Inherent - A Throwback Poem

What's goin' on folks?! Hope you had a happy, safe holiday weekend. I'm good, or shall I say better. I just got over a two-week illness this past weekend. I had an upper respiratory infection and acute pharyngitis. It was no fun. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. And the antibiotic made me feel worse. I'm sorry but I will never be a fan of medicine that makes you feel worse in order to make you feel better. Can I get a natural remedy instead? LOL! But luckily - all is well. I'm so happy this happened now as opposed to next month when I have to travel for business or during vacation later this summer. Anyway, I've been reviewing some of my poetry for a few upcoming projects. And I thought I'd leave you with a poem I wrote back in 1998 entitled, "Inherent".

Have a wonderful week!

Inherent

For so long I
Breathed your love
Drank your air
Digested your breath
Tasted your feelings

For so long I
Savored the kiss of your lips
Devoured your kindness
Enjoyed the flavor of your touch
I lived inside your heart

For so long you
Gave so much
Maybe I didn’t give enough
But I’m inherent to you and your
Love
I live you
And oblivious of this you are not
And maybe these feelings are ambiguous
But I’m inherent to you and your
Love

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: Christina Milian - Dip It Low
via FoxyTunes

If I Was A Ho...

Of all the dreams I could have
One is kind of off and raunchy
Not anything you’d expect of me
But hey, one can dream...
If I was a ho…

If I was a ho
I’d be slaying muthafuckas day and night
I’d have my regulars
And my one-nighters
And there’d be no overnights
Do the do and get out

If I was a ho
I’d make ‘em work for it
You will be treating me right
And treating me well
And you won’t be stopping by empty handed
Or unannounced

If I was a ho
I’d acknowledge that I was a ho
There’d be no lyin’
No frontin’
You ask, I’m gonna tell you
Straight up
If you have a problem with it – STEP!

If I was a ho
I’d make sure that I was getting
Tested on a regular basis
And demand the same from my conquests

If I was a ho
You would respect me
Cause I ain’t that type of ho
Thinkin’ you can get at me
Whenever you want and treat me like shit
Oh no
Not me
Ho or otherwise

If I was a ho
I’d give it a new name
Some grace and some class
I’d bring new relevance
To the jump-off
And show that even hoes
Got it goin’ on

But I ain’t a ho
As I could be one
I can’t bring myself to do it
It’s crazy out here
And it’s just easier to be
In a committed relationship
Or at home with a porno flick jerkin’ off

So no, I’m not a ho
And have no plans of being one
Anytime soon
But if I was – I’d be number one

~ BuddahDesmond

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Now playing: The-Dream - Rockin' That Thang
via FoxyTunes

I’ll Never Understand

In our society, who you align yourself with is just as important as what you believe, your actions, your experience, and where you come from. It’s been said that the people you hang with or conduct business with say a lot about who you are as a person. I guess this couldn’t be any truer in public office. Many have been tarnished by the actions of others. Whether they had anything to do with what went down, they are guilty by association. I’ll never understand why, especially if it’s over foolishness that you had nothing to do with. Or when there is an obvious disconnect between your platform and that of close colleagues. It makes no sense to me how people automatically change their opinions of you and your character based upon the beliefs held by people that you know. Especially when you’ve expressed the distinctions on more than one occasion. You shouldn’t have to distance yourself from those close to you because of a fiery speech they gave, controversial rhetoric in an article, book, or video clip, or because certain beliefs they have challenge those held by the masses. It seems to me to be more of a problem with the public and less of problem with or for you. Or more of a problem for pundits, side liners, and so-called experts. People have to learn to accept the unknown, the foreign, and the distinctive. People have to learn to separate individuals from other people, their actions, and their beliefs. Many times – these factors are not synonymous. Why should someone be alienated and vilified for actions not taken and words unsaid by them? Though I’ll never understand this, I hope that people understand the implications and will hold themselves accountable just as much as public figures to a bar that is unrealistically high. Cause if you’re going to do it to others, the golden rule says the same should apply to you.

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Now playing: Maysa - Never Really Ever
via FoxyTunes

Buddah's Question

With the advent of blogging, microblogging (i.e. Twitter), and social networking sites, the way in which we communicate with each other continues to change. My question is - have these tools helped you create or sustain connections with people? Have these tools heightened your ability to stay in touch or pull back from your peers? And have they opened the door for several opportunities to reach or communicate with people who you might not otherwise? Let me know your thoughts.

Hope you all have a great week! Peace!

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Now playing: Van Hunt - Down Here in Hell (With You)
via FoxyTunes

Buddah's Thoughts

1. I was really psyched about seeing Beyonce on tour - until I found out how much the tickets were. I just can't bring myself to pay $100+ for the nosebleed section at the Verizon Center. Plus, I'm in debt payoff mode and saving for new furniture and vacation. I had to prioritize. Looks like Bey will have to wait. I can catch the I AM.... Tour on DVD. I know, I know - it's not the same.... But financial stability (and maintaining it) is more important.
2. My boyfriend and I saw the new X-Men Origins: Wolverine movie Friday night. We loved it! The plot, the acting, the special effects, cinematography - all top notch! I have to admit I thought this was much better than X-Men 3....
3. Well, the media is up to its old tricks again - fear mongering.... And you should already know what I'm referring to when I say.... The coverage of the swine flu. Living in fear - didn't we get tired of this under the Bush Administration? Has anyone learned anything yet? Being afraid is not going to help us get over this pandemic any sooner. We need to be prudent and do our best to safeguard ourselves. We have to be a little smarter about this folks.... And looking to the media is not always the answer....
4. And is there anything else to report on other than Miss California's viewpoints on marriage? It's overkill at this point. Who care? This is America. Everyone can say or feel what they want. The problem comes in when you are browbeating others into thinking, feeling, and believing the same way. I have no problem with her viewpoints. I don't agree with them but it's not stopping me from believing what I believe or how I'm living my life. (See my post On Marriage for more.)
5. There are certain things that shouldn't be discussed at work. Politics, sex, religion, certain aspects of relationships.... I could go on and on. You usually have discussions about this at orientation and get documentation from HR regarding this.... But people do it anyway. You need to however, be very careful because you never know who is listening and who might be offended by what is said regarding any of the topics listed above. Oh the conversations that I've heard - it's mind boggling. Thank god I can tune things out with music.... It's been my saving grace many-a-day.
   
6. It's amazing how deep connections can be between friends. It doesn't matter what happens, the distance between you, how often you see or speak to each other - there's something that just keeps you linked. You can pick up where you left off with ease. You remain each other's constant supporters. I've noticed this so often with my closest friends. It's truly a great thing!
7. I have ongoing issues with mainstream music. I'm not sure when or where everything went amok but very little seems to fascinate me. As I get older, I seem to fall in love more and more with "grown folks music". Music that not only sounds good but has a purpose. It makes you think, feel, laugh, cry, dance.... It's real, never contrived. It doesn't follow trends and isn't derived from some tired, ole formula. It's art. And it's obvious when listening and seeing artists perform that they do it for the love of music and not for the money.
8. I'm looking forward to hearing Chrisette Michele's new album, Epiphany, to be released this Tuesday, May 5th. Her debut was one of 2007's best R&B/Soul releases. And I expect nothing but great music on the new release. I can't stop playing "Epiphany" and "What You Do". And I just heard "Blame It On Me" on Saturday (and that may become a new favorite as well).
9. Can you believe it - Maxwell has new music coming out? The first part of his trilogy BLACKsummers'night will be released on July 7th. The first single "Pretty Wings" is a masterpiece. It's classic Maxwell and a welcomed addition to keep in rotation. It's been 8 years since his last studio album. If "Pretty Wings" is any indication - it'll be well worth the wait.
10. I'm really looking forward to the summer. Being able to catch up on my reading. Hanging out with friends and family. Going to concerts and other events. The beach. Vacation. And spending quality time with my baby.... :)
    
11. After a long break, I'll be heading back to the gym. I paid for a new membership at Bally's this Saturday (great deal by the way - $29.99 a month/no initiation fee). I'll be working out at least 3 days a week. I've lost about 8-10 pounds without working out. It's now time to up the ante. The goal is to be healthier and stronger. Gotta make life changes and stick to them.

Oh well, that's it for me. Got to finish getting ready for the work week. Until next time, peace, love, and many blessings!