
For what you can't do or find in yourself
You're hopeless
You're only killing time - yours and others
So don't drag someone else along
If you're not ready for the commitment
Go play
Get it out of your system
Or be by yourself
Until you're ready
Cause it ain't worth it

(c) 2008 BuddahDesmond
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Day 10: Julia Cameron's - "The Artist's Way Every Day"

2010-01-19T19:43:00.005-05:00

For the last few weeks I've been reading Julia Cameron's book The Artist's Way Every Day: A Year of Creative Living. I find the information to be very inspiring, motivating, and refreshing. Being a creative, artistic person - this is the jump start I need to begin the new year. I've noticed since late last summer that I've had very few opportunities to delve deeply into my creative self. And it's been killing me. I feel like I've been neglecting a part of myself that I've otherwise had no problem nourishing. And considering the fact that I started nourishing this part of myself at the early age of four - I'm like, "What the hell happened?" But I won't fret. I've never been one to force myself creative self into doing something. I have to feel it. I have to be in the mood. Each time I force myself into doing anything in this regard I hate the outcome. And whatever is produced usually goes in the trash. I realize that I need to give my creative self the space to process, exist, and grow. And that I need to uplift and inspire my creative self just like I would any other component of my being. I can move on now with a better perspective. Here are a few takeaways from the book.

From January 11: "We expect our artist to be able to function without giving it what it needs to do so. An artist requires the upkeep of creative solitude. An artist requires the healing of time alone" (p. 17).

From January 13: "Writing goes much better when we don't work at it so much. When we give ourselves the permission to just hang out on the page" (p. 19).

From January 15: "When we open ourselves to something or someone greater than ourselves working through us, we paradoxically open ourselves to our own greatest selves" (p. 21).

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Day 9: Rihanna - Rated R

2010-01-19T19:08:00.004-05:00

I must say that I was quite surprised after listening to Rihanna's latest album. I found it to be quite good. It's a dark, emotional album that offers a deeper glimpse into the mind and artistry of one of the world's most popular singers/entertainers. The sound and style of this album is quite different from what we've heard before (which may be one of many reasons why some fans have turned away). There's a musical versatility not quite seen on previous releases. Rihanna's vocal performances seem a little more seasoned and confident and sprinkled with more emotion (thankfully). And I think we now see the perfect melding of her image and musical style. It may not flow well on this side of the Atlantic but that's probably due in large part to the fickle nature of our audience. I give Rihanna lots of credit for pushing her talent into a different direction, taking some risks. One thing the world didn't need was Girl Good Gone Bad Part II. And with "Hard" becoming her 13th top ten hit on the Billboard Charts, looks like "Rihanna Reign" won't be letting up anytime soon.

Day 8: Fiona Apple - The Bridge

2009-11-28T02:37:00.004-05:00

One of my favorite album's lately has been Melanie Fiona's The Bridge. After seeing the video and spinning the single "Give It To Me Right" for months, I was psyched about the getting this album. Fiona had been generating quite a bit of buzz, especially after touring as the opening act for Kanye West on his Glow In The Dark Tour (in Europe). With all the buzz, one still wonders why her album was pushed back so many times. The record had been finished for quite some time (and not to mention it was released in Europe in 2008). Let me guess -label politics? But all that aside - the wait was worth it. Fiona has put together an album that is memorable from start to finish. It has a vintage feeling yet modern style and sensibilities. It's soul through and through. And like Raphael Saadiq's The Way I See It and Solange's Sol-Angel and the Hadley St. Dreams, it harks back to the old school music of the 60's and 70's without sounding too nostalgic, gimmicky, or unoriginal. The music, lyrics, and Fiona's rich, smoky voice make The Bridge an album that you can listen to over and over for years to come. These are tunes all music lovers can enjoy. Aside from the first single, my other favorites include "It Kills Me," "You Stop My Heart," "Teach Him," and "Bang Bang," and "Monday Morning." Check it out!

Day 7: Sade - Soldier Of Love

2009-11-28T02:25:00.002-05:00

The day all Sade fans have been waiting for is coming!!! The long-awaiting, highly-anticipated release date for Sade's sixth studio album, Soldier of Love, is February 8, 2010! Mark your calendars. Put in your pre-orders. This looks like it could be one of 2010's best releases. It's been nearly 10 years since the release of Sade's last studio album, Lovers' Rock. That album was a masterpiece and I'm sure the new album will be as well. Sade - One of the queen's of the Quiet Storm, the voice of seductive, passionate soul music will be in full effect very soon. I can't wait. Real music always prevails. Need not worry about "singles" or airplay, because artists of this calibre will have a devoted following and will sell regardless. Looks like I'll be getting a b-day gift a week early. Yay!!!! :)

Day 6: Chrisette Michele - One of this Generation's Best Vocalists

2009-11-20T23:13:00.006-05:00

I've been loving Chrisette Michele for a few years now. Her most recent album - Epiphany - stays in rotation. I play it once and cannot seem to stop playing it again. The sign of a great album is one that leaves a lasting impression on you. It moves you. You can't get the music out of your head. And you can listen to it repeatedly without getting tired of it. It hits the spot (or several spots). This album is must say is one of the best R&B/Soul releases of the year. While it may have been criticized for not having as many of the jazz-inflected arrangements as her debut, there's no denying the jazzy vocals from this songbird. Her voice is a mystical, musical instrument with personality, lots of color, varying tones, shades, and timbres, and a wide range. It's sexy, soulful, passionate. And it has a girlish quality that is reminiscent of the late great Ella Fitzgerald (one of her greatest influences - along with Sarah Vaughan, Billie Holiday, and Natalie Cole to name a few). She has the innate gift to sing anything and make it believable. She takes you there. You're riding with her from beginning to end. And every song is a performance. Each one different from the last. Which also brings to mind another great lady of song - Phyllis Hyman. Though she sounds nothing like Phyllis Hyman - there's something about the way she delivers a song that reminds me of Phyllis Hyman. Phyllis Hyman owned her songs. She commanded the stage. She took you on a ride. It didn't matter where she was taking you because you were going anyway. And that's what Chrisette Michele does. If she continues to grow the way she has been - she will go down as not only one of the best singers of her time but one of the best singers of all time as well.

Day 5: Oprah - The End of One Era, The Beginning of a New Era

2009-11-20T22:48:00.004-05:00

In 2011, after 25 seasons, The Oprah Winfrey Show will be saying its last hurrah. This shocking announcement seems to have stunned viewers and the entertainment industry. But Oprah said she knew in her spirit that it was time to say goodbye. It's been a remarkable, historical, uplifting journey for Oprah, the show, her staff, and her viewers. She went on to become the most, if not one of the most powerful women in the entertainment industry. According to Forbes, her net worth is $2.7 billion. I know that amount is astonishing. But what's even more so is that she did it her way. Oprah set out to do what she wanted and she achieved that (and much more). She used her power and influence to bring about good in the world. She overcame obstacles and became an inspiration to millions of fans across world. Though the show is ending, the industry/world is looking to see what she produces on OWN - the Oprah Winfrey Network. Though it's unclear who is the heir apparent, it's clear that Oprah not finished her work yet. There's still more to do. And the world will be looking forward to her next move. Oprah - an inspiration, a trailblazer, a humanitarian, and a living legend.

Day 4: The Ever-Dependable Public Transit

2009-11-18T00:48:00.003-05:00

I thought this was funny yet so true. I took this picture while waiting for the bus one morning on my way to work. Ride On bus runs in Montgomery County, MD. Depending upon the route and where you live, it can be quite undependable. If you are trying to get somewhere on time you better leave your house 20-30 minutes earlier than normal (especially if you have to get on the train). Otherwise you are going to be late. Sometimes the buses are extremely late and so packed with patrons you can see the people before you actually see the bus. Or the bus may not show at all. It can be extremely frustrating, especially when it's freezing outside and all you want to do is go home. So I can understand why someone would say Ride On "SUCKS". Now with the American flag on the post, how would you interpret the photo? Ride On Sucks America? God Bless Ride On? Or Only God Can Save Montgomery County Ride On Buses from Sucking? LOL!

Day 3: Lady GaGa's latest - "Bad Romance"

2009-11-18T00:11:00.007-05:00

Lady GaGa gets more and more intriguing with every release. I recently saw the video for her latest single, "Bad Romance". While I don't care for the song (even after several listens), I thoroughly enjoyed the video. She's a very creative artist who seems to take what she does seriously. GaGa knows how to get everyone talking with her brand of performance art. The bold imagery, the haute couture, the intricate choreography, the outlandish, wild wigs and hairpieces, in-your-face attitude, and the unique lyrical content, style and sound of the music - it keeps you glued to the screen. Her videos and performances seem to be more extraordinary than the music (for example, her video for "Paparazzi" and the performance of the same song on this year's MTV Video Music Awards). She's stepping out ahead of the class. And if she continues to push the boundaries (like many of those before her) and push herself creatively, the masses will continue to flock to her and follow her. What's your take?

Day 2: Autumn Leaves - Everything Must Change

2009-11-15T23:39:00.004-05:00

When my bf and I were leaving my mother and my granny's house last weekend, we noticed several leaves that had fallen in the driveway. Many of these leaves were from two of the four sycamore trees in the yard. I noticed one particular leaf and was taken by how beautiful it was. The shape, the color, the stem, the veins - it seemed perfect. I hadn't seen a leaf quite this beautiful since I used to play with, make art with, and rake them as a child. Or maybe I simply hadn't taken the time to notice them as I got older. Something that will never change is my love autumn leaves (and the season in general). I can attribute the rich colors of leaves (and autumn) to why I love earth tones. It's a wonderful, gorgeous time of year. A sign that things are changing. All symbolic of the cycle that nature follows every season, every year. And it brings to mind a favorite standard of mine, "Everything Must Change." Take a listen to the late, great Walter Jackson with his breaktaking version of this tune.

Day 1: MJ's This Is It

2009-11-13T21:00:00.003-05:00

My bf and I had the privilege of seeing This Is It last month. I have to say that this was one of the best movies I've seen this year. I left with an even greater appreciation for the man behind the music. I had no idea what to expect. I didn't know if was going to be document, a performance film, or a combination of both. It turned out to be a spectacular combination of both. The film told a story of how Michael Jackson and his tour crew prepared for This Is It shows in London. From the rehearsal of the first song "Wanna Be Startin' Something" to the final, moving performance of the spine-chilling "Man In The Mirror," it was clear to see that Michael Jackson was just as bad as he was in younger years. Anyone who wondered whether he still had it (not me) would be floored by what they saw. The artistry, the moves, the voice, the stage presence were just as strong as ever. That's the thing about true talent. It never leaves. It never goes away. Regardless of what happened, there's nothing that could take away what was inside of him. And you could eerily feel his presence - so strong - while watching the film. I cried at least 5 times while watching his performances. Almost didn't think I was going to make it through the film because it was such an emotional experience. Michael Jackson was true genius. He's still missed. With films like This Is It, his legacy will continue to live on.

If There Were No Song

2009-11-13T19:59:00.004-05:00

Hello all! It's been awhile - hasn't it? I didn't mean to be away for so long. But I'm back in school now and my schedule is like who done it and why. I'm in the dual IT/MBA degree program. Though the work hasn't been exceptionally difficult - being up late damn near every night of the work week (and weekend) has been kicking me in the butt. I'm so tired and exhausted I'm delirious. I had three online classes this semester. One was a 6-week class. It seemed like I had more assignments and reading in that class than I had in my regular 12-week classes. I was very happy having successfully completed that class and lightening the load (ever so slightly). My grades have been pretty good thus far. At this point - balance is key. Cause working full-time and going to school part-time and not getting adequate sleep is not going work for the duration. I'll get it together though. I have faith. With change comes adjustments. I'll be fine.

Personally things are fine. My bf moved in officially last month. We've taken the next big step. And we seem to have adjusted quite well to this. We haven't killed each other yet or had any blowout bash arguments. If something pops up or pisses us off - we talk about it right then and there. We get it out in the open and try to resolve it as best as we can. Our open-line of communication is one of the reasons why our relationship is so strong. We talk about everything. And we realize that we need to be on the same page if we want to keep things moving in a positive direction... Oh - how I love him! He's been so good to me. He supports me like no other. He has my back. He respects, appreciates, and accepts me - completely. And he's not afraid to go there with me or put me in place when I go off the deep end. And I lovingly, willingly, graciously, freely do the same thing in return.

As of today, I'll be starting a project that I'll call my "101 Days Project"This project will consist of my musings on various things in my everyday life - be it the workday, home life, music, movies, books, quotes, current events... I may be responding to something I saw, heard, or read. My responses may be take shape in the form of poetry, song lyrics, images, drawings, free writing, you name it. Anything is fair game here. It'll be creative but also be a learning experience for me (and maybe you too). And I figured BuddahDesmond's Rapture is the best repository for the project. Another good thing is my "101 Days Project" will get me into the habit of posting on a regular, daily basis (something I have not quite been able to do since starting this blog a little over 5 years ago). So stayed tuned as the project progresses for the next 101 Days.

Life is music. Simple. Complex. And everything in between. We're players in it. Musicians, singers, writers, producers, and executives. Each day is a song. Each has it's own tempo, theme, mood, depth, feeling, subject matter... Some days we're all singing the same song in unison or different keys. Other days we're singing our own uniquely different tunes. They're colorful. They're bombastic. They're jubilant. They're melancholy. They're all this and so much more. If there were no song - could we live? Could we be? If there were no song - I doubt hardly that we'd exist.

Until next time... Have a great weekend!

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Now playing: Pitbull - Can't Stop Me Now
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Blogiversary + Interview + Reviews

2009-08-13T20:55:00.004-04:00

Wassup Blogworld?!! Hope everything is cool. It's been a minute since I've updated. Life has been keeping me busy personally and professionally. Things are going well though. I've been so busy I missed my own 4-year Blogiversary. Happy Blogiversary to BuddahDesmond's Rapture! Can't believe it's been that long. Lots of life changes since then (all for the better - thank god). But one thing's for sure - I'm much happier now than I was when I started blogging. I feel so much stronger, wiser, and better about various facets of myself and my life. It's an ongoing process. The internal work is never seems to be done. Even when it's all good there's always room for improvement. As I reminisce, I may update this post with links to some of my favorite posts over the last few years.

Be sure to check out my interview on the Encore Status Entertainment website with indie singer/songwriter/performer Lafonda a.k.a. The Bronx Bombshell. Also, check out my review of Maxwell's BLACKsummers'night and Vanessa Williams's The Real Thing on the Pictures and Frames website.

Until next time, be safe. Have a great weekend!

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Chrisette Michele - Epiphany
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R.I.P. E. Lynn Harris

2009-07-31T01:21:00.004-04:00

I was stunned when I heard that E. Lynn Harris died. I couldn't believe it. I thought it was just another rumor. But as the reports came in I soon realized it was, in fact, truth. Harris was a tremendous talent. He was voice of a community that had often been silenced, not existent, or unacknowledged in the literary world. His contributions helped pave the way for many of today's black gay contemporary writers. He inspired dialogue. He opened minds and hearts. E. Lynn Harris was a treasure and he will forever be missed. Thank you for inspiring us. Thank you for sharing our stories. Thank you for helping me, and I'm sure many others, who - at a young age - was struggling with my sexuality but learned accept and embrace it. Rest in peace E. Lynn Harris. We love you!

~ BuddahDesmond

Never Knew

2009-07-23T00:30:00.001-04:00

Never knew I could feel this way about someone
I always thought about it
Always dreamed about it
Fantasized about it
Prayed for it
But never knew it would be like this

What I’m feeling far exceeds expectations
It trumps predecessors
It squashes competition
Smashes records
Wins every time
I had a feeling before but it doesn’t equal the real thing

Everything I’ve ever wanted in a man
I’ve found in you
All the wonderful things that dreams are made of
All the qualities to brag about
All the characteristics I find attractively appealing
Intellect and wit that keeps me on my toes
Handsome sexiness that I can’t resist
Tenderness, care and compassion that brings tears to my eyes
With flaws and all you are simply beautiful, inside and out

Never knew I could find everything and more
I always wrote about it
Always sang about it
Talked about it
Wished for it
But it eclipses all that I’ve ever hoped for

Didn’t know it would be like this
It’s better than I expected
And I’m glad to finally have it
I’m glad to be in this place
Glad to have this feeling
So glad to be this in love
And for this, I will continue to express my gratitude

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Chrisette Michele & Ne-Yo - What You Do (Single Version)
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R.I.P. Michael Jackson (1958 - 2009)

2009-07-09T00:46:00.002-04:00

Legend.
Icon.
Innovator.
Trendsetter.
Humanitarian.

You were truly gifted.
An inspiration to many.
You were the greatest entertainer in the world.
Touched so many of us with your heart, soul, and spirit.

There will never be another like you.
So we are grateful that God kept you here as long as he did.
We are sad that you had to go so young.
But it was time.
You were called.
And now peace is finally yours.

You will truly be missed.
Your music and legacy will continue to inspire, uplift, and shape us all
You will never die.
You will always live on.
We will always love you, Michael Joseph Jackson!!!

~ BuddahDesmond

The Death of Subtlety

2009-06-25T17:12:00.002-04:00

Is Burger King blowing your mind with their new sandwich or are they blowing something else?
Check EW.com's article about Burger King's latest ad: http://tinyurl.com/n6gurx.

Janet.

2009-06-15T21:15:00.006-04:00

I'm finally sharing some of my artwork online. And what better way to start by showing a picture of Janet Jackson that drew almost 12 years ago. She's one of favorite people to draw. And it's more than obvious at this point that she's one of my all-time favorite entertainers. Growing up, I was inspired by and adored her music, style, and presence. I must say though, I miss seeing her on the scene.

It seems like Discipline was released so long ago - though it was only last February. It debuted at No. 1, "Feedback" became her first top 20 pop hit since 2001's "Someone to Call My Lover," and then like that - it was all over. Yeah, there was the tour (the show was EXCELLENT!!) but - you know what happened with that.... Aside from the Superbowl Incident (I still say she was blacklisted because of that incident), issues in the Jackson family (not going there either), and record labels who have no idea how to promote her (anymore) - her musical career seems to be at a crossroads.

She's accomplished more in the last 27 years than most artists will in their entire careers. She's done it all. She set the tone. And you can see that with many of today's hottest female entertainers. The influence is unmistakable. But her music just hasn't "hit" the way it used to. I don't think it's because the music is bad. It's definitely had however, some sub par moments over the course of the last three albums. But lackluster production, poor marketing, no airplay, and minimal label support have all played major roles in the downward spiral of Janet's musical career.

Now, the lady is BAD!!! Always will be. She can grace the stage - not say or do a thing - and the audience will go wild. Nothing can take away her talent or the history she's made. But it's time to hit 'em hard. Hit 'em with something they'd least expect. Or go back with Jimmy Jam & Terry Lewis. The chemistry they have in the studio is magical. And last I heard - they were talking of going into to the studio to work on the next album. Great news if it comes into fruition. Cause one thing's for sure - I won't be unhappy if JD isn't producing on the next album. No offense - I love his work. But it's just not for Janet. It may work for Mariah and Usher (to name a few) - but not for Janet.

All the greats have periods where they hit that brick wall or their music slumps. And most usually return to the top spot better than ever. It's usually when everyone has counted them out - when you least expect it - when their prominence is solidified again. Whatever happens - Janet's got my support. I'll be rocking with Janet 4 Life!

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Now playing: Janet - Can't B Good
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Sade Returns to the Studio!!!

2009-06-05T22:40:00.003-04:00

What wonderful news, ain't it? I was so GLAD to hear that Sade has returned to the studio to begin work on their new album. I CANNOT WAIT!!! It's been 9 years since the release of their last studio album, Lovers Rock, and 7 years since the release of Lovers Live.

Sade never disappoints. Each album is a masterpiece in its own right. Sade's style, voice and lyrics, the band's instrumentation and production - all the elements always seem to come together so well. The music is timeless. It never sounds dated. And that's what sets them apart from so many of their peers.

You know, it doesn't matter how long the wait is for a Sade album. Because the quality always prevails. They take their time to create music. If the feeling isn't right in the studio when they convene to make the next album - they leave and come back another time. It's a method some of their peers need to follow. Unless you got it like that - take your time between releases. There's no need to be in everyone's face every five minutes - especially when the music leaves something to be desired. I'll take quality over quantity anyday.

It's rumored that the record may be out before the end of the year - but we'll see. There's just joy in knowing something good is coming....

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Now playing: Sade - No Ordinary Love
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Whitney - "The Voice" Returns....

2009-06-04T22:03:00.005-04:00

Well, well, well.... The time has finally come. Whitney Houston will be returning with her first studio album in 7 years on September 1st. The as-yet-untitled release is being hailed as her comeback album. The new album will feature the production and songwriting of will.i.am, Sean Garrett, and Akon. It was rumored some time back that Ne-Yo, John Legend, and R. Kelly were writing and producing for the album but I guess we'll just have to wait and see if they made the cut.

This is definitely news.... I still don't know how I'm feeling about it though. Because if the duet Whitney did with Akon, "Like I Never Left" was any indication of what to expect - they can keep it in the studio. That song was horrible. You don't give a track that whack to someone like Whitney Houston. Maybe to one of these newcomers who need to prove themselves but not to one of the world's best-selling and most influential vocalists of all time.

I just hope and pray she's able to move forward into the next phase of her career clean and drama free. It would be really sad to see her go down the tubes. We've lost too many greats that way.... It will be great to see her return to the stage and the top of the charts again.

Have a great weekend folks! Be safe. Enjoy!

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Now playing: Whitney Houston - Run To You
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Inherent - A Throwback Poem

2009-05-26T21:38:00.003-04:00

What's goin' on folks?! Hope you had a happy, safe holiday weekend. I'm good, or shall I say better. I just got over a two-week illness this past weekend. I had an upper respiratory infection and acute pharyngitis. It was no fun. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. And the antibiotic made me feel worse. I'm sorry but I will never be a fan of medicine that makes you feel worse in order to make you feel better. Can I get a natural remedy instead? LOL! But luckily - all is well. I'm so happy this happened now as opposed to next month when I have to travel for business or during vacation later this summer. Anyway, I've been reviewing some of my poetry for a few upcoming projects. And I thought I'd leave you with a poem I wrote back in 1998 entitled, "Inherent".

Have a wonderful week!

Inherent

For so long I
Breathed your love
Drank your air
Digested your breath
Tasted your feelings

For so long I
Savored the kiss of your lips
Devoured your kindness
Enjoyed the flavor of your touch
I lived inside your heart

For so long you
Gave so much
Maybe I didn’t give enough
But I’m inherent to you and your
Love
I live you
And oblivious of this you are not
And maybe these feelings are ambiguous
But I’m inherent to you and your
Love

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Christina Milian - Dip It Low
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If I Was A Ho...

2009-05-12T14:19:00.003-04:00

Of all the dreams I could have
One is kind of off and raunchy
Not anything you’d expect of me
But hey, one can dream...
If I was a ho…

If I was a ho
I’d be slaying muthafuckas day and night
I’d have my regulars
And my one-nighters
And there’d be no overnights
Do the do and get out

If I was a ho
I’d make ‘em work for it
You will be treating me right
And treating me well
And you won’t be stopping by empty handed
Or unannounced

If I was a ho
I’d acknowledge that I was a ho
There’d be no lyin’
No frontin’
You ask, I’m gonna tell you
Straight up
If you have a problem with it – STEP!

If I was a ho
I’d make sure that I was getting
Tested on a regular basis
And demand the same from my conquests

If I was a ho
You would respect me
Cause I ain’t that type of ho
Thinkin’ you can get at me
Whenever you want and treat me like shit
Oh no
Not me
Ho or otherwise

If I was a ho
I’d give it a new name
Some grace and some class
I’d bring new relevance
To the jump-off
And show that even hoes
Got it goin’ on

But I ain’t a ho
As I could be one
I can’t bring myself to do it
It’s crazy out here
And it’s just easier to be
In a committed relationship
Or at home with a porno flick jerkin’ off

So no, I’m not a ho
And have no plans of being one
Anytime soon
But if I was – I’d be number one

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: The-Dream - Rockin' That Thang
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I’ll Never Understand

2009-05-06T22:56:00.002-04:00

In our society, who you align yourself with is just as important as what you believe, your actions, your experience, and where you come from. It’s been said that the people you hang with or conduct business with say a lot about who you are as a person. I guess this couldn’t be any truer in public office. Many have been tarnished by the actions of others. Whether they had anything to do with what went down, they are guilty by association. I’ll never understand why, especially if it’s over foolishness that you had nothing to do with. Or when there is an obvious disconnect between your platform and that of close colleagues. It makes no sense to me how people automatically change their opinions of you and your character based upon the beliefs held by people that you know. Especially when you’ve expressed the distinctions on more than one occasion. You shouldn’t have to distance yourself from those close to you because of a fiery speech they gave, controversial rhetoric in an article, book, or video clip, or because certain beliefs they have challenge those held by the masses. It seems to me to be more of a problem with the public and less of problem with or for you. Or more of a problem for pundits, side liners, and so-called experts. People have to learn to accept the unknown, the foreign, and the distinctive. People have to learn to separate individuals from other people, their actions, and their beliefs. Many times – these factors are not synonymous. Why should someone be alienated and vilified for actions not taken and words unsaid by them? Though I’ll never understand this, I hope that people understand the implications and will hold themselves accountable just as much as public figures to a bar that is unrealistically high. Cause if you’re going to do it to others, the golden rule says the same should apply to you.

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Now playing: Maysa - Never Really Ever
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Buddah's Question

2009-05-04T21:46:00.004-04:00

With the advent of blogging, microblogging (i.e. Twitter), and social networking sites, the way in which we communicate with each other continues to change. My question is - have these tools helped you create or sustain connections with people? Have these tools heightened your ability to stay in touch or pull back from your peers? And have they opened the door for several opportunities to reach or communicate with people who you might not otherwise? Let me know your thoughts.

Hope you all have a great week! Peace!

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Now playing: Van Hunt - Down Here in Hell (With You)
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Buddah's Thoughts

2009-05-03T22:08:00.004-04:00

I was really psyched about seeing Beyonce on tour - until I found out how much the tickets were. I just can't bring myself to pay $100+ for the nosebleed section at the Verizon Center. Plus, I'm in debt payoff mode and saving for new furniture and vacation. I had to prioritize. Looks like Bey will have to wait. I can catch the I AM.... Tour on DVD. I know, I know - it's not the same.... But financial stability (and maintaining it) is more important.
My boyfriend and I saw the new X-Men Origins: Wolverine movie Friday night. We loved it! The plot, the acting, the special effects, cinematography - all top notch! I have to admit I thought this was much better than X-Men 3....
Well, the media is up to its old tricks again - fear mongering.... And you should already know what I'm referring to when I say.... The coverage of the swine flu. Living in fear - didn't we get tired of this under the Bush Administration? Has anyone learned anything yet? Being afraid is not going to help us get over this pandemic any sooner. We need to be prudent and do our best to safeguard ourselves. We have to be a little smarter about this folks.... And looking to the media is not always the answer....
And is there anything else to report on other than Miss California's viewpoints on marriage? It's overkill at this point. Who care? This is America. Everyone can say or feel what they want. The problem comes in when you are browbeating others into thinking, feeling, and believing the same way. I have no problem with her viewpoints. I don't agree with them but it's not stopping me from believing what I believe or how I'm living my life. (See my post On Marriage for more.)
There are certain things that shouldn't be discussed at work. Politics, sex, religion, certain aspects of relationships.... I could go on and on. You usually have discussions about this at orientation and get documentation from HR regarding this.... But people do it anyway. You need to however, be very careful because you never know who is listening and who might be offended by what is said regarding any of the topics listed above. Oh the conversations that I've heard - it's mind boggling. Thank god I can tune things out with music.... It's been my saving grace many-a-day.
It's amazing how deep connections can be between friends. It doesn't matter what happens, the distance between you, how often you see or speak to each other - there's something that just keeps you linked. You can pick up where you left off with ease. You remain each other's constant supporters. I've noticed this so often with my closest friends. It's truly a great thing!
I have ongoing issues with mainstream music. I'm not sure when or where everything went amok but very little seems to fascinate me. As I get older, I seem to fall in love more and more with "grown folks music". Music that not only sounds good but has a purpose. It makes you think, feel, laugh, cry, dance.... It's real, never contrived. It doesn't follow trends and isn't derived from some tired, ole formula. It's art. And it's obvious when listening and seeing artists perform that they do it for the love of music and not for the money.
I'm looking forward to hearing Chrisette Michele's new album, Epiphany, to be released this Tuesday, May 5th. Her debut was one of 2007's best R&B/Soul releases. And I expect nothing but great music on the new release. I can't stop playing "Epiphany" and "What You Do". And I just heard "Blame It On Me" on Saturday (and that may become a new favorite as well).
Can you believe it - Maxwell has new music coming out? The first part of his trilogy BLACKsummers'night will be released on July 7th. The first single "Pretty Wings" is a masterpiece. It's classic Maxwell and a welcomed addition to keep in rotation. It's been 8 years since his last studio album. If "Pretty Wings" is any indication - it'll be well worth the wait.
I'm really looking forward to the summer. Being able to catch up on my reading. Hanging out with friends and family. Going to concerts and other events. The beach. Vacation. And spending quality time with my baby.... :)
After a long break, I'll be heading back to the gym. I paid for a new membership at Bally's this Saturday (great deal by the way - $29.99 a month/no initiation fee). I'll be working out at least 3 days a week. I've lost about 8-10 pounds without working out. It's now time to up the ante. The goal is to be healthier and stronger. Gotta make life changes and stick to them.

Oh well, that's it for me. Got to finish getting ready for the work week. Until next time, peace, love, and many blessings!

Kiss

2009-04-05T23:25:00.002-04:00

When our lips met
I felt myself
Leave this place
I was transcended
And from the looks
Of it, you were too
Something in the way
Our lips met
Suggested a deeper
Feeling between us
Something we’re only
Beginning to experience and
Explore
If this serves as an
Indication of the future
It’s going to be explosive
What brought us together
Will only continue to grow

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Kid Cudi - Day 'n' Nite
via FoxyTunes

Time Waits (for No One)

2009-03-29T01:10:00.004-04:00

I'll live like forever is now
Because time waits for no one
And tomorrow just may not come 'round
Because time waits for no one
When we're gone
Only love goes on
~ Gloria Estefan, "Time Waits" from Unwrapped (2003)

Hello to all out in blog land! Hope all is fab in your world. It's been so long! I'm good though. Guess you can say I've been on a blog sabbatical. Life has been moving so fast lately and I find myself increasingly busy. At this point, I'm just trying take some time and enjoy breathing. Today was one of those days where I didn't feel like doing anything and that was my mission. Sit back, relax, and reflect....

I have to say that the last 8 or so months have been the happiest I've been in quite some time. My professional life is going well. My work has received quite a bit of praise and I was recently awarded with a merit raise. I was very happy about that. I hope to continue to improve and advance in my current position and whatever opportunities that stem from it.

Personally, my love life has never been better. My boyfriend and I have been together for about 8 months. And it just seems to keep getting better. We can't get enough of each other. We are so very much in love with each other. Life would be so much different without him in it. And I can't see my life without him in it. He's the one! And I am so thankful, so grateful to have the love that I've longed for and searched so hard to find.

I've fallen in love with my friends all over again. They continue to amaze me, push me, inspire me, uplift me, support me, love me... And every chance I get I pay them back in kind. Since so many of my friends are several miles away, we don't get to see each other (sometimes don't get to talk to each other) that often. So the moments we do have whether they be in person, over the phone, text, IM, or email - are cherished. We've all been thru so much. And we've been there for each other thru it all. I couldn't ask for better friends. I thank god for putting them in my life.

And I love my family. As crazy and dysfunctional as it can be, they're my foundation. I can't help but root for them. Even during the bad times. It's unfortunate that we're not as close as we used to be. I continue to pray for the day when the petty b.s. is no more and we all can get back to where things should be. I will always be indebted to them for their love, care, and support - my mother and my grandmother especially. They've been my rocks....

I guess I say all this to say that the events of the last few months have left me in a reflective, introspective mood. These are trying times for everyone. One of my best friend's at work lost her dad on February 13th. My boyfriend lost his grandfather and an uncle on March 13th and an aunt less than a week later. My mother was diagnosed with another form of cancer and had to go into surgery on March 20th. Luckily, she made it through without any complications. Due to her medical history, we still have to keep an eye on everything. And hope and pray that after this go round the cancer doesn't return. All we can do is hope and pray for the best. Play your part and then give it up to God.

Though I realized this before, as I get older it sticks more so now....Life is too short not enjoy it and live it to it's fullest. It can all be gone in a flash. So you've got to give it your all. Love hard. Play hard. Dream big. Go after everything you want. Don't let anything stop you from doing what you've been put on this earth to do. Own it. Own everything (as RuPaul would say....lol!). And I'm going to own everything! As Gloria Estefan sang, time waits for no one. This is our time. We've got to make the best of it.... And on that note, I wish you all well. Enjoy your weekend. Catch up with you later....

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Now playing: Gloria Estefan - Time Waits
via FoxyTunes

Encore Status Entertainment!! Check it Out!

2008-12-06T21:50:00.005-05:00

Come celebrate the launch of our website for Encore Status Entertainment!

"New Stream is Main Stream" - that's the slogan for Encore Status Entertainment (ESE). Encore Status Entertainment is an online magazine created to expose the under exposed. We recognize those recording artists, fashion designers, artists, and filmmakers that normally go unseen and give them mainstream attention. On the ESE website, you'll find audio interviews, music reviews, clothing showcases, and much, much more.

Check out the ESE blog and then go over to the ESE website to check out interviews with Loj of NEG (Network Edutainment Group), singing hummingbird Brig Feltus, and female MC/producer Pri the Honeydark, and Greg of Emperial Nation Clothing.

And to celebrate the launch of our website, readers will receive a promotional discount for Emperial Nation clothing! But you've got to check out the website for details.

And remember - "New Stream is Main Stream!"

Peace, Love, and Many Blessings!!

I Wanna Thank You

2008-11-28T19:21:00.004-05:00

2008 has been a year of change, surprise, madness, happiness, craziness, and resilience. But I made sure I didn't lose myself (or my sanity) in the midst of it all. I found balance. And I couldn't do it alone. I thank the Creator, my family, and friends for being there through it all. I know that if it wasn't for the wonderful support system I've had since the very beginning, I wouldn't be where I am now. Though I may be independent, I know I couldn't do it all alone. I am so thankful, so grateful for my family, my friends, a great relationship, my home, my job, food, clothes and the many others gifts and talents in this life I've been blessed with. I'm so happy to be here to share it with those that I love. I hope to continue sharing, living, loving, and experiencing. And I hope that I can continue to pay forward all of the great things that so many others have done for me. Hope you had a very Happy Thanksgiving. Be happy and be safe this holiday weekend. Peace, Love, & Many Blessings!

Love & Life

2008-11-02T22:13:00.004-05:00

Hello All! It's been quite a bit of time since I last blogged. Life's been keeping me busy - really busy. So much so that I had to take a step back, chill out for a bit, and re-evaluate things. After the world tour from work (we traveled to six different locations in three weeks in July), I fell ill in early August. All the traveling took a toll on me and I spent a brief period in the hospital and on sick leave from work. It was a combination of exhaustion, stress, and anxiety (which sent my blood pressure through the roof). And this is not a good combination of things to be suffering from. It may seem lightweight but when you think about how your overall health can be impacted - it's not cool.

Looking at the amount of leave I'd accrued vs. what I actually used at work, I noticed that I had not taken off much at all. And in lieu my recent health scare, I figured I needed to rectify that. So whenever I feel I need to take a mental health day - I take it, without hesitation. I realize that end of the day - if you don't take care of yourself, who else will? I've been trying to relax more, chill more, party and socialize more (I've been doing a lot of that lately-LOL!). Just trying to enjoy life more really.

Aside from that, I've been spending time with family and helping out when I can. My mother and my grandmother actually took care of me while I was sick. I was so appreciative and grateful for that. I'd do the same (and have done the same) thing for them. It's the least that I can do for the many things they've done for me over the years. I recently helped them move into a new place back in late September. Due to the issues my mother's been having with her left hip/leg and lower back, she's unable to comfortably do a lot of walking and stair climbing. Her doctor told her she needed to move somewhere that didn't have any stairs. Fortunately, she and my grandmother were able to find a one-level house and everything is good. They've settled quite well into it.

I've also fallen in love.... This thang is for real. So SERIOUS!!!! I'm so happy (or I should say happier). All of the b.s., drama, and games I had to deal with in my previous relationships were the perfect set-up for what I have now. Totally work of The Creator. I can't say thank you enough! When you stop looking - good things do come your way. I do believe I've found my match. He's a beautiful man - inside and out. We feel exactly the same way about each other - and it's been that way seemingly from day one. Another reason to keep smiling.... :)

And I got to see Janet here in DC. Oh.... That show was one of the best shows I've ever seen. She brought the house down. They weren't ready-LOL!! I rocked with Janet for 2.5 hours of non-stop unadulterated entertainment. Say what you will about the Jacksons - but they rise like the phoenix. And regardless of what's going on - they always know how to put on an excellent show. Michael and Janet - two of the most influential and dynamic entertainers to ever grace the stage. Just look at all the reigning kings and queens of the industry now - you can't help but notice the influence Michael and Janet have had on them.

Anyway.... Life is good. Love is good. So many things to be thankful for. Even during the darkest moments.... There's always plenty of light shining when you come out on the other side. We often forget how fortunate we are. It usually takes a life changing event before we realize it.... Until next time... I wish you the best. Get out and vote. This thang is SO SERIOUS! DON'T PLAY!

Traveling, Traveling + 3rd Blogiversary!!!

2008-07-19T21:12:00.005-04:00

Greetings! Hope you're somewhere cool - trying to beat the heat. I'm chillin'. Just got back from Dallas. My team is conducting field research for a project and will be traveling for most of this month. Aside from Dallas, we've been to Chicago and Tampa. We'll be going to Phoenix and San Diego next week. I've been to San Diego before (a beautiful place) but I've never been to Phoenix. I'm not sure I'll be able to beat the heat in Phoenix (with 100+ degree temperatures - I can feel my skin burning now - LOL!) but I'll enjoy it as much as our schedule will allow. Though, I am grateful to have a job that affords the opportunities to travel, I must admit - traveling is very exhausting. I feel like I'm going to need a vacation just to recuperate from living out a suitcase these last few weeks. LOL! But it beats being stuck behind a computer in a cubicle everyday. Change of scenery is always a great thing.

And I'm happy to announce BuddahDesmond's Rapture is celebrating its 3rd anniversary this month! I can't believe I've been blogging this long. So much has changed in my life both personally and professionally. And I've written about a range of topics and issues and still have much more to discuss. In honor of this celebration, I'd like to highlight some of my favorite posts over the years. Feel free to take a gander at these and any other posts:

Other sites to checkout:

Pictures and Frames Magazine (I have poetry and music reviews of Chante Moore's Love the Woman and Craig David's Trust Me.)
Encore Status (This is the blog for an up-and-coming online magazine of the same name devoted to giving mainstream-like exposure to underground artists, musicians, fashion designers, and filmmakers.)
Melange - the Encore Status Mixtape, Vol. 1 (Tired of Top 40 radio? Need something new and different? Then Melange may be right for you!)

Until next time.... Peace, Love, & Many Blessings!

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Now playing: Common - Southside (featuring Kanye West)
via FoxyTunes

The P/H Factor - Phyllis Hyman: Tribute to a Sophisticated Lady

2008-07-04T17:29:00.006-04:00

Gonna make changes
Gonna make minds aware
Moving together
Willing to share
There's power in the masses
Collectively we can win

~Phyllis Hyman, "Gonna Make Changes", Somewhere In My Lifetime, 1978

I couldn't let this week end without paying tribute to one of my all-time favorite vocalists, the late, great Phyllis Hyman (July 6, 1949 - June 30, 1995). The music industry hasn't been the same since her untimely passing. If you are unfamiliar with her music - do yourself a favor and please check it out. It's a rarity even to this day that someone comes along as gifted and talented as Hyman was. The singer, songwriter, model, actress and businesswoman would've turned 59 this year.

The P/H Factor

The angel, with the resonant, rich, beautiful voice
The Goddess of Love
Commanding the stage like a Queen
Regal, striking, almost intimidating
Queen of the blues, pop, soul, jazz and gospel
A true Sophisticated Lady
In a class of her own
in fact, ahead of her time
Critically acclaimed yet unrecognized
A mind blowing woman with many talents
Who never achieved the stardom she truly deserved
Yet, she is a legend

Although you're no longer with us in the physical sense
Your spirit lives on in your music
Each time one your songs play
You are born again
We relive the joy and wonder in our memories of you
You touched us deeply
With your songs of love
About its many facets, the ups and downs, the joys and the pain
You took us there
We were with you each step of the way
With each note on the musical scale
You left us enraptured
Capturing us in your mesmerizing essence
You spoke to us and we could definitely relate
That's why we will never forget
You and the many gifts you gave to the world

Phyllis Hyman--the woman, the actress, the fashion model, the singer, the songwriter, the performer
You will always remain special
You will always have a place in our hearts
And a significant place in history
One of the world's most beautiful women
with one of the greatest vocal instruments
You are truly appreciated
You will forever go on
Phyllis, you were and still are loved

Phyllis Hyman's music at Amazon

Have a happy and safe holiday weekend!

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Phyllis Hyman - Complete Me
via FoxyTunes

Surrender

2008-06-28T15:07:00.002-04:00

come to me
let me show you the way to
my heart
come with me
let us escape to the place
where lovers go to freely
express their love for each other
stay with me
never let me spend another night
alone
lay with me
so that our
bodies, souls, and minds
can unite as one
let the wonderful beauty of
this bond take us where it may
let us let go
and let love take us away
let us surrender
and give our all
to each other with the
power of love

~BuddahDesmond

The Love Inside

2008-06-28T14:57:00.003-04:00

You can have all the love in the world
But the love that really counts
is the love inside
The love for self
That shines through
In each and everything that you do
It is only when you can love
and accept yourself that
You can begin to love someone else
And once this happens
You will be able to proclaim
honestly and passionately
"I've found true love!"

~ BuddahDesmond

I Walked Away

2008-06-01T22:29:00.004-04:00

Slowly surely
I walk away from
self-serving
undeserving
constantly hurting me love
deserting me love
you said, I said, we said
but
~ Jill Scott, "Slowly Surely," Who is Jill Scott? Words & Sounds Vol. 1, 2000

If you haven't figured out from my previous posts yet, DP and I broke up. After 2 1/2 years, I had to walk away. It wasn't the love that I wanted anymore. It wasn't fulfilling my needs. After putting so much into it, I felt slighted. I felt shortchanged. I felt used. Because I wasn't getting back what I was putting in. The effort, the support, the openness wasn't being reciprocated. So I had to move on. The relationship was over long before it ended. I just had yet to open my eyes wide enough to see it. Though I saddened about our relationship's demise, I was thoroughly relieved. Content that I'd finally let go of what had been bringing me down for some time.

While I prefer to be in a relationship, I can do without the suffering, the heartache, the longing, and the pain. Lately, I've been enjoying the single life. I've been enjoying this time of reflection and introspection. I know that the next time will be quite different. And most of all, I'm going into this next period of life and love with no expectations. That way I don't get my feelings hurt too soon, too fast. And though it's only been a few months, new love seems to be on the horizon again. But I'm taking my time with it. No need to rush it. I'm just letting it flow - slowly, surely, easily, naturally. There's no hurrying love. A hurried love is one that will turn on you. It's one that will let you down. One that you won't be able to depend upon. Can't be having that! LOL! Until next time -- love, peace, and many blessings!

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Now playing: Jill Scott - Slowly Surely
via FoxyTunes

Next Time

2008-04-14T22:42:00.003-04:00

After this last go round with love
I've decided
instead of lambasting my ex
for the wrong did to me
I'm going to focus on me
Own up to what I did
Embrace the mistakes
My faults
And figure out just what I need
to do
So that next time I don't end up
in the same situation

I need to take this time
Reflect upon me
This is my time
To rectify, recover, release, and regroup
So that next time
I'm ready
for love
fully and completely

~ BuddahDesmond

Lost In You

2008-04-14T22:23:00.004-04:00

An unknown
A stranger
A new being
that I didn't recognize
something you wished you'd left on the shelf
instead of bringing home with you
This foreigner came in and
changed everything
What I used to be
What I used to do
was usurped
forgotten
discarded
The old me became this new being
And I thought nothing of it in the
beginning
I made excuses for you and your
behavior, the things you said, and
the things you did
It was okay
I thought it was me
I was so lost in you
that I lost me

I eventually saw you, me, us
the situation for all that it
was worth (and not worth)
And I, eventually, grew
tired
I was exhausted from giving so much
And nothing being rightfully reciprocated
I was disgusted
Because I bent over backwards
Was hanging out on a limb
Living on the edge
And it seemed you didn't appreciate it
So the good thoughts began to lessen
I dreaded your calls
I was disgusted with you
But I was more so disgusted
with myself for allowing
this to fester
I was so lost in you
That I forgot who I was

So I had to reclaim what
was rightfully mine
to get back to me
I had to let go
I had to embark on a new personal
journey
to find me again
I had to end it with you
So that I could
start anew with me

~ BuddahDesmond

The End

2008-04-09T01:24:00.003-04:00

Sad to say
but our union has come to a pass
At a point we were linked like no other
Joined, one
But something seemingly cosmic
changed the feeling
We lost our rhythm
Fell out of sync
Danced to entirely different beats
Some otherworldly thing
changed our space, our time
Though the love remains
All that should hold it together
unraveled
And we began to diverge....

Me
Left feeling the cold
While you were embraced with warmth
Emotions expressed
You say you do
But your actions fail to show that
you understand or know
Where I reside is a place
you can't seem to get to
I've given you directions
but you still end up lost
The sad part is that
you fail to see it

Maybe when you do
A great shift in thought, feeling,
perspective - a realization
will occur
And at that point
You will see not
only where I went wrong
But where you went wrong
where we both went wrong
And you should be able to move on
Hopefully wiser
Having learned a great lesson
about how to love

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Phyllis Hyman - Souvenirs
via FoxyTunes

No Shade But....

2008-03-21T19:07:00.007-04:00

With all due respect, I love Beyonce (sometimes) like the next fan. But I honestly don't see the sense in her being casted as Etta James in the upcoming movie Cadillac Records. Unless she's really been working on her acting chops, it will be hard to suspend disbelief. I think this role would've been perfect for Jill Scott (or someone whose talents are similarly as vast), especially coming off of her role in Tyler Perry's Why Did I Get Married?
There's really no disputing Aretha Franklin's talents (she is the Queen of Soul - or just "The Queen" period after her divatude at the Grammy's - I am not going there today!). But she needs an intervention. Someone needs to put her on blast for the fashion faux pas she commits on a regular basis. She gives the big girls a bad name. And there really is no excuse for someone of her caliber (and size) to be presenting herself the way she does. Style makeover - PLEASE!!!
Maybe it's just be me but - I'm not sure if I like Mariah Carey's new song "Touch My Body". It's stylistically bland to me. Anyone could've pulled it off. It was a safe choice for a first single. Too safe in my eyes. Yeah, it probably will be her 18th number one single but it certainly won't go down as one of her all-time best songs.
Are people really so stupid that Rihanna had to ban umbrellas at her concerts? Yes, they really are. So what if her biggest single to date is entitled "Umbrella". Why on earth would you pull out an umbrella in a concert hall and try to emulate the choreography in an area where others are standing/sitting? Totally CLUELESS!!!
Paula Abdul's video for "Dance Like There's No Tomorrow" looks like a rehash of all of her hit videos from the late 80s and early 90s. I wasn't impressed. Maybe she'll wow me with her comeback album this summer.... Anyway....
If I never hear another Justin Timberlake song again, I'd be fine. I'm like Fantasia, "I'm tired, tired, tired!!!" NEXT! Critics are already praising the first single Timberlake co-produced and co-penned with Timbaland for Madonna "4 Minutes". Even if the song is whack, radio is going to play it like it's the best thing since bread piping hot from the oven.
If Alicia Keys is going to continue to sing the way she does on As I Am and the way she has during recent performances, she's going to need to take extra care of her voice. She really let loose vocally on the new album. So much so that some people say she's screaming. Maybe she's just really feeling it. Either way, if songs like "No One", "The Thing About Love", and "Where Do We Go From Here" are any indication, Alicia - I'm going to need you to go on vocal rest between shows.
If I see Hillary Clinton switch moods the way she did at several events and press conferences before the March 4th primaries, I'm going to write her a personal note. If you were to roll that bean footage back, you'd think she was suffering from multiple personality disorder. But I guess if the fear and realization hit that you may not get the nomination (especially if you've been thinking all along that you got in the bag), you'll be acting crazy too. She could honestly get it - but the swift mood swings, temper tantrums, and multiple personalities aren't helping her case.
And what is really good with contract employees from the State Department snooping through Barack Obama's passport files? What exactly were they trying to prove? This is proof, yet again, that they (and we all know who "they" are) will do any and everything they can to discredit Obama so he won't get the nomination. Let's read through the bullshit people.
Gas was somewhere around $1.40/gallon when Bush and Cheney first took office. Now, with gas averaging $4.00/gallon nationally, do you honestly think Bush and Cheney are going to do anything to change it? With their oil industry ties, they're probably laughing to themselves and saying, "Mission accomplished!"
Being as though it is an election year, the issue of accountability needs to be brought up. There's lots of excitement, frustration, and discussion about this election because of it's historical implications. Politicians are known for saying whatever they can to get into office. They are often held in a certain regard due to their history, experience, and platform. But very few back their words with action. So people, please remember after the big day, to hold whoever inherits this mess (I mean opportunity) accountable for the things they said they would do once they got in office. Hold yourself accountable for who you vote for and hold the elected official(s) accountable for their words, actions, and deeds after they get in office.
What is it with mofos asking you for money in the grocery store for food and rides? "All I have is $56 in food stamps and I've been trying to get home since yesterday. Could you give me some money to get home?" Really? You mean to tell me you've been in the grocery store/shopping center since yesterday trying to get home. How did you get here? Hell no, I don't have any money to give you. Or, "We don't get our check until tomorrow. We only have this much in food stamps. Could you buy some of this for us and we can reimburse you?" Are you kidding? Hell no. I mean really. People are BOLD. What do you think this is - Bank of America?! Don't paint me as a selfish prick who's unwilling to help those in need. I do help people out when it's reasonable/feasible. And sometimes I've done it only to be taken advantage of or adversely impacted afterwards. But in either of these situations, I was NOT going to comply.
What is it with impatient drivers? In a hurry to go nowhere but to a red light. They act like they're the only ones driving and they're the only ones who have someplace to go. If you're in so much of a hurry your ass should've left earlier (or on time). And don't be a pedestrian trying to cross in the crosswalk. It's your time to cross - you have the right-of-way. And cars are steadily coming. Then some have the audacity to honk their horns or yell expletives out the window. Bitch please. Hit me. I work for an insurance company. I will fuck yo' shit up. But seriously, with the way these drivers are in the DC Metro Area - if you are a pedestrian, they will hit you, act like it's a bump in the road, and keep going. It's so sad.

Well, I think I've ranted enough for the week. I got my raise this week. Time to go enjoy it. Until next time, have a very happy and safe holiday weekend!

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Now playing: Sia - Day Too Soon
via FoxyTunes

26 Y.O. + Still Learning

2008-03-09T22:57:00.006-04:00

Wow, it's been a while. You turn around and you find it's been three weeks since your last post. Hope everyone out in blogland is cool. I'm good. Just been busy. Been doing a lot of thinking and reflecting. I recently turned 26 (on February 15th). It was truly one of the best b-day's ever. I was taken out to lunch, had a surprise b-day celebration, and hung out with some friends at a cool bar & lounge in DC. I was tore up (and I mean tore up) for the first time in my life. I had a good time though (and that's all that matters). The tickets for the MJB and Jay-Z concert also went on sale on my b-day. One of my friends luckily scored some the same day and I'll be tagging along. I've never seen either artist live so I'm really excited about it.

Though I'm a year older, I still feel the same. I don't have any qualms or issues with growing older. I embrace it. Seeing those numbers change each year is a blessing. Just being able to get up each day makes me happy. It's as simple as that. Family, friends, good health, job, a home, food, clothes, etc. all make it that much sweeter. At 26, I know there's still more to learn. I'm a student - in this life, for this life - for life. Still so many places to go, so many things to do, so many people to meet. Wherever the journey takes me - that's where I'll be.

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More to come later. Until then.... Peace & Many Blessings!!!

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Now playing: Chaka Khan - Super Life
via FoxyTunes

Politricking

2008-02-14T00:22:00.003-05:00

They up politricking on the Hill
Taking lobbyists dollar bills
Claiming they keep it real
When they can’t give us something we can feel

They make promises they can’t keep
Forgetting that what they sow, they will reap
Lyin’ to themselves and others to get a seat
But when it all falls down the incumbent will get beat

Your approach is haughty and self-righteous
You come off cocky, act like you’re the second coming of the Messiah
So sad, people caught on to bullshit
Discovered you were only looking out for personal interests

You’ve got it bad and that ain’t good
Got the nerve to say you were misunderstood
You give politics and government a bad name
Liars, thieves, cheaters, adulterers, and politicians – people
Will say they’re all the same

You’re oblivious to the people you represent
You act like this is a game when it’s a commitment
You constantly cut and run and confuse the masses with doublespeak
While your quest to save moral values has only divided and made us weak

The time has come
And the people see you for what you are
They’re ashamed they let you get this far
But when the time comes they know exactly what to do
Find the next best thing and get rid of you

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Janet Jackson - Feedback
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In Lieu of MLK Day 2008

2008-01-27T22:27:00.002-05:00

This past Monday marked the celebration of Martin Luther King Day. Martin Luther King Jr. was a man who gave of himself unselfishly. He devoted his life to the fight for civil rights and equality for all. He led a movement that forever changed American society (and the world). His is a legacy that left an indelible imprint on the hearts and minds of millions. His current depiction however, seems to have many people believing the "I Have a Dream" speech is the only reason why we honor him.

As many leaders before and after him, King was a complex man. People seem to have forgotten, or they simply don't know, just how much he (and many other civil rights activists) did for us. How hard the battle was. How in the face of adversity he remained steadfast. He was a man with a mission - a calling if you will. He was committed to the cause. Determined to do all that was necessary to bring about change in a society that was plagued (and still is) with social ills. My words here, I admit, even fail to do King justice. But it pains me to see his life and his contributions being whittled down to the "I Have a Dream" speech.

If King were alive, I do wonder what his thoughts would be about our society today. In many ways it seems as if we've turned into what he feared the most - a divided society. The haves and the have-nots. The rich and the poor. The well-educated and the poorly-educated. White and Black. Or White and Everybody Else. The very things he was fighting against are the things that separate us. With all this talk about "change" - let's see which of the current presidential candidates will actually stop talking about it and be about it. Martin Luther King, along with many other activists and leaders of his day, set the tone. If you're going to name drop and throw out the "change rhetoric" then you need back it up with action. Only time will tell if any of the candidates (and any us) truly see the light.

Past, Present & Future

2008-01-27T22:06:00.000-05:00

I often wonder if our ancestors are pleased
With our progress
Looking down on us – would they hold their heads
High in praise or hold them down
In shame?
Would that feel that everything they fought for
Was in vain?
Would they feel we are living up to the legacy they’ve left behind?
It’s a valid question
Considering the disparities
Within our community
There’s a disconnect between
Generations and classes
Between faith and moral values
Between the revolutionary and the righteous
Between traditional and unconventional
Between family and community
Sometimes it seems like we are ghosts
Of what we were before
The shades of greatness remain
But the people have yet to figure out
What or how to use it
All is not lost yet all is not
Fully realized

And I hope that our ancestors have not
Given up on us
The way we have given up on
Each other
I hope they believe that we
All can come together to believe
And dream and fight to win
Again
Because it’s there
It never left
We were born to survive
In even the bleakest situations
There’s still time
To mobilize
There’s still hope and faith
That we can get it together
And bring everyone to the same
Place again
We just can’t forget about
What was
We can’t forget about who fought the many battles and
Won
We can’t forget about our
Ancestors
We must think of them
Because they are why
We are here
And why we must go on

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Kenna - Daylight
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Buddah's Thoughts

2007-12-29T23:40:00.000-05:00

Just some things that have been running through my mind.

I don't make new year's resolutions. I make life changes. And there will be many changes made in the very near future.
Well, it looks like DP and I may be living in the same state again sometime early next year. I'm getting excited! I've missed having him near dearly. Once the dates are finalized I've got to start planning for his return. I can't believe we've been together for a little over two years now.
Don't you just hate office politics? They can put a damper on an otherwise satisfying work experience. I do my best to avoid them at all costs. I keep all my personal business to myself. Cause the worst thing you can do is tell it to the wrong person. It'll spread around the office quicker than the speed of light. And people can use it against you.
Considering recent events, is the nation (and the world) really ready for the U.S. to have its first black president? With all due respect to Barack Obama, I'm just not convinced that it's his time yet. Of course, the primaries and the general election in November (and events thereafter) will tell the story.
Hell, is the nation (and the world) ready for Hillary Clinton to be president of the U.S.? With all due respect to rapper/actress Eve, Hillary Clinton is the "real pitbull in a skirt." Need I say more?
I liken Huckabee, Romney, Giuliani, and even McCain to revolving doors. They swing more ways on issues than a bisexual in the bedroom. Now, there's nothing wrong with changing your mind. There's nothing wrong with broadening your perspective. And there's nothing wrong with changing your opinions or views on certain issues. There is a problem however, when these things are changed to gain the support of a group people for votes. If people can't except you for all of your glory, excess, foolishness, and pain, it's their loss.
After reading about Benazir Bhutto's assassination, I had an eerie feeling that some real serious shit is about to go down. Everybody beware.
If I hear about another celebrity being arrested for a DUI I'm going to go on vigilante campaign to exchange celebrity driver's licenses for chauffeurs.
Looks like Paris Hilton got cut off. Grandpa is giving 97% of his fortune to charity. See what happens when you show your ass and dirty up the family name?
I love Mya like the next fan, but seriously, what's going on? She's been pushed back more times than a Kelly Rowland record. She called her new album Liberation and now she's like a caged bird that nobody wants to hear sing. Now, her single "Ridin'" was okay (at best), but "Ayo" and "Lock U Down" were garbage. Come a little harder next time Mya.
There were some really great releases in 2007 for music. I was really surprised. Some release days I just went for broke. I was like a kid in a candy store. I couldn't decide whose album I wanted more so I just bought everything.
If I had to tally my favorite R&B/Soul releases from male artists this year, the following would be on the list: Rahsaan Patterson (Wine & Spirits), Musiq Soulchild (Luvanmusiq), Ne-Yo (Because of You), Mario (Go), Trey Songz (Trey Day), Tank (Sex, Love, & Pain), Chris Brown (Exclusive) and Joe (Ain't Nothin' Like Me). Though they lean a little more on the jazzy side, I can't forget about Will Downing (After Tonight) or Raul Midon (A World Within A World). Hope I'm not forgetting anyone....
Aside from the singles already released on Jill Scott's latest album The Real Thing, I love "Crown Royal," "Epiphany," "All I," "Whenever You're Around," "Come See Me," "How It Make You Feel," and "Just Wanna Be Loved."
I love the new Janet song "Feedback". It's very different. Totally left of what's expected of her. I must've listened to at least 100 times since I got it. Can't wait to hear the new album Discipline, to be released February 26th.
2008 looks like it could be a banner year with new releases from Mariah Carey, Whitney Houston, Janet Jackson, and Madonna. Mary J. Blige has set the tone quite nicely. If all goes well, it'll feel like 1993/1998 all over again. Looks like they're about to put all the divas-in-training back in their place!
2008 will also mark the return of several other noteworthy favorites such as: Maxwell, Erykah Badu, Lalah Hathaway, Teedra Moses, Van Hunt, Lenny Kravitz, Faith Evans, and Mos Def to name a few.
Isn't it funny now how all the pop artists want to be down? Seems like every pop tart wants to make urban album with urban producers. I'm not hating but....YAWN!
I absolutely love Phyllis Hyman (and I mean love!). She's legendary. Which is why I was so happy when I came across the website for the book Strength of a Woman: The Phyllis Hyman Story. This biography was written by Jason A. Michael. I'll be checking this book out real soon.

And finally, have a very happy new year! May the year ahead be everything you want and more.

Peace, Love, and Many Blessings!

~ BuddahDesmond
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Now playing: Joss Stone - Bad Habit
via FoxyTunes

Simply Wondering

2007-12-23T18:32:00.000-05:00

Lately I find
You coming across my mind
More often than I’d care to say
It’s been some time
Since we’d last seen or spoken to each other
So it should be okay
If I care or wonder how you are

For a short, but significant moment in my life
You were the one
It was a love we shared
That I’d never experienced
Or could compare to anything before or after
I’d found happiness
In a new and exciting way
I’d found another way to spend my time
Without worry or apprehension
I didn’t mind making
Time for you

So when our lives shifted us into other directions
I was saddened
Deeply hurt
But I knew it was best
For both of us
We had to move forward
We ended on good terms
But since that time
We lost touch
And I was simply wondering
How you were
What you’ve been up to
And if I could still call you a friend

Though I may not be in love with you
Forever, I’ll love you

~ BuddahDesmond

Happy holidays! Be safe. Enjoy!

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Now playing: Keyshia Cole - Give Me More
via FoxyTunes

Tag! I'm It....

2007-11-18T19:18:00.000-05:00

Sean Stone tagged me. The rules of the game are:

Link to the person that tagged you and post the rules on your blog.
Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.
Tag 7 random people at the end of your post.
Let each person know they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.

1) Contrary to popular belief, I’m very shy. I’ve always been. It’s not as bad as it was when I was a kid though. When I’m in a new environment or in a group with people I don’t know well, I sometimes have a hard time opening up and reaching some level of comfort.

2) My shyness may have something to do with anxiety. Though I carry myself in a confident manner, I can be self-conscious. I don’t want to make a fool of myself or say the wrong things. So I’m very careful of how I conduct myself.

3) Since I was a kid, I’ve had prophetic dreams. These dreams have included visions of future life events with people and in places that I’ve actually encountered. And when these events happen, it’s like déjà vu (“I’ve been here before….”).

4) I’m oblivious to the attention I get from people when I’m out. It usually takes people I’m hanging with to say that someone is checking me out or trying to get my attention before it registers.

5) Though I went to school for IT, I have a love/hate relationship with technology. Though many of our favorite technologies have become modern day conveniences, they lose their luster when you find out those who created them failed to consider the negative impact and disadvantages when these technologies are used for malevolent purposes. And those who feel the fallout from this the most, tend to be us, the consumers. With technology, the focus should be less on money and prestige and more on value, quality, security, and usability. (I could go on and on about this but I’ll save this topic for another day and another post! ☺ )

6) Since I was 11 or 12, I’ve written close to 900 poems, songs, short stories, and other prose pieces. I’m not one to boast but this is an astounding feat even to me. The issue I continue to have is figuring out the proper avenues for my work and the best route to go with publishing – independent or mainstream. I’d love to devote more time to this but the regular J-O-B is taking all of the limelight. ☺

7) Looking back on how much of my life has been devoted to performing, writing, and art, it’s much easier for me to express myself creatively than otherwise. It’s definitely a divine gift. I’m the vessel through which the creativity and the artistry flows. It’s not me—it’s through me. And I’m eternally grateful to the Creator for that.

Tag! You’re it!

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Now playing: Millie Jackson - All The Way Lover
via FoxyTunes

H-A-P-P-Y

2007-10-28T00:27:00.000-04:00

Happiness seems to be a fleeting thing as of late
The closer I get to it
The further it seems to move away
I know you can't find it in others
And it rarely, if ever, can be found in tangible possessions
It's a right
We all have
But many seldom find

In my case
It's a longing and
Loneliness that haunts
my existence
That nothing seems
to distill or quench
I hunger for things I have to wait for
I thirst for a time in my life when
I'm completely free of the past's pull and society's bite
I'm yearning for something I think is simple

I've got a history of high expectations
and asking for too much
And it's even surprising to me
When the conditions are met
But this is simple
in a conventional
and spiritual sense
Nothing too complex
(or so it seems)

I guess I'll just have to
dig a little deeper
Look inside
a little longer
Till I find
All that adds up
to being
H-A-P-P-Y

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Annie Lennox - Primitive
via FoxyTunes

Relax, Relate, Release, Regroup!

2007-10-20T13:32:00.000-04:00

It's about that time. I feeling the need to get rid of some dead weight. I don't need the start of the new year to signify change. It's just a feeling that you get when you know you're veering off track. You've been led astray and you're trying to get back to where you need to be. Somewhere amidst graduation, the new job, the relationship, moving, traveling, and all of the family/personal drama - I got lost. I got caught up. I lost focus on what I set out to achieve. I let everything (and everyone) dictate what my existence should be. But no more! Never again. As the saying goes, "I may be down but never out!"

I know this is shorter than my average post, but sometimes being concise is the only way to get the point across. I'll be back with another post within the week. Hope everyone in the blogworld is well. Until next time.... Peace, Love and Many Blessings!

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Now playing: Teena Marie - Ooo La La La
via FoxyTunes

Current Loves (of Music That Is)

2007-08-21T14:21:00.000-04:00

The state of music today is.... Uhmmm...... Hmmm... It's.....? For one of very few times in my life I am speechless. But I will say this.... If you're listening to mostly mainstream music, then it's understandable when someone says no one makes good let alone real music anymore. But the truth is people are still making real music. The problem is exposure. The crop of real singers and musicians only get airplay on certain stations and video channels. If they've been in the industry for a little while, it's a miracle if they're even getting any airplay. So if you're looking for substance, you need to look under radar. But here's a small sample of what I'm digging right now.

Teedra Moses - Complex Simplicity
Teedra Moses is one of the most underrated singer-songwriters in the game. She's written or co-written songs like Christina Milian's "Dip It Low," Mary J. Blige's "So Lady," Macy Gray's "Finally Made Me Happy" and Trina and Kelly Rowland's "Here We Go" to name a few. She's released several mixtapes. And her music's been featured on Noah's Arc. She has a funky, sassy, and soulful style that manages to be both sweet and street (think Cherrelle or Pebbles meets Mary J. Blige). Her music sits somewhere between hip-hop soul and neo-soul. She holds nothing back lyrically (especially on songs like "You Better Tell Her" and "Backstroke"). And she's no slouch vocally either. She uses her smooth, sexy, flexible soprano to great affect on songs like "I Think of You," "You'll Never Find (A Better Woman)" and "Outta My Head." Having been released in 2004, it's a shame this record failed to get the attention it truly deserved. But no fret here. Word of mouth, her songwriting, and live performances are helping to get Teedra Moses where she needs to be. With the next release The Young Lioness upon the horizon, johnny come lately exposure is never a bad thing.

Urban Mystic - Ghetto Revelations II
You can't help but to feel this brotha. It's all in the voice. A voice that evokes the spirit of Sam Cooke, Otis Redding, and Wilson Pickett. He has a raspy baritone that's raw, passionate, and soulful. He able to make you feel every word. It's everything your favorite soul singer is capable of. Urban Mystic is an old soul who easily mixes the old school with the new school on songs like "It's You," "Where Were You?" and "Let's Make a Change." He's at his best on gospel-tinged ballads like "I Refuse," "Your Portrait," and the Sam Cooke remake "A Change Is Gonna Come." He's not your average male R&B/Soul singer (thank God). His talent goes much deeper than many of his contemporaries. Now, only if he can get a few platinum records.

Chrisette Michele - I Am
I love Chrisette Michele. Absolutely love her. I think I've been listened to her music everyday for the last month-and-a-half. Aside from Teedra Moses, I have to admit--I haven't felt this way about a female R&B/Soul singer since Jill Scott came along. If you aren't familiar with her name, you've probably heard her beautiful voice on Jay-Z's "Lost One" and Nas's "Can't forget About You," "Still Dreaming," and "Hope." If you've lost all faith in R&B/Soul music, it will be restored after listening to I Am. She has a voice that evokes Billie Holiday, Sarah Vaughan, and Natalie Cole. Though she has an admirable range, she doesn't need to resort to vocal acrobatics to emote (a lesson that many of her contemporaries need to learn - well the ones that can sing at least). Aside from the singles "If I Have My Way" and "Your Joy," standouts include "Is This The Way Love Feels," "In This For You," "Golden," "Work It Out," and "Be O.K." She'll be in DC this weekend at The Black Cat and I'm going to do whatever I can to be there.

Vikter Duplaix - Bold and Beautiful
There are so many adjectives to use to describe this Philly brotha's music. Vikter Duplaix is a singer, songwriter, producer, musician, and DJ. He did the score for the DL Chronicles and has produced music for Vivian Green, Musiq Soulchild, Jill Scott, and Erykah Badu. His music is what I'll call, chillout, lounge soul. It's lush and can be very sensual (Duplaix will definitely set the mood right). Using both electronic and organic elements (and his sexy voice), it mixes hip-hop, soul, funk, jazz, Afrobeat, and drum 'n' bass. Duplaix's music has the versatility and otherworldly appeal of Sade and Andre 3000. If you like them, along with Esthero or Lisa Shaw, then you'll more than likely love Duplaix's music. Highlights include "Stimulation (with Ms. Saigon)," "Fade It," "Another Great Love Gone By (with Esthero)," "Nothing Like Your Touch," "I See The Sun (with Tye Tribbett & GA)," and "The Way That I Feel.

Amerie - Because I Love It
Ok. You're probably thinking, "Something here doesn't quite belong." Well, I can't help it. Everytime Amerie releases a new album, I seem to fall more in love with her. Because I Love It is her third release, only available on import in the US at this point. Like Kelis, she's on a label that has no idea what to do with her and she seems to get more love overseas than in her own country. This album also is the first without production from longtime collaborator Rich Harrison. Amerie wrote, arranged, and produced much of the album herself. It's actually quite good. She channels her love of 80s music on many tracks like "Some Like It," "Crush," and "Crazy Beautiful." She also includes more ballads and mid-tempo tracks this time around like "That's What U R," "Paint Me Over," "When Loving U Was Easy," and the inspirational "All Roads." And you know she couldn't stray too far from her signature sound - aggressive drums, heavy percussion, layered vocals - on tracks like "Hate 2 Love U," "Gotta Work" and "Make Me Believe." Because I Love It does a pretty good job at showcasing the many sides of Amerie and her love for the art. The real kicker here will be seeing if this record gets an actual release date here in the US and decent marketing. And once it's released, how well it will do in setting her apart from her contemporaries.

Robin Thicke - The Evolution of Robin Thicke
I agree with Jill Scott in that soul comes in all colors. Gloria Estefan, Celia Cruz, Bonnie Raitt, Joan Osborne, Janis Joplin, Bobby Caldwell, Hall & Oats, Teena Marie, Lisa Stansfield, Swing Out Sister and Jon B all have/had soul. Robin Thicke is another name to add to that list. Who would've thought that Alan Thicke's son would grow up to be a soul singer? Well he did and turned out to be a pretty damn good one. It's apparent that Thicke grew up listening to a lot of soul music. You can hear shades of Marvin Gaye, Al Green, Prince, and Stevie Wonder throughout. However, it's remarkably his own effortless style. (Take note Timberlake.) There is not one bad cut on this album. It's sung, written, arranged, and produced very well. I'm willing to go out on a limb and say The Evolution of Robin Thicke is a modern masterpiece. He's going to be around for sometime. And the music, I'm sure, will only get better.

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Now playing: Chaka Khan - The Drama
via FoxyTunes

If I Had My Way

2007-07-28T21:04:00.000-04:00

Another month gone by as the summer of 2007 is jockeying for the title of "fastest summer ever". Next thing you know everyone will talking about XMAS shopping. That is the very last thing I want to think about. So what's been going on in Buddah's world? Not a lot and I'm enjoying it that way.... Well, at least for this moment.

After being the dynamic duo at work, my supervisor and I, we are now a team of four. We've welcomed two new team members who are very intelligent, creative, and enthusiastic. I think they'll do very well. We'll be able utilize our resources better and accomplish a great deal more. I'm looking forward to the prospects.

After gallivanting through the streets nights and weekends for the last several months (like a gypsy with no home), I've taken reprieve. This is probably the second weekend in some time where I did absolutely nothing. Isn't nice to chill out for a change? I'm sure all of that will change next month. The calendar is beginning to fill up with engagements. More on that as that in other posts.

I also spent some time at home. My mother has been experiencing a lot of pain lately due to osteo-arthritis in her legs and bone spurs in her lower back. I had to help set up the office so she would be able to work from home. She's loving it and wishes she could work from home until she retires. If you had to deal with the b.s. from the cunts that she works with on a day to day basis you'd prefer to work from home too. She's been working from for about a month now. She experiences some pain every now and then but she doesn't let it stop her. She's always in good spirits. And she's been through a lot. She had her last chemo treatment at the end of April and the cancer is in remission now. She's been a trooper through it all. If there is anyone I can look to for inspiration it's my mother. Because of my mother and the example she's set I know that anything is possible. I'm happy she's still with us.

As for things between DP and I, they are a lot better than they were six weeks ago. We've worked through our issues and we're going to be fine. I didn't want to walk away from what we have and neither did he. We just had to get over ourselves and be honest with each other. Things happen. There's always a reason. Nothing is ever perfect. And this was our latest test (many more to come I'm sure). Of course things would be better if he was here permanently. If I had my way - he would be here. We would physically be together. But anything worth having is worth waiting for. The date of his arrival is set for sometime in November. And the anticipation and excitement continues to build....

And here's to two years of blogging! "On and on. And on and on. My cipher keeps moving like a rolling stone." E. Badu couldn't have said it any better. Until next time.... Be true. Appreciate what you have. Let the blessings flow.

Back to the Middle

2007-06-25T23:28:00.000-04:00

It's me again.... I'm back after what seems like ages. Like TV..... It seems like I go through more mid-season replacements than ABC. I can't make any promises the next time, cause who knows what will happen in this show called "Buddah's Life." I can say that life has been exciting these last several weeks. Exciting, entertaining, depressing, scary, emotional, extraordinary.... You get the picture. I attended and volunteered at DC Black Pride (my first time doing either and I had a great time), went to a special screening of the DL Chronicles (acted, written, and directed very well), attended a conference in Austin, TX (met some really nice people while roasting alive in that Texas heat), and had a very brief rendezvous with someone I'll call QD. For anyone who's been reading over the past few months, you're probably wondering - well isn't Buddah in a long-distance relationship with DP? Are they still together? Did Buddah cheat on DP? Well, yes, yes, and no.

We're still together. As much as we've been trying to make it work, it hasn't been easy. We were doing fine but the distance has been taking its toll on the relationship. (15 months and counting, 5000+ miles away, 5-6 hour time difference depending on the time of year--you get it the picture?) I don't care but after a certain period of time - talking on the phone isn't enough. You need something a little more substantial. At a certain point, we started talking about having our cake and eating it too while we're away from each other. DP said that because of our situation he wouldn't feel bad if I had my fun on the side as long as I told what I was doing and when. He said he wouldn't be mad as long as I was honest with him. I found this hard to believe. In the back of my mind I knew this was a big test. Well as I hinted earlier, something did happen (with QD). Wasn't planned or expected (and damn if it wasn't GOOD!!!). Guess I failed the test, huh? Oh well..... So I told DP about it and, as I had expected, he flipped. We fussed, fought, and argued and things just haven't been right since. I'm like Faith Evans (without the coke) trying to figure out where we stand.

Will we come to our senses and get it together? Will we take a break until we're at least back in the same state? Or will we be like that famous jazz standard and call the whole thing off? Stay tuned for this is an episode in "Buddah's Life" with multiple parts. Until next time, don't be as wild and crazy as I've been. Second thought, be wild and crazy. Just try to get back to the middle. As a very dear friend told me, this is your time. It's time to do for you. Do what makes you happy. Don't let anyone steal your shine!

Something Is Better Than Nothing

2007-05-06T21:25:00.000-04:00

Well it looks like I'm on the one post a month plan. I really wish I could post on a (semi-) regular basis but with all that's going on (and with my ADD-LOL!) it's difficult. There's always hope for the future. So how have I been? Ok, I guess. Busy as usual. Seems like I'm always playing catch up.

Work is good. Duties are increasing. I've been doing a lot of planning and preparation for the next round of user testing. It looks like we'll be staying put for this and the other testing projects in the queue. If we do any traveling it'll probably be sometime this summer (or early fall). In June I will be going to a conference in Austin, TX though. It'll be my first time going to TX. I'm excited. This will be yet another great networking opportunity in a great location. I can hardly wait. I'll be sure to pack comfortable clothes since it will more than likely be HOT.

Family life has been eventful to say the least. For the last several months, several of members of my family have been ill. Some in and out the hospital. My mother recently finished with chemotherapy and after being out for six months, will be returning to work soon. My grandfather was in the hospital for heart and kidney problems. My grandmother just got out of the hospital this weekend for heart issues. And I just got word today that my great-grandfather is in the hospital for what may have been a stroke. (And my other grandmother was in and out of hospital due to illness as well). As my grandmother said earlier today, "When it rains-it pours." All we can do is hope and pray that all will be well. Whatever The Creator deems necessary is what will be.

I'll be taking some vacation days around Memorial Day weekend (finally). Though I'll be staying the DC area, I'll be attending and volunteering at some of the DC Black Pride events. This will be my first attending (and volunteering) at a Pride. I have absolutely no idea what to expect. I just know that I better behave myself since I'm already spoken for (LOL!). If nothing else, I'll have some fun and meet some new people.

I've also been trying to get reacquainted with the DC area. So much has changed since I was away at school. What used to be so familiar has become quite unfamiliar to me. It would probably be a little easier to navigate if I had as many friends here as I did when I was at school. It seems like I had to start all over again in the social department of my life. I'm not sure that I'm like this aspect too much right now.... But I guess I just have to keep rolling with the punches. Maybe the social butterfly will have returned by summer.

DP and I have seem to be having quite a few disagreements too. We've said some things too each that we didn't mean to say. You know how that goes. I know I've been more hot-tempered than usual. I think it's due to us being away from each other for so long. This long distance thing is killing me. I'm beginning to see why long distance relationships don't last and why people avoid them at all costs. Long distance relationships are hard work. It's so hard, so very hard. It's so easy when you have easy access to each other (when you live in the same city or at least in the same state). But when you're thousands of miles apart it's rough. When you really need or want each other you can't be together. And that's probably the hardest part of it all. Sure you've got phones, emails, IMs, text messages, videos, and pictures. It's not the same and it will never add up to the real thing. In the same breath, I guess it's better than nothing. We haven't killed each other or broken up. These trials will only make our relationship and us that much stronger..... As I continue to yearn for DP's love and anticipate the next moment we'll share together....

Check out my reviews at Pictures and Frames Magazine. Until next time, peace, love, and many blessings! Be safe!

Coming Around Again

2007-04-06T01:33:00.000-04:00

Hello All! It's been too long. Life is crazy busy right now. I just back from a business trip last night and may be going on two more trips within the next month or so. There are several releases coming up for new applications at work so it looks like I'll be working a little later and traveling more. With the schedule filling up and time not being my own, I ask myself one question.... "When am I taking a vacation?" And the reply, "I have no idea but it better be soon!" I have no idea where (or when) but I hope it's somewhere far from the east coast. I would really love to leave the country.... Maybe go to Paris, London, or Capetown.... But lack of planning (financially and otherwise) puts this temporarily on hold. If I go anywhere it will probably be somewhere within the 48 contiguous United States.

Though work has been busy it's been going very well. We recently had performance appraisals and I found out that I got a raise. My boss told me that he was very happy with the progress I've made. He went on to say that my work has been excellent and that I have exceeded expectations in several areas. And if my progress is any indication, he anticipates event greater things from me in the future. Hearing this made my day! I was very proud (and grateful for the validation).

Aside from work, I've been hanging out with a few people from work and catching up with friends. Despite the various mode of communications we have today, I am finding it increasing harder to stay in touch with folks. Emails, voicemails, text messages, IMs, blogs--it's starting to be a bit overwhelming. There's only so much my attention span can tolerate before experiencing communication (and information) overload!

There's a lot more going on but too much to discuss for this post. Until next time, I hope you have a happy and safe weekend! Peace!

Normal?

2007-03-03T20:36:00.000-05:00

What is normal?
This question has popped up a lot lately....

Is it pink hair, tattoos, body piercings, and dark clothes?
Is it oversized hoodies, designer, baggy jeans, timbs, and over the top bravado and swagger?

Is it the overpriced condo in a metropolitan area?
Or a cookie cutter single family home?

Is it blue collar or white-collar work?
Or is it a get rich quick plan?

Is it traditional? Or is it conventional?
Is it Revelatory? Or is it revolutionary?

Is it the big house, picket fence, fancy car, two kids and a dog?
Or is it an unashamed, refusal of the American dream?

Is it Conservative or Liberal?
Is it Republican or Democrat?
Is it Capitalist, Socialist, or Communist?
Or is it apolitical?

Is it mainstream or underground?
Is it male, female, or trans?
Is it straight, gay, bi or asexual?
Is it married, common law, or a civil union?
Is it Christian, Hindu, Muslim, Buddhist, or Atheist?
And is race, class or culture a factor?

Wait a minute….
Does normal even know what normal is anymore?
Let’s face it
We’ve come a long way…. Or have we? (Ok that’s another poem for another day ☺!)
We’ve evolved into so many different things
With a variety of tastes, likes, dislikes, desires, wants, needs, and dreams
But the more things change the more things stay the same
If you look a little bit closer we tend to be more alike than we are unalike
So instead of forcing people into what we think is right
Or how we think people should live
Which really translates into what we’re comfortable with
Just let people be
Do you
And remember – just because it was right for you don’t mean that it’s right for everyone else

SomberHappyDays

2006-12-11T22:41:00.000-05:00

We're in the thick of the holiday season now. So you know what that means? The year is just about over. It's the most wonderful time of year they say. I beg to differ. It's a mixture of extremes - both good and bad. The bad - people getting killed over playstations, fighting over the absence of holiday paraphernalia in public, an unjust war raging, and leaders who continue to dodge the truth, lack integrity and accountability (and that's a brief list). The good - the Dems winning control of Congress (not getting my hopes up just yet), Donald Rumsfeld getting fired, and the general public finally getting the wool from over their eyes. And for those of us who were fortunate enough - we're still living. If you've got the essentials in life - then you've got every reason to be happy. Family, friends, a home, food, clothes, love, a decent job, good health - what more can you ask for? In the same breath, it's these things that so many of us take for granted.

We often forgot how fortunate we are. And it's for the many things we have in this life that we should be not only thankful but grateful. And if you can, to try to give back to those who provided for your and those who have fallen on hard times. Instead of going for broke on Black Friday and the shopping days leading up to Christmas, how about putting your time, money, and energy into something more meaningful? Like building up your community, supporting the causes and volunteering at the organizations that really need the help, or simply investing more into your own family legacy.

I don't mean to be on my soapbox but things have hit me a little harder this year than most. Maybe it's because I realized that all of the things I used to value don't really mean anything. And the things I used to worry about would only create more stress and heartache, which only makes things unnecessarily worse. There's so much that I have and I've only begun to really appreciate it. I cannot take for granted what I've been given and those who provided for and supported me along the way. Therefore, I have to continue the mission that I started while back in school. And that's simply doing for others what's been done for me. And it doesn't have to be anything big. Sometimes it's the small things that have the greatest impact. And it's not only going to be during this time of year. If I have my way, it'll year round. It all begins with us. So many of us say we want the world to be better. But if we want it to be better, we have to make ourselves better before we can expect the world to follow suit.

More to come later. Until then, I wish you all the best!

Buddah's Thoughts

2006-11-09T23:07:00.000-05:00

I had some things on my mind that I wanted to share. Some of which are related to the events--political, personal and otherwise--of the last few weeks.

1) I’m sure several millions of people are happy that the Democrats are in control of both chambers of Congress. Considering the events of the last four years, it was a sweet victory that many were predicting and anticipating weeks/months before the elections. The people finally spoke. They were sick of all the lying, cut-and-run shenanigans, and hypocritical philandering. The people finally woke up. And I guess you could say the Democrats finally woke up too. After all, it only took four years for the Democrats to get some balls and stand up for what they believe in. And now that the Democrats have control of Congress, the crème de la crème here is whether they will actually use their power to make a difference. Several reports have been written (see USA Today for 11/10/06) about how both parties are committed to working together to make a difference. Call me a cynic or pessimist, but I find it hard to swallow this premature joining of forces. How can both parties collectively join forces when they can barely do it independently? Maybe I’m being too hard on our representatives. But as citizens it is our job to be hard on our elected officials. Especially when they are slipplin’ and trippin’. Let there be any scandals in the Democratic Party and we’ll probably be in the same place all over again. I’m not going to jump on this bandwagon anytime soon. I’ll believe the rhetoric when I see some results. All I can say is the next two years should be quite interesting.

2) And in lieu of the Democrats recent victory, I’m convinced Donald Rumsfeld was fired. They can say whatever they wish when they address the public during press conferences, but we all know the real deal. Again, that idiot did not resign he was FIRED!!!

3) There really is no need to start worrying about who’s going to run for President in 2008. We need to focus on the here and now. Besides, whoever inherits the mess that the Bush administration has left behind will have their work cut out for them. I’ll be praying for them.

4) I was so happy to see the recent pictures of Whitney Houston at the 17th Carousel of Hope Ball. She looks amazing. I really hope (as I’m sure many others do) that she pulls through this time. Getting away from Bobby may be just what she needs to do it. And good news for all Whitney Houston fans is she’s already in the studio working on new music. And if all goes well, it will be another great triumph in her legendary career and yet another of the music industry’s greatest comebacks.

5) I don't know if it's just me or not but didn't you find many of the high profile, highly anticipated releases of the year been downright mediocre (at best)? Save for a few, I have not been impressed by much of the much released this year. What happened to R&B/Soul music this year? Where is Maxwell? Where is Musiq? Where is Erykah Badu? Where is Lauryn Hill? Has anyone seen D’Angelo? A few years ago, it seemed like everytime you turned around a new release by a major or up-and-coming artist was being released. Or maybe the industry is saving all the good stuff for the holiday shopping season.

6) Justin Timberlake should be very thankful and grateful to Timbaland for lending his creative genius to his latest release LoveSexy/FutureSounds. Cause he may not have had two number one hit songs (“SexyBack” and “My Love” feat. T.I.) out the box otherwise. And while we’re on the topic of JT.... It has to be said – Justin Timberlake did not bring sexy back. It never left!!!

7) And where are all of the male soul singers? Not these mediocre, Stevie Wonder, Michael Jackson wannabes that get played every five minutes---but the real soul singers. There’s Will Downing, Rahsaan Patterson, Urban Mystic, Jaheim, Kenny Lattimore, Gerald LeVert (RIP), and where do you go from there…. Many of the aforementioned artists don’t get airplay on top 40 or major urban stations. I guess there’s no interest in people with real talent and who make real music in the mainstream anymore.

8) Why do long distance relationships have to be so hard? I’ve been in a relationship for almost a year now (it’ll be a year in December). Of the time that we’ve been dating, we’ve been together physically in the same state for only four months. We are 5 time zones and several thousand miles apart. It’s really starting to get on my nerves. I can’t stand it! If I was thinking with my other head I could’ve said fuck it a while back and played the fields. But I don’t get down like that. And besides, I’m not trying to mess up a good thing. If anything, our time apart has helped the situation. It’s made things stronger. And our time of being apart is coming to close next month, right around our anniversary, and this time it will be for good. Thankfully, cause I don’t either of us would be able to stand being away from each other that much longer.

9) After getting my first big job after graduation and moving into my own place I’ve learned that being on your own is not easy. I’m beginning to see why so many people stay with their parents, live with or depend upon others for so long. And I now know what my mother meant when she would say she was broke and I would ask for something and she’d say we didn’t have any money for that.... She would tell me that what I was asking for was a want and not a need. If it didn’t have anything to do with keeping a roof over our head, food in our stomachs, and clothes on our backs, it wasn’t a priority. I don’t know that I understood it completely when I was little but I definitely understand it now. Budget, budget, budget!!!

10) After I finish traveling for work, I’ve convinced myself that I need to join a local gym and get back on my workout regimen. I’ve been off of it a few months and it is starting to show. And I’m not liking it one bit. I may go all out this time and get a trainer. I have some goals and I know what it is that I have to do but I do need some motivation. Eventually I’d like to have a home gym. I’ve got some space so it could work.

11) And sadly.... Rest in peace to two beloved people that we lost this week – Ed Bradley, a pioneer for Blacks in journalism and Gerald LeVert, one of the greatest soul singers/performers of his generation. They will truly be missed.

Buddah Returns

2006-10-24T14:47:00.000-04:00

Damn.... I haven't made a post since August 12th.... I didn't know it'd been that long. Well, I'm back!!! Don't know for how long but I'm here nonetheless. Every so often you life takes you away from everything. It forces you to take a step back and appreciate, evaluate and just breathe!!! The last post I wrote a few days before I started my new job. I've been working for a little over two months. So far so good. No complaints. I haven't encountered any drama or met any people that I'd like to give a severe tongue-lashing to or cut (or both)... LOL! I've got plenty to do to keep me busy. And starting next week, my team will be traveling to a few regions to do some user testing on a few web applications that will roll out soon. It should be interesting I'm sure. And who can complain about free travel?

The only downer about my job is that my supervisor will be taking a new job in a different department after the New Year. Just when you're getting used to the way things work - change happens. And he was already in search of finding another analyst for the team. So that means we'll be looking for two new hires. Oh well... More to look forward to. As long as my supervisor gives me a good evaluation before he leaves or when my orientation/probation period is up (which ever comes first) - that's all that matters. Oh yeah, the orientation/probation period is six months. This is the longest I've ever had to endure a period of sorts. But the positives outweigh the negatives because you get more than enough time to get comfortable with your job, your team, and culture of the organization. Enough time to learn from your mistakes, prove yourself, and impress the people that approve the timesheets.

What else has happened? I moved into my own place almost three weeks ago. So I'm really feeling grown now. Oh the bills! NOT FUN! LOL! It's going to be a little tight through the holidays but the most important thing is that I have a roof over my head, food in my belly, and clothes on my back. I'm slowly but surely making touches of me into my new home. I figure I should be fully acclimated by the time my orientation/probation period is up - which is around my birthday, mid February. Maybe then I can throw a little house warming party. Mmmm....

I'm halfway through Juan Williams's book Enough: The Phone Leaders, Dead-End Movements, and Culture of Failure That Are Undermining Black America--and What We Can Do About It. An excellent, very well written book. It's a must read. I'm also loving Janet's 20 Y.O., Monica's The Makings of Me, Amos Lee's Supply and Demand, Natalie Cole's Leavin', The Brand New Heavies Get Used To It, Ben Harper's Both Sides of the Gun, India.Arie's Testimony, Vol. 1, Life and Relationship, and George Benson & Al Jarreau's Giving It Up.

That's about it for now. I better continue to listen out for the door. My new furniture is supposedly on the way. I had to take off today so it better be here TODAY. I don't want to unleash the hounds but if I have to I will.... LOL! Until next time, peace, love and many blessings!

Getting Ready for the DC Takeover!

2006-08-05T01:34:00.000-04:00

In just a few days, I'll be on a plane headed back to my beloved DC. I can't wait! Most of my stuff is already on its way home. Just got to pack my bags for the plane and do the last round of trash and cleanup and it's a wrap. I'm very excited. But all of this is kind of surreal. It always seems like everything major in my life happens so fast. I barely have enough time to get acquainted after moving so quickly from one thing to the next. But I'm going into this new phase with a clear, open mind and a positive attitude. I'm sure everything will be fine. And if anything crazy pops up, I'll find a reasonable way to handle.

This move is kind of bittersweet too. Visiting places in the area I would frequent--knowing that this would be the last time (or last visit for awhile) that I would be present. I'm leaving a place that I've spent a significant period of time in. It was an environment that fostered so much knowledge, wisdom, and growth--mentally, physically, socially, and personally. I've met so many great people--many of which who've become very good friends, mentors, and great social contacts. I've had the experience of rising, falling, and rising again. After all that I've endured, I feel like I'm ready to face whatever may come my way. I've certainly come into my own up here in Rochester, NY aka Da ROC.

But Da ROC is also a place that I've despised too.... Any chance I was given to get away, believe me, it was taken without hesitation! The lack of sunlight. Feeling like you're buried under an artic tundra with all of this snow, sleet and freezing rain. The difficulty of finding something of interest to do when you're bored (not a problem in DC). The pain of everything closing so early (definitely not a problem in DC). Poor public transportation system (not to worry about in DC either). All the unnecessary drama and bullshit you have to go thru to get the degrees. Wankstas and fake thugs (this is a problem not limited to Da ROC I know).... Though it's hard to admit, I'll miss this place. Now it's time to start the next phase of life in a familiar city. But the difference will be experiencing it, this time, all on my own.

Hope you've recovered from the serious meltdown that occured this week. It was hotter than a witch's coochie outside. I was out for a little bit and hurried my ass back inside so I could get to the AC! This is not my weather. If the craziness of the weather conditions isn't a sign of things to come then I don't know what is. Oh well, it's 2 in the morning. I need to get ready for my date with the pillow. I've been seriously lacking in the sleep department. With work starting in another week, I have to make sure I get as many hours in as I can (sleeping on the job is not an option).

Have a wonderful weekend!

BuddahDesmond's Rapture - 1st Anniversary!!!

2006-07-26T02:37:00.000-04:00

Wow.... I’ve been blogging for one year. Time sure does have a way of escaping you. So much has happened. Where to begin? Well, I successfully completed all of the classes for my masters and graduated. I started writing as a music reviewer for my school magazine and for my friend Lily's online magazine Pictures and Frames (I’ve been on a hiatus though due to school and trying to find my first real job). I received several certificates and rewards for the time, service and contributions I've made to my school over the last six years. I've grown so much closer to many members of my family and to friends. I've found a new love (going strong for eight months now). After almost six years, I cut off my dreads. And I've begun the ongoing mission of freeing myself from all the things that used to tie me down. I know I've probably forgotten some things but that's a pretty good summary.

As for the next phase, let's see.... Continuing on with my mission of physical fitness (not only losing weight but striving to be healthier in general). Starting my new job as an Application Systems Analyst in the next three weeks (I'm excited)! I get to go back home. (You know, it doesn't matter where you go or how long you stay there. Nothing beats home.) Finding and then moving into my own apartment. Continuing to write one (if not both) of the novels I've been neglecting. As always more poetry. Hopefully some performances in and around the DC area. Making some new friends, catching up with some old ones. And becoming a better blogger. And whatever else comes up. Oh yeah, and I can't forget about this one.... Taking a real vacation--away from everything (I don't even want to take my laptop, let alone my cellphone).

You know I've actually been so busy that I missed the true one-year anniversary of my blog.... The real date was July 10th.... But as they say, it's better late than never! A celebration is a celebration! Oh well, sleep calls.... Got to go to the gym in the morning!

Hot Summertime Fun, Peace and Love to all!

You Ain't Got No Home Buddah!!!

2006-07-01T18:54:00.000-04:00

Funny as it sounds, that's how it feels. Traveling, traveling. It's a good thing. But it's very tiring. In the last two-and-a-half months, I've been to Seattle, Montreal, DC, San Jose/Mountain View, and Rochester. Mostly for job interviews. I went to Montreal for a week in April to attend the SIGCHI Conference on Human Factors in Computing Systems (more about that later).

I'm heading back to DC for another job interview next week (YAY I get to go home!). Then back to Rochester. And the following week I may be heading to Pittsfield, MA for another interview. It's crazy. As soon as I drop my bags and get comfortable it's time to pack those bags and board the plane again!

As I mentioned above, I had the opportunity to attend the SIGCHI Conference on Human Factors in Computing Systems in Montreal back in April. This is the annual conferernce for the Human Computer Interaction community. For those who are wondering, Human Computer Interaction (or HCI) is a field of computing which focuses on the interaction between people and computers. One of its main goals is to improve the interaction between people and computers by developing computing systems that efficient, effective, easy to use, and easy to understand. And most importantly, that computing systems meet the needs of the people who use them. It's a multidisciplinary field that depends heavily on computer science, information science, cognitive science, anthropology, ergonomics, psychology, and sociology to name a few.

At the conference, there were several presentations, workshops, courses, and discussions devoted to recent innovations and developments within the HCI community. It was a wonderful experience for networking and learning about what other students, researchers, and practitioners are doing in the field. I was one of several student volunteers there. And I had a blast! Got to party a little bit. Got to meet a lot of new people. And I got to talk with several employers about possible job opportunities in their HCI departments. I even got to attend hospitality events in some of the local hotels sponsored by employers such as Microsoft, Google, eBay, and IBM. The Conference is held in a different location each year and usually lasts about five days. Next year it will be in San Jose, CA. I'd really love to go next year. But it all depends upon the money! I guess if I start saving now, I might be able to make it.

Other than that, I'm chillin' like a villain up in Da ROC. I've been listening to a lot of Chaka Khan and Phyllis Hyman lately. They are two of my all-time favorite vocalists. Both of whom I've been listening to and loving since I was very young.

Chaka Khan recently received a Lifetime Achievement Award at the BET Awards. Much deserved and long overdue if you ask me. I've been bumping the following albums: Chaka, I Feel For You, Come 2 My House, Classikhan, The Best of Rufus & Chaka Khan, and Epiphany: The Best of Chaka Khan, Vol. 1. Word on the street is that she's been working Jimmy Jam and Terry Lewis on a new album. Sounds like it's going to be hot! I'll be first in line to get it when it drops.

Phyllis Hyman is yet another consummate artist who never received the acclaim and accolades she rightly deserved. I've been playing the following over and over again: Phyllis Hyman, You Know How To Love Me, Living All Alone, The Prime of My Life, and The Legacy of Phyllis Hyman. It would be nice if she were inducted into the Grammy Hall of Fame or received a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame even. (If Britney Spears has a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame, why not?) Though she's no longer with us, her legacy continues to live on. Now that I think of it, it would also be nice if Arista/BMG would re-release all of her earlier albums from 1977 - 1983. There's no doubt in my mind that there's an audience out here who craves them. I wrote a poem in tribute to Phyllis a few years back. Since her birthday is approaching, I may put it up. She would've been 57 this year.

Until later, hope you all have a great weekend!

I'se Graduated Now!!!

2006-06-26T03:49:00.000-04:00

Yes, yes. May 27, 2006 marked the close of another chapter along this journey. I graduated with my Masters in Information Technology. It was truly a remarkable thing. The weight of it all didn't hit me until the Dean of our college began speaking. I was saying to myself - this is really a big deal. Especially being the first male in my family to graduate with a Bachelors and a Masters from college. And being one of a small number of black males graduating from my school's computing college adds to that. It hasn't been easy. It's been a struggle from day one. But I kept striving. Kept moving. Kept pushing on. And the next chapter will mark the beginning of the reward for all of this hard work. One thing's for sure, I definitely didn't do it on my own. I am truly grateful for the love and support from my family, friends, mentors, professors, supervisors, and others along the way. And I'm ready to give back to the community that's given so much to me. It is my turn to be the model, the inspiration, the reality check, the supporter, the mentor to those coming after me. It's only right.

Graduation weekend was beautiful yet very bittersweet. You find that so many people you've become close with were heading down the same road. And now, it's time for closure. For the road you were traveling down is going to become quite different. But before all the final goodbyes, you know you've got party one last time (and there was plenty of that)!

After graduation, I went home for a few weeks. Chilled with the fam, enjoyed some good food and got some much needed rest. I also had the pleasure of singing at two of my dearest friends' wedding. I did my rendition of John Legend's "So High." I received a great deal praise (my friends keep telling me that their families and friends won't stop talking about how good my performance was). I was just happy to take part in the commemoration and celebration of their love. The wedding was a beautiful introduction to the journey that they will taking together. I wish them well.

I've been back in Rochester, NY for the last few weeks. Where I'll be until I start working most likely. I do have some things to wrap up - the main one being my grad project. Remember - it was supposed to be a thesis. But during the fourth week of spring quarter - it had to be changed to a somewhat unrelated grad project. So I had to go back and do everything all over again. Yeah, I know.....It sucks. Once this is done, I can sever all ties to student life. The sooner the better. I'm also interviewing and waiting to hear back about jobs. Such a long, drawn out process. I had no idea it would be this involved. But I shall not worry. Something good will come along!

Oh goodness....This post is getting kinda long. I guess this is what happens when you don't keep your blog updated regularly. I've got a little bit of extra time on my hands now, so I'm hoping to alleviate that issue. Until next time - live, love and learn!

If....

2006-04-07T11:55:00.000-04:00

I've been tagged by ProfessorGQ. These were some pretty cool questions. Check out my answers below.

If you were to be the opposite sex for one day, what would you do?
I would be a gold digger and have men cater to my every need. LOL!

If you had to name the most difficult thing about being a teenager today, what would you say?
Trying to be yourself in a world where people expect you to conform.

If you had to name the most embarrassing moment of your life, when was it?
There have been several of those. The one that sticks out the most is -- when I was in the seventh grade, in the lunch room. I was just coming back to the table with my lunch. Sitting directly in front of me were two of my friends. They were fighting over a carton of chocolate milk. Before I could get my grub on, I found myself covered in--you guessed it--chocolate milk. I stormed out of the lunch room and to the nearest bathroom for damage control. I was so pissed! It was a shame too cause I was looking real fly that day.

If you had to name the most overrated actor in Hollywood, who would it be?
Tom Cruise - really can't stand him. I still can't get over the fact that that they allowed him to play a samurai. He is not worthy.

If you had to name the one personality trait that you have tried the hardest to change in yourself, what would you say?
Being a perfectionist. It has its positives, but definitely has its negatives. Sometimes you just got to say fuck it!

If you could go back for one minute to the Garden of Eden and give Adam advice, what would you say?
Yo dawg, you need to watch Eve. She about to set you up.

If you were to name the best "I told you so" you ever got to deliver, what was it?
Oh boy! I told one of my good friends that he needed to stop trying to play his ex-girlfriend, especially after a not-so-good break-up. He was still trying to talk to her, while talking to his new girl. I told him you need to stop thinking with the head between your legs and start thinking with the head attached to your neck. Cause if she finds out that you're trying to play her, that's your ass. Well, she found out (and she told the new girl what was going on). And let's just say he had to lay low for awhile.

If you were Madonna, what would you do for your next publicity stunt?
How about nothing??!! She needs to keep it chill before she gets another hernia. BOW OUT!!!

If you could have a lifetime 50% discount in any single store at your local mall, which store would it be in?
Only one store....Not fair! Okay, I guess it'll have to be Abercrombie & Fitch.

If you could have one more pet, what kind would you get, and what would you name it?
It would be a dog, a pug, and I'd name it Tamar.

If you could have God perform one miracle today, what would you want it to be?
Finding a cure for HIV/AIDS.

If you could spend next New Year's Eve doing anything, what would you do, and with whom.
I'd spend it with my baby, DP, in the Bahamas.

If you were to set your country's immigration policy, what would it be?
If you're illegal and you get caught out there, you've got to go! There are no exceptions.

If you were given the power to settle the issue of gays in the military, what policy would you set?
It's not an issue. If you want to serve your country, it should be your right just like anything else. Sexual orientation shouldn't be a hinderance.

If you could have one person you have lost touch with call you up tonight and invite you to dinner, who would you want it to be?
It would have to be with one of my best childhood friend's Larry. It's a shame that we've lost not once, but twice.

If you could change one thing about your love life, what would it be?
The fact that it's long distance and there's a six hour time difference. Maybe I should be happy it's only for a few more months.

If you could have prevented one book from ever having been written, which book would it be?
Hands down it's On the Down Low: A Journey into the Lives of 'Straight' Black Men Who Sleep With Men by J. L. King.

If you have to name the best music album ever recorded, which would you select?
This is a tough one. There are too many to choose from. Okay, okay....Marvin Gaye's What's Goin On?

If you could have one thing made out of pure gold, what would you choose?
Though I've got a few more months to go (thankfully), I'd have to say my master's degree from college.

If God were to whisper one thing in your ear, what would you like Him to say?
You've successfully completed your journey. You've loved, shared, cared, inspired, assisted, led, learned, and lived. You've made me proud. Now it's time for you to come home. Welcome!

Thesis....It's a Bad Word!

2006-03-06T01:06:00.000-05:00

Wassup ya'll! Hope all is well. I've been away from my blog a lot longer than I anticipated. The life of a grad student - craziness!

I'm this close to banishing the word "thesis" from my vocabulary. I wish someone would've told me that I would run into this much drama trying to get this thesis done. I've changed so many things in the last two months that it's ridiculous. I have three professors on my committee and they all seem to want something different. They all have a different idea of what it is that I should be doing. This is what's been creating a bit of a problem for me. I will be having a meeting with all of them soon to ensure that we are and will continue to remain on the same page. I'm nipping this shit in the bud! As I've been talking to my friends and other students who are working on their graduate theses and projects, I keep hearing a lot of horror stories about this process. Something that begins as your own creation or something that you want to do turns into being what your committee members want you to do. They end up having the final say on everything. If they like it, you graduate. If they don't like it, you have to make the changes and defend it until it meets their approval. If you're in the BS/MS program at my school and you fall in the latter category, both of your degrees can and will be held up because of this. It seems like all the power and control is in everyone else's hands but your own. But I'm determined to win this. I'm getting mines!

Aside from school, I've been seeing someone for about four months now. For the most part, everything has been wonderful. We've had a few arguments and have pissed each other off a few times. But in any relationship, it's expected. We've been able to work through it and not let it destroy what's currently building between us. I think some of it has to do with the fact that we both have strong personalities always vying for attention and total domination. All we can do is laugh about it now. It looks very promising though. I am happy. After being single for almost two years, it's nice to have someone in my corner. I forgot how good that feel.

Rest in Peace Octavia Butler. The first black woman of prominence in the literary world of Science/Speculative Fiction. You were truly one of the greats. We will miss you. But your spirit will live on in the beautifully written, multi-faceted, groundbreaking stories you've shared with us. I'll be finishing Bloodchild and Fledgling over spring break.

That's about it for now. Thesis, music reviews, articles and the continued hunt for a job are upon the horizon. Until later....Take Care!

And So Went The Dreads: The Rundown for 2006

2006-01-22T20:55:00.000-05:00

After talking about it for sometime, I finally did it—I cut off my dreads. I did it over winter break. I went back to my old high school barber and it was a wrap! What a liberating feeling it was to release all of the energy held within. There was a bit of sadness, but not for long. It happened so fast, I really didn’t have ample time to cry over lost dreads. Guess I have to get used to going to the barbershop every two-three weeks again.

Many have asked why I decided to do it. Well, after about six years, I decided that it was time to try something new. Even after telling people this, some still assumed that something must have happened in my life (something life-changing or bad) to make me cut my hair. I will admit that there’s been a lot going on in my life. However, it had nothing to do with the cutting of my hair. It’s a new year. It’s time for change. I guess I just don’t place as much value in hair as many others do. There’s more to me than how I choose to wear my hair (too bad many can’t grasp this). Like India.Arie, “I Am Not My Hair.” Plus it’s easier to manage. I can wear a greater variety of hats (which I’ve been doing a lot lately since I tend to get cold more now than ever). I’ve also been getting more compliments with short hair than I did when it was long. So this brotha is still turning heads! I’m not one to brag, but when you’re fine—you’re fine.

Well, besides the new hair cut, I’ll be working to lose about 30 pounds. I have what many have told is football player’s build. Probably would’ve been a good Running Back. My mission is to slim down and tone up. Gotta get right for the summer! Also on slate for ’06, letting go/getting rid of baggage and avoiding drama at all costs. I’ve also need to work on staying in better touch with friends. I have tendency to fall of the face of the Earth when there’s a lot going on my life. I will shut people out, but not purposely. I guess I didn’t really pay too much attention to this until recently. The people that mean the most should be the last people to shut out of your life, especially when the journey gets a little rough. So I’m going to try really hard to rectify my fascination with pulling the disappearing act.

Other goals include finishing my thesis (topic: blogging in higher education), graduating with my masters, and finding a great job/fellowship somewhere outside of Upstate New York. After attending school in Rochester, NY for the last six years I’m praying for a drastic location change. Anywhere but here please! As always, I gotta keep writing, singing, performing, and creating artistic masterpieces. And we’ll see what the year has in store in the love department (so far so good)!

So that’s what’s on my plate for ’06. I’m looking forward to all that life has in store this year. May the year be fruitful and joyous for all!

Buddah's Back: It's Been Too Long!

2005-12-11T23:57:00.000-05:00

I can't believe it's been over a month since I last made a post. It's amazing how quickly time can escape you. So what have I been up too? I'll tell you as succinctly as I can. Fall quarter ended on a crazy but a very high note. I got 2 A's and 2 B's. I have successfully completed all of my master's classes. Now on to the next daunting task....The Thesis! I'm in the process of finetuning my proposal for approval by my thesis committee and my department. I'm pushing to have it approved as soon as I come back from winter break. If I can get it approved before break that would be wonderful. But I'm not going to stress it. As for the topic, I'll be looking into the usage of weblogs in high school education. I've been doing a lot research to expand my literature review in my proposal. The findings have been pretty interesting thus far (more about that in a later post).

I've also been in the process of looking for a job. I've been slowly but surely applying, sending out resumes, attending job fairs and communicating with those I've come to know very well in my social network. People have been asking, "So what are you doing after graduation?" My response is, "If I knew the answer to that question I probably wouldn't be here now." For many that I know who are graduating in the spring, we are trying to get an answer to that very question ourselves. If you weren't fortunate enough to be offered a job from the last place you interned/co-oped, you'll most likely get word of job/fellowship offers in late winter/early spring. I've also been asked if I was going to stay at my current school and get my Ph.D. I said, "Hell No!" First of all, it's time to go. I've been at this school for almost six years. It's been nice--it's been real--but I'm ready to go! Second of all, a Ph.D is so far from my mental scope right now. I'll probably get another master's degree before I go that route. Third of all, can a brotha get a break? I'm so tired of school right now. Thank god I finished with my classes when I did. I had three four-hour evening classes and one online class. I don't think I could stand another quarter let alone full year of that again . I'm ready to go out and work. Once I become fully acclimated with the workworld, there's no guarantee that I'll still be in love with the computing field. It'll be better to find this out sooner than later. In this life you never know how it's going to turn out. But whatever is to come my way, I'm going to stay optimistic. I'm looking forward to it. Whatever is to come my way, I'm going to accept it and embrace it with open arms.

Oh well, I guess I better get back to work. I haven't been feeling too well today. Actually, it's something that's been on-again, off-again for the last five days or so. All I'm gonna say is allergies (and upper-respiratory issues) are a bitch! Research is calling my name. Plus, I have to finish getting ready for a meeting I have to lead Monday night about the evolution of music videos over the last two decades. This will be for Emerging Black Artists, the club I'm a student advisor for. Between work, the thesis, meetings and dates (Am I dreaming? Could it be? Yes, dates--it's about time!), it's going to be yet another busy week. Oh yeah, I get my refund this week. And I get paid on Friday. Getting out of the poor house--it's a wonderful thing!

I'm going to try my best to post a little bit more regularly. The length of time between this and the next post shouldn't so long (I hope). Until then, I wish you all the best!

Rest in peace Richard Pryor (1940 - 2005).

The Best Thing, My Love

2005-10-26T04:42:00.001-04:00

Ok, here's a poem I wrote back in high school (in the 11th grade to be exact). This one always seems to stand out. It's a trip when you go back and read your older works.

The Best Thing, My Love

It’s the
Pulsating rhythms of my heart
You give
The beating of drums of my pulse
I live
It’s the syncopated breaths that I breathe
It’s the ruckus of sound in my ears
You made leave
It’s that music you helped make of me
That 12/8 measure in my eyes
I see
I’m in love

It’s that explicit
Nature of your luscious lips
That carried that lyrical content
To my lips
That continuously rolls
Number one songs
For hour tolls
We sing tastes
Of albums haste
You made me play the piano with
My hands
You strum the guitar
Of my abs
My body is
The bass you play
By plucking or playing with
The bow-like fingers
On your hands
You are the best thing,
My love

© 1998 BuddahDesmond

Janet & The 18 Year Old Daughter Rumors

2005-10-26T03:30:00.000-04:00

The media must have nothing better to do than mess with the Jackson clan. Need I say anything more. This time, it's not Michael, it's not Latoya, or Jermaine in the news....It's Janet. Rumors have surfaced yet again about her supposedly having a daughter from a previous marriage. Young DeBarge, 28, recently announced during an interview on the radio that Janet has an 18 year old daughter who's been staying with Rebbie, her oldest sister. Janet was married to one of Young's older brothers, James DeBarge for a hot minute back in the 80s. According to Young, "James and the Jackson family kept everything real close, real tight." Someone please tell me why is this anybody's business all of a sudden?

This is not the first time these rumors have surfaced. I remember these rumors surfacing in the early 90's when LaToya was airing out all of her's family's dirty laundry with her infamous autobiography. (She also acknowledged that Michael had been spending too much time with little boys--but this is another topic altogether.) If Janet and James had a baby and wanted to keep it a secret, it's their business. Now if the supposed daughter is just finding out that Janet and James are her real parents, then this sheds a different light on the situation. I couldn't imagine how detrimental this kind of info would be after living a certain kind of life for 18 years or more. It could rock your world. But it wouldn't be the first time or last time that something like this has happened. Drama like this happens everyday. It would be crazy to think that the Jackson's and the DeBarge's are the only families on this planet keeping secrets. Doesn't make it right, but please let's be realistic.

The supposed daughter is 18. She's grown. Let her and her family deal with this the best way they know how. Damn, can the Jackson's have any kind of peace??!!

And let us not forget that Young DeBarge (who released/rehashed this info) is an aspiring singer who just finished recording an album. Can I say publicity?

Regardless of whether Janet has children or not, I'm still going to buy her next record. So there! And after news like this, shit, it better be good!

On Marriage....

2005-10-13T01:55:00.000-04:00

So many marriages are crumbling. Whether it’s people in the spotlight or people in our personal lives. Marriages currently seem to be more like short-lived excursions instead of life-long, fruitful journeys. At this rate, the only couple who looks like they’re going to make it is Whitney & Bobby. Recently, I told two of my friends (who’ll be tying the knot June 2006) if they end of like Babyface and Tracey Edmonds I’m going to cut them both. But seriously, where are the marriages/relationships like Ruby Dee & the late Ossie Davis? You know, marriages like our great-grandparents, grandparents and quite possibly our parents….When the love just seems to get stronger and stronger and the relationship seems to get better and better. When problems arise and they’re able to keep it civil, work it out and stay together….

Today, it seems like people are getting married for all the wrong reasons. Lust. Money. Security. Because a baby is on the way. Not because you want to but because it’s expected. First and foremost it’s supposed to be about love. At the same time, marriage is a business. Once you sign that contract, you’re making an arrangement between you, your spouse and the state (or government). Maybe this part is irrelevant. Then again maybe not. My point is this—why get married if your heart isn’t in it? Why make these arrangements or this commitment if this isn’t the person you truly love and desire? If you’re marrying only for security, what happens if it turns out to be a false sense of security? Marrying for children or because there is a child on the way doesn’t seem to be any better, especially if one (or both) of you has resignations about going thru with it. As we all should know, the children will be affected either way. Even more so if they have to endure unstable, hostile relations between parents who really don’t want or need to be together.

It should be a requirement that before you walk down that aisle, make sure he or she is the one. You also need to make sure you really know each other. There’s nothing worse than getting some unexpected surprises down the line. If there’s something you want or feel you need to know, you better ask! You need to discuss money, children, jobs, relocating, etc., before you jump over that broomstick. Because it’s so easy for any relationship to end, but it’s work if you want the relationship to last. If one person is trying and the other person fails to even make an attempt, you’re going to have some issues.

Another hot component to this discussion is the sanctity of marriage. But this typically comes up with yet another hot button issue—gay marriage. In all honesty, gay marriage is not going to burn down the house of holy matrimony. Newsflash everyone—the sanctity of marriage was already in jeopardy long before the gay marriage debate began. Take a look at TV today. When you have reality shows (really faux reality shows) like The Bachelor, The Bachelorette, Who Wants to Marry My Dad?, Wife Swap, Trading Spouses, and the like, it signifies a big problem in our society with marriage. There are larger issues to consider when statistics say that marriages nowadays are more likely to end in divorce. How about considering many of the following questions: Why people don't stay together? Why people commit adultery? Why people lie? Why fewer people are deciding to get married? And just how does gay marriage threaten anyone’s idea of marriage? You're not directly influenced by it – especially if you’re involved in an altogether different relationship. So still, how does it affect you at all? And furthermore, what right does anyone have in invalidating another's relationship by saying their relationship is insignificant (because of their sexuality)? But I digress.

Maybe the other part of this discussion needs to be reconsidering whether a traditional relationship is right for you. You may not be a fan of traditional. You may want a relationship that’s a bit more radical. Possibly an open relationship. A committed relationship without the basis of monogamy. Or maybe you want the fruits of traditional marriage without all the hoopla. As far as I know, no correlations have been made specifically stating that relationships more often than not fail to endure if there’s been no exchange of rings or a formal ceremony. Marriage, the idea or the actual experience, is not for everyone. You may have walk down the aisle a couple of times before you figure it out (sadly). But hey, that’s just how it goes.

With all the many wonderful things that we encounter and achieve in this life, isn’t it just nice to share them with someone you love? Someone that’s got your back. Someone that’s always going to be there. Someone you can have great conversations with, cuddle with, laugh with and cry with. Someone that you can rush home to each and every night.

Isn’t this the overall goal? Is it possible? Or is this just wishful thinking? I think that it is possible. But I can only go on what I’ve experienced, what I’ve been exposed to and what I believe. I sincerely hope that the forecast calls for brighter, lighter conditions on the marriage/relationship front for everyone.

What do you think?

The "Morally Reprehensible" William Bennett and Other Musings

2005-10-13T01:47:00.000-04:00

By now, the name William Bennett should ring a bell. Bennett, the former Secretary of Education under the Reagan administration, made rather racist comments about reducing crime on his radio show not too long ago. If you haven’t heard the comments you must have been living in some kind of padded, soundproof cell. But just in case, Bennett said, "...you could abort every black baby in this country, and your crime rate would go down."

So tell us how you really feel….Anything else you want to throw out there to enlighten us? Go ahead, we’re all ears. We’re waiting. And people say racism no longer exists. What a crock! Bennett later went on to say that it "would be an impossible, ridiculous, and morally reprehensible thing to do ... but the crime rate would go down." What a contradiction. Maybe he would’ve fared better if he kept his mouth shut.

My question is this, why abort all the black babies? How is it that the crime rate will go down if all black babies are aborted and no other group of babies? It doesn’t make it right and I don’t support the argument either way, but if you insist to continue with the argument why not abort all babies (regardless of race) if you want to lower the crime rate. This is completely ludicrous! Comments like these prove just how disposable we are. Comments like these prove just how little respect and decency a significant portion of this society has towards black people. And to top it all off, very few if any members of the GOP (please correct me if I’m wrong) condemned Bennett for his comments. So that must mean that several other members of his party share similar beliefs. Or they don’t see anything wrong with the comments. This incident reminds me of the climate after some comments Vincente Fox, President of Mexico, made months back. [for more info, check here http://www.seeingblack.com/2005/x080305/mexican_stamp.shtml and here http://www.adl.org/international_affairs/letter_mexico.asp]

These incidents and the recent Hurricane Katrina tragedy (the rather tardy response of government officials and the presentation of the incident by the news media) go on to show that we still have serious racial and social class issues in this country. People try to push racism further under the rug or act like it no longer exists. However, it’s still ever present. Social class issues have never really been dealt with in this country at all. Meanwhile, the disparities between the races and within the races seem to grow wider and wider as the years progress.

Typically, the GOP is late (if ever present) to the table when issues of race are the top of the menu (not unless it addresses something that will impact them directly). Because we all know it’s about the haves and the have-nots. And if you fall in with the latter, the GOP wants little to nothing to do with you. Oh yeah, let me not forget to mention that the White House Press Secretary did issue a statement from Bush saying that Bennett’s comments were “inappropriate.” Wow, what a response! On the other hand, the Democrats responded promptly, demanding that Bennett apologize. Some even went as far to call for Bennett’s resignation from his radio show.

Historically, it’s members of the GOP who’ve made comments along the lines of Bennett. And when the shit hits the fan, they typically stick by their remarks, will not apologize, and will cry that they’ve been misquoted, misrepresented and misunderstood. When in actuality, they weren’t mis- anything. They were quoted, represented and understood quite well.

While everyone else drowns, several members of the GOP continue to swim to the top of the sea of bigotry, racism, social class disparities, inequalities and homophobia. Well it’s time for us to rise to the top and rid the sea of its pollution. Cause we’ve got a long way to go. It’d be wise to get the boxing gloves ready. It’s going to be long fight. And it won’t be ending early.

I’m interested in knowing your thoughts. What are your ideas, opinions, recommendations, etc., about what we as a community (and we as a society) need to do to get beyond this current demise?

Be On The Lookout.....

2005-10-10T04:24:00.000-04:00

If you're looking at the time of this post, you're probably wondering what I'm still doing up. Well, I've been keeping myself pre-occupied by getting stuff done. (Of course being nocturnal doesn't help.) And I'm a little pissed because Blogger ate up my post and I had to type this shit again. Anyway.....After I got my homework done for the day (cause there's more to do tomorrow and the next day and so on), I finished writing up my thank cards to those who've been looking out for me these last few months, drafting upcoming posts for the blog, listening to music, catching up on my favorite blogs, and thinking about life and what I'm going to do next.

Well, it's week 6 here at school. My, my how times flies. That means that there's four weeks left of the quarter, then finals, and then Thanksgiving break here we come! With this being my last quarter of classes for my masters, I'm halfway free! I'm doing research and trying to finish my proposal for my thesis. This is the next big endeavor to tackle winter and spring quarter. I've been so busy that I've had little to no time to apply for jobs, fellowships and other opportunities beyond graduation. I've gotten as far as applying for one job and that was during our 15-minute break in my Thursday night class (6pm-10pm - it's painful). Well, I guess there's only but so much you can do before you break. And I will not be having one of those widely publicized breakdowns a la Mariah Carey (love you girl!). But then again, maybe it's worth it if you can come back killin' em only the way MC can do it.

Anyway, be on the lookout for these posts:

The "Morally Reprehensible" William Bennett and Other Musings
On Marriage....
A new poem, "Homecoming"
and of course, Music, Music Music

Until then, take care!

Stevie Wonder's 'A Time 2 Love' Finally Sees The Light Of Day!!!

2005-10-03T01:05:00.000-04:00

Good news, good news. There is a confirmed released date for Stevie Wonder's highly-anticipated (and that's an understatment) new record A Time 2 Love. Yes, you read that correctly....There is finally a release date for Stevie Wonder's new record. A Time 2 Love will be commercially available on October 18th. But there's other good news. The new record was released digitally on September 27th. So for all those who have the capabilities (and don't want to wait for the October 18th release date), you can get the album now!

So why was the record's release date postponed so many times? In an interview with Billboard Magazine, Wonder says that he had to make sure the time was right for the release of his record. '"As an artist, you get anxious and excited -- you want to show what you can do....A lot of what I do when I do an album is based on whether the timing is right."' Okay, all is forgiven. I wish a lot of other artists in the game followed the same sense of thinking. Maybe Wonder can share this wisdom with some of his peers.

The 15-track set about love features many high-profile guests. Prince and EnVogue are featured on "So What the Fuss." Bonnie Raitt plays slide guitar on "Tell Your Heart I Love You." Kim Burrell and Doug E. Fresh are featured on "If Your Love Cannot Be Moved." India. Arie and Paul McCartney are featured on the title track. And Wonder's daughter Aisha Morris is featured on "How Will I Know" and "Positivity." Also featured is a song Wonder wrote in honor of those affected by Hurricane Katrina. The proceeds from this song (to be released digitally on October 11th) will go towards relief efforts.

Tracklist for A Time 2 Love:

If Your Love Cannot Be Moved
Sweetest Somebody I Know
Moon Blue
From the Bottom of My Heart
Please Don't Hurt My Baby
How Will I Know
My Love Is on Fire
Passionate Raindrops
Tell Your Heart I Love You
True Love
Shelter in the Rain
So What the Fuss
Can't Imagine Love Without You
Positivity
A Time To Love

For more info:

http://www.steviewonder.net/

http://www.billboard.com/bb/daily/article_display.jsp?vnu_content_id=1001181834